Harry Potter and the Wasted Opportunity Chapter 1: Wasted, a harry potter fanfic

Hello everyone! I'm here with a brand new story ;D I hope you will like it like my other works. This one is something totally different from what I have done so far and it will be so! HHr centered, this chapie might seem a bit out of character but i promise we're gonna be more smoothly into it in the progress, i need time to explain why they might gotten out of character.

If i will keep up with it or not is entirely in your hands and i will decide if it's worthy upon your reviews and what u have to say so... you will only have to read and review if you think i should keep up.

The story will soon be M so please do not read if you're too young, it ignores the Epilogue and keeps up considering what happened to the DH. It's a post-war fic and i hope you'll like it :)

It's unbetaed so be patient please :)

Enjoy...

Harry Potter and the Wasted Opportunity

Chapter 1- Wasted

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, cause no one else care
After my dreaming I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here

So if you're asking me I want you to know

When my time comes forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid of taking my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me I want you to know

Forgetting all the hurt inside, you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

(Linkin Park)

May 2nd 2007

There's a moment in your life when you look back and see that nothing from whatever you have done matters because you have simply taken them for granted. There is also another moment in your life when whatever you're planning to do seems as pointless just because you know that only you will change, and this is taken for granted as well from the people around you.

So you simply give up on everything and everyone and you're trying to rebel against your unbreakable bounds, all the while bearing the realization of being the loser for most of the pages of the book of your life.

What you don't understand is that no matter how far you'd run, no matter how far away you'd try to stay, reality, the past and your emotions are poisonous bitches and will haunt you down till you sink back in that ridiculously sweet misery that is called love.

These were the thoughts of Hermione Granger's when she woke up for another day in her life, with her four year old daughter sleeping by her side in the double bed.

Hermione brushed her lips against her daughter's forehead and smiled slightly as she saw her reaction, little Rosalie stirred in her sleep and her beautiful chestnut curls-inherited by her mother- moved along her little head.

Hermione reached over the sleeping form of her baby girl and stopped the clock that was ready to set off. She then buried her nose in her little girl's neck and kissed the soft skin there. Rosalie's respond was immediate and the girl giggled and hugged her mom closer.

'Mummy,' Rosalie said laughing and Hermione smiled and blew air on her daughter's skin, coaxing a loud squeal and giggles from her little miracle, the sweetest way to wake up was with your child's happy voice. Hermione moved slightly away and kissed Rosalie's nose, making her daughter's emerald eyes to sparkle with joy and happiness as her mom smiled kindly.

'Time to wake up?' Rosalie asked innocently and Hermione sighed dramatically and nodded her head, Rosalie laughed at her mom's acting ability and sat up on the bed before she could be taken in Hermione's arms as she too, sat up on the bed.

'Happy Birthday, beautiful princess.' Hermione said smiling, remembering for a moment the day that she had cried harder than ever for the arrival of an innocent being under such circumstances. 'What do you want to do today?' Hermione asked and Rosalie smiled brightly at her mom and the choices.

'We plan together,' Rosalie said and Hermione smiled and nodded her head as she had taught her child always to consider mommy's schedule as it was just the two of them and they needed time to work things out.

'OK then, we plan together,' Hermione confirmed and Rosalie beamed.

'Honeydukes,' Hermione said and Rosalie nodded.

'Diagon Alley,' Rosalie added and her mom nodded as well.

'Grandma Jane and Grandpa for lunch,' Hermione went on and Rosalie sighed and nodded.

'Will I eat ice cream since it's my Birthday?' Rosalie asked with puppy eyes and Hermione chuckled and nodded.

'I think I can convince them as it's your super day…' Hermione said smiling and Rosalie beamed and kissed her mom.

'Then grandma and grandpa muggles it is,' Rosalie said and Hermione laughed and nodded her head as her parents were Rose's "Muggle grandparents".

'And then…' Hermione said and her hand started approaching her little daughter like a spider would do with her slender fingers moving her palm. Rosalie giggled only at the idea of being tickled and beamed at her mom.

'The Burrow!!! For my party!!!!!' Rosalie said out loud and Hermione joined in the chorus of joy as her hand finally reached her child and started tickling it with no mercy as the little girl squealed in happiness and laugher.

Far away from Hermione's apartment in London, in another part of the huge city, a tall man was moving through Diagon Alley with his coat's collar up to hide most of his face and his messy hair hiding his sparkling eyes and war scar, as he liked to think of it. Harry Potter rushed through the crowd and headed close to the shop that he hadn't visited in almost five years. When he finally reached it he entered the seemingly closed shop from the unlocked door and looked around him, trying to find his old friend.

