Author: princess-sari
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Editor's Note: Yes, another Diary by princess-sari. :p I can't help it, I just love writing these for the often-overlooked characters in TPM. This one is relatively short compared to the Handmaiden Diaries, only four entries. *****
Anakin gave me quite a scare today. He lost control of his podracer and crashed and...
He came so close to dying that I almost cannot bear it. And he is so cheerful about it. He is proud because he managed to save most of the pod. All I can think of is that he is whole and in one piece. I could care less about the pod, particularly since it belongs to Watto.
I am still trembling from this afternoon. I was shaking so hard while I cooked Ani a celebration dinner (although he was the only one celebrating) that I managed to spill a whole jar of choru spice and there will not be money to replace it for quite some time. Watto would have my head if he knew that I had wasted such an expensive spice like that. I do not know why he thinks such things are his business when I buy them with my own money.
He does, though. And there is not one thing I can say. Sometimes the helplessness of knowing that someone owns me, but more especially Ani, makes me feel blind with rage. Ani is so special and he deserves so much better.
Just last week, a wealthy family whose ship had broken down came through Mos Espa. Their son was about Ani's age, but he was so greedy and arrogant and rude. And yet he has everything while my sweet, generous, kind Ani has so little.
He does not seem to dwell on what he is lacking either. And I try not to think about it myself. I try very hard not to let on to him how desperate I feel about our situation sometimes, but to still help him cultivate a desire for more. He could do so much if he was just given the chance.
I cannot help but wonder what purpose his extraordinary birth was if he is to spend his life here on Tatooine as a slave.
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Shmi's Diary was logged into a highly encrypted datapad, probably to protect it from Watto's prying eyes. A careful examination would only reveal some recipes and housekeeping notes which would bore anyone to tears very quickly. The good stuff was hidden in a series of secret files.
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