An it never stops hurting
we sit and wait for the hurt to stop
everyday we cling to the little light we find
every small hope, every gleam of kindness
and slowly you start dreaming, hoping, feeling
and my hart should be lifted because of you
to see you happy
to see you live again
it should be the most important thing in the world
but I still sit here in the darkness
I still hurt
I still long for happiness
so instead of showing a face of joy
I put up a mask
a mask that says that I am happy
because even though I now sit here alone
this is what we have longed for forever
and you deserve to have it
you deserve to leave me
and I deserve to hide