Ronald Weasley moved down the stairs connecting the main area of the shop with the attic as he had heard the noise. He moved down the stairs calmly and approached the young man as he fixed his collar. Ron stood before Harry for a moment and the old friends looked at each other for a long moment before Ron could rise his arm and punch Harry had across the face, causing his head to slam backwards and his hands to flew on his face.

'OK, I guess I deserved that,' Harry said as he wiped his bleeding nose with one hand and looked at the red-eared Ron above it, his vision slightly blurry as his eyes watered because of the pain, he didn't even considered healing himself as he indeed deserved the punch and much more for what he had done to his friends and the only woman he ever loved.

'Now, would you mind explaining to me where the Hell have you been for the past bloody five years?!!' Ron asked still in control of his temper that was ready to explode. Harry nodded his head and sniffed the blood that was still running.

'Mummy, pleeeeaseee,' Rosalie pleaded as she tugged on her mom's sleeve as the two ladies stood out of the pet-shop in Diagon Alley a few hours after they had left their house.

'Sweetie, I don't know, maybe it's too early, what about our old, poor Crookshanks?' Hermione asked as she scooped her child in her arms, the weight from the Honeydukes' bag in Rosalie's hand almost doubling the weight for her but still the toddler wouldn't let her mother shrink the bag and put it in her purse.

'Oh mummy please!! It's my birthday, pleeeaseee.' Rosalie pleaded again and Hermione sighed and started moving away from the shop.

'You want a kitty that much?' Hermione asked and Rosalie nodded her head frantically. 'Then it might just appear by magic…' Hermione said with a grin as she knew a beautifully kitten was already bought by Ron as to be given to his Godchild after Hermione's permission of course, later that day in the party.

Rosalie's eyes seemed sad for a moment but then they sparkled as her mom led both of them close to Madame Malkin's for new clothes, something that all girls loved and she wasn't an exception.

'Lets see if we'll find something nice for you and then we'll go to the bookshop,' Hermione said with a smile and Rosalie beamed at her mom as a new fairy tale was always something Rosalie loved, having inherited the book-love from her mom. 'But you will remain by my hand all the while, I don't want mischief and running through the store while strangers could take you away from mommy.' Hermione said overprotecting, trying for years now to prevent her child from trouble, something that she was natural at as she had inherited the trouble magnet from a man Hermione didn't even want to hear about but her child's eyes always reminded to her.

'I'll be a good girl, mommy, I promise,' Rosalie said innocently as her mother opened the door and entered the shop not knowing that a few feet away her father and Godfather were sneaking out of the Alley for a coffee shop in London as to have some privacy and clear things up.

'So from where to start,' Harry started and Ron glared at him above their steaming cups of coffee.

'The beginning would be smashing,' Ron said sarcastically and Harry nodded his head as his nose was still swollen and beaten but still, he hadn't healed it as he almost welcomed the pain.

'OK, I don't know what you know about the last weeks before I left-'

'-Abandoned everyone,' Ron interrupted and they both sighed as there was still a lot of suppressed anger between them.

'But I got to a breaking point and I didn't want to take anyone with me to the bottom.' Harry went on as if Ron hadn't interrupted him, adding another brick on the wall of his shame and regret.

After the war, for two years, he had tried to work things out with Ginny and finish Hogwarts. Those years had been proven catastrophic for his relationship with the youngest Weasley just like for the relationship of Ron and Hermione as the four people simply needed other things than the ones they could offer to each other.

After the couples were finally separated, a new period of catastrophic habits started with Ron deciding to try to become a Quidditch player and ending up with his life full of chicks, alcohol and stupid choices like going back to Lavender. Ginny decided to return to Dean Tomas as well and like that, Harry and Hermione were left to follow their path in the Auror Training program, a program that they started together but they were meant to finish on their own.

The endless hours they spent together at first turned their strong friendship to a seemingly unbreakable bond, enriched by softer hugs, even more frequently holding hands –if that was possible- and soft kisses on the cheeks and few kisses on the lips for goodnight.

Without realizing it, they both fell to a trap that not many people get out of uninjured, and soon, the once best friends, too afraid to admit that they had fallen in love, had decided to turn their relationship to "a friendship with benefits" as they had decided to call it untypically in the rare times they had tried to explain to each other and to themselves what was on.

This kind of friendship of course soon turned into a hardship when occasionally, they both tried to get unstuck from the shit they were in and they tried to date other people, all the while hurting their true match and injuring their own souls as they realized again and again in how hot waters they were in.

Soon the depression took over and the "benefits" turned into almost harsh nights of sex in a stupid try of punishing each other for their mistakes, for both being each other's coward fuck-buddies instead of a couple that would risk their friendship for something even greater.

And when things seemed like getting to the point of either fucking like rabbits or fighting like dogs, they started taking breaks away from each other, Hermione was the one who did it first by going to Germany with her parents, and then Harry followed, when she had returned. And the breaks seemed both excruciating with all the fear of never having the one you love back and at the same time it was a time to lick your wounds and calm down.

