I don't think Cass can see it. I don't think I'd want him to.
When I see his eyes I feel alive. A relief spills over me for a moment and I am satisfied finally.
But my heart still aches.
Behind that door is a secret.
A passageway to something I have felt since I was young.
The curve of a boy's lip… or collarbone.
I saw it then…that moment came and went.
I do as always, I ignored what it was.
But with Castiel… it's difficult.
I'm afraid that he can see through me
That I may love him.