goodbye 
Title: The Last Good-Bye
Author: mercury_999
Rating: G
Spoilers: This Is Not Happening
Category: Angst; postep
Keywords: Mulder/Scully romance
Disclaimer: These characters aren't mine. I just took them
from CC for about an hour :)
Distribution: Please ask first
Summary: After the funeral.
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She lingers in the cemetery as the solemn crowd begins to
depart. With their heads bowed, they walk to their cars like a
black wave over the green grass. On this May morning the grey
sky drenched everything with humidity. Her boss approaches
her, and places his hand on her shoulder. She stares at her feet
and nods her head absently while he talks to her. He pulls away
to leave, but she stops him. He stares at her with soft eyes, and
she bites her trembling lip. New tears come to her eyes, as she
wraps her arms around his neck. He speaks softly to her as
he holds her in a tight embrace. She buries her face in his
trench coat, while he rocks her slightly. 
She finally pulls away from him, giving him a weak smile. 
There are only a few cars left in the small parking lot. He
squeezes her hand, and says something else. She nods and
replies. He walks away, turning to glance at her. 
She stands there, her chin tilted upward slightly. I can see her
lower lip start to tremble, and her fists clench at her sides. She
gazes at the grey sky, not moving. Her eyes mirror the remains
of the broken truths of the life she lived. 
Another man moves up beside her, but pauses before he reaches
her. She speaks, without turning to him. He doesn't seem to
know what to say. Tears shimmering in her eyes, she peels
them from the sky and turns to face him. He stammers, and she
replies. Tears form in his eyes as he touches her hand. She
nods at him, and he pulls away. She watches him walk slowly
away, his head bowed.
We are the only people left here. Once the man drives away,
she walks very slowly to his grave. She staggers the last few
steps, then reaches it. She presses her palms against the cold
stone, a look of pain forming on her face. 
All at once, she drops to her knees on the fresh soil and starts
sobbing. "MULDER!!" she cried, her shoulders heaving
violently.
I start walking toward her.
"Oh Mulder.... why?" she sobbed. "I need you... I can't do this
by myself."
I reached her, and knelt down beside her. I placed my hand on
her back, trying to ease her pain. When she turned to me
slowly, I noticed her cheeks were stained with tears and her
eyes red from crying. Her whole body trembling, she reached
for me. I hugged her tightly in my arms, and she sobbed into
my chest. I brushed her hair from her face, and kissed the top
of her head. 
"Oh mom..." she trailed off. "I miss him so much."
"I know... I know..." I whispered, rocking her in my arms. I sat
there holding her for a long time, gathering the strength to help
her leave. Finally, I slowly got to my feet, taking her with me.
"I can't leave him," she cried. 
"Dana, listen to me," I said softly. She swayed in my arms.
"You've got to accept this and let him go. I know it's going to be
hard. I know it hurts. I've been there before. You've got to let
him go." 
She nodded and took a deep breath. I released her and she knelt
back down at his grave. Closing her eyes, she ran her fingers
over the stone.
"Good-bye Mulder," she whispered. "I love you."
She hesitated for a second before she stood back up. She
looked at me with distress, almost as if she were going to
stumble. Then with sad eyes, she brought her hand to her
womb. My heart ached for her. I put my arm over her
shoulders and drew her in again. Then I guided her across the
grass to the car. 
I opened the passenger door and she slid into the seat. Her
expressionless gaze rested on her lap. I closed the passenger
door and walked around the car to the drivers side. 
I've found her sitting out there a few times since that morning,
and I'm sure she's there more often then I know of. She is
unwillingly believing in this fate, but she can't let him go. I can
feel her pain. I've been there before.
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FINIS
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