Things had gotten out of control and every time one was back the other was almost attacking with jealousy, furry, need and love. They were feeding and were getting fed by the other's mixed feelings and all that was happening for almost two years in the shadows as none else knew, and that was an extra weight on their shoulders.

'So when I took a trip again, to Mexico, I stayed there for a bit longer and allowed myself to realize in how much shit I was in, how deep she had been pulled in as well. I realized that if I was to come back, this would never end, in fear of losing my friendship with her before a potential true relationship both she and I had destroyed our friendship by doing all this. It was something I never expected to do, and how about see her doing it, but in fear of never having her in any way, just like she did, I decided to have her in any way possible, and I chose the worse.' Harry said when he finally finished his story to Ron, a story that Ron had heard a few years ago from another point of view, Hermione's.

'I never meant to leave for years but as far as I was, my wounds seemed to get smaller and smaller and I tried to convince myself that the distance would lessen my need for her but soon I realized that the more I was staying in one place the more I was thinking of what she might be doing or what time it was here or what she would be doing or with whom and soon the obsession was taking over so I started traveling, trying to forget her and catching up with trips I never had the chance to make because of the Dursleys and the War and what happened after it. And soon, years passed by and the stupid idea of remaining hidden for long was covering my need for her.' Harry said as he looked out of the window of the café.

He had to admit that he had missed the rainy London and he had missed the hectic rhythms and the endless life of it, he had missed Ron and his family, the Diagon Alley, Hogsmeade, Hogwarts, even the Ministry, and of course Her…

'But now I'm back, I'm back and ready to claim what is mine, her, for the past months I have been thinking just how stupid we both were and how much of a coward I have been for the past years of disappearing, I inflict things on all of you and none deserved that but now I'm back and ready to make up for all of it, I'm so sorry, Ron.' Harry said as he looked at his old friend who sighed and hid his face in his palms.

'Don't apologize to me, Harry, you have no idea what has happened while you were away, what she has been through, how much things have changed with her, with all of us.' Ron said and Harry's heart ached.

'Has she got married or something? Did you two—did you-you?' Harry stammered and Ron shook his head negatively.

'This would be the least to have happened, I would have hexed your bollocks off already and send you back to Mexico or Madagascar or whatever, things are far more complicated than her being in a relationship with a guy, and no she's single right now, and to be honest, she has no choice but being bloody single with all the things she's been through.' Ron said soberly and this time Harry's heart actually hurt.

'Is she ill or something? Did she do anything stupid while I was away?' Harry asked and this time Ron glared at Harry.

'You're talking about stupid things? You've abandoned everyone Harry! You only left a note saying you're sorry and then you were gone and you didn't even allow us to send you letters, you have no idea how many times she tried to contact you when things got out of hand and all the times she was left empty-handed!' Ron this time shouted and some heads turned and looked at the two young men.

'What things Ron? What's wrong with her? What has she done?' Harry asked this time panicked, he needed to know what was wrong with Hermione, if she had done something stupid because of him or it was something that he could have prevented but he wasn't there to do it, he would never forgive himself. Ron sighed again and finished his coffee as Harry waited for his response intensely.

'You know what? It's not my place to tell you what's on, I'm already on the line here, if she learns that I have received a mail from you and that we met, she'll hex me to the next season.' Ron said and Harry glared at the redhead this time. 'You'll come to the Burrow tonight, she will be there as well, she's healthy but you'll get what's on with her at first sight, really, it's not as she can hide it. So you'll find out there-'

'Ron please, just tell me the bloody truth,' Harry interrupted Ron and he looked dead serious.

'You're in no place to demand things from me, I have been there for her when you should and you'll understand why very soon, the thing is that if she forgives you, I'll forgive you and don't talk to me about telling the truth because I am not sure if I believe you already, so stop demanding and bossing around like she would, things are not like back in the past.' Ron said almost threading and Harry took a deep breath and nodded his head, he knew he had hurt a lot of people, his male best friend included. 'Gee you're so alike from time to time, that hasn't changed for sure!'

'I'm sorry,' Harry acknowledged as Ron paid for their coffees after waving to Harry about the money and the second leaving him to it as now Ron could afford a lot more than two cups of coffee. The two men stood up and moved out of the café, before they could get out to the chilly May day in London; Ron looked at Harry and spoke.

'You're not allergic to cats are you?' he asked, having Harry frowning at the absurd question but simply shaking his head negatively, making Ron nodding his head and hoping that his plan wouldn't sink.

SOOOOO??????? enough angst for a first chapie? too many questions? and what is going to happen in Rosalie's party, i chose the name rosalie for a very spesific reason that i will explain in the future only if there is a future, if you want to, just review and tell me if i should keep up with it :)

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