Emotions
By SunflowerGem
Chapter 1: Are They There?
A/N: Hi there! What's up? Well I finally broke down and got myself an account here and I'm really excited to try this out! This particular story didn't really have a point when I started it, because I really just wanted to see how the posting function worked and stuff. So expect better things to come! Most of the time the stories I think up never make it onto paper before I forget about them, so now I have a reason to write them down! I hope everyone enjoys this, because I enjoyed writing this quick 2-shot. Please read and review (a new writer needs all the help she can get)! But no flames or trolls please.
"Hello? Is anyone there?" Xion said, turning the corner of the clock tower to find no one had returned yet. Sighing, she pulled out her ice cream and sat down, alone. The wind made an ominous sound as it cut around the top of the large train station. It felt weird to be up here alone, almost unsettling. But it was normal for herself, or in this case, Axel and Roxas, to be late to their secret meeting place. She assured herself they were fine, and let her body relax a little. It was nice to spend the afternoons here in Twilight Town, even if she was supposed to be back at the castle. It gave her some rest from both Heartless and Organization members looking like they wanted to kill her. But then again, she must face them both everyday. Absent-mindedly she began to finger the metal trinkets that hung from her black cloak.
Fourteenth member of organization "XIII"…what a joke. I'm nothing more than an artificial puppet.
The raven haired girl shook her head, trying to relieve the depressing thoughts that always sunk into her mind. She always felt such an empty feeling when shewas alone like this… Axel had once explained it to them… What was it? "Sadness" A voice in her head rang, making her clutch the place where her heart should have been.
What am I thinking? I have no heart, no feelings, no sadness. I've just had a long day… that's all.
"Xion! You okay?"
Her eyes turned to meet Roxas' face just inches from her own. She jumped in surprise and almost lost her balance. Roxas instinctively reached out and steadied her with a look of concern on his face.
"Hey, be careful! It's a long way down there"
Xion had snapped out of her surprise and gently moved out of his arms.
"I-I'm sorry" She said, slightly embarrassed, "I was lost in thought"
"Ah, no problem. I just wanted to know if you were alright, it's my fault I surprised you." He replied giving her a smile.
She smiled back, but it was replaced with a look of concern when she noticed how sunken and tired Roxas' eyes looked.
"Long day?" She asked in concern.
"You have no idea"
"Try me."
"Right. I keep forgetting we have the same job."
"But it's important."
"For all we know."
"We would have been Dusks by now if it wasn't."
"I suppose you're right… but that doesn't mean they wouldn't work us until we DID turn into Dusks"
"But it's all we have…" Xion said quietly. Roxas nodded solemnly. Xion was used to conversations such as this one, Roxas had been real on edge since the whole Castle Oblivion incident.
"Hey, you heard from Axel?" She asked to lighten the mood.
"He's working late tonight, another 'special mission' or something. Sometimes I'm glad we're not higher ranked, sounds like a pain." He replied.
He sat down next to her and took out his own ice cream and began to eat it ravenously. Xion went back to her treat as well. The quiet continued until they were only gnawing on blank popsicle sticks, but that was natural. Even when Axel was there they didn't talk much. It was the matter of just being around each other that made them always meet like this. But the silence was broken when Roxas spoke out rather emotionally.
"Xion… I think we should leave."
"Hm? But we just got here"
"No. I mean leave the Organization."
Xion stared at him, shocked.
"You know we can't do that!"
"WELL WHY NOT!" Roxas yelled. Just by staring into his eyes she could tell he was at his breaking point.
Raising her voice a little she replied, "BECAUSE, Roxas, they would kill us. Simple as that, and you know it."
Roxas glared at the floor, and her pale face could see that he was in pain.
"I…I know. But I can't help but think that what we're doing is wrong. I can almost feel it. They're using us, we've known that from the start. But what is our real purpose?"
"Even if we are meant to do something more, how could we find it? We have nowhere to go and no one we know."
Roxas kneeled down beside her. Placing his face on her shoulder before replying surprisingly quietly;
"I know that. I know that. But Xion, we can't stay here. We get weaker by the day. You've seen the way we're treated… like prisoners. And I've seen the way Saïx talks to you… like your nothing but a pawn. How can we stay like this? Please Xion… Come with me. We can start again, we can be happy. Please… Please."
He was almost in tears, and seemed desperate. Her tired eyes then gazed strait at his brilliant sapphire ones, filled with exhaustion, pleading, and… what was it? "hope" the same voice echoed from before. Hope. This was new to her… But she saw in his eyes a hope for a better future, a hope for a better life.
But another new sensation welled inside her; fear. As much as she wanted to trust Roxas, she couldn't let him be hurt. He was her best friend, her only companion, and she wouldn't let him throw away his life because he thought they deserved better. She stood up from the ledge and brought Roxas to his feet, and then wrapped her arms around him in a warm embrace. Quietly, she whispered in his ear.
"Roxas… I trust you more than anyone in this universe, but I can't let you get hurt because you want more. We're Nobodies… and I'm not sure I'm even that. This is all we'll ever have. It may not last, but we'll be by each other, and enjoy it, you'll see."
Close to tears, she separated herself away from him and turned to walk away. But as she took her first few steps a strong hand took a hold of her own.
"I'm sorry" she whispered, pulling her hand out of his, she turned and walked away.