K Project doesn't belong to neither Garou nor me, and I think, the fandom can be happy about it. *cough* Lazy as hell. *cough*
This is the first part of this angsty two-shot. Please enjoy!

- Sparkle

I promised

I wish, I could close my eyes. Enjoying your presence and feel save, feel secure.

I want to kiss you, want to feel your breath on my cheek.

I want to smile innocently, hug you tightly and be nervous, because you just asked me out for dinner. Would it have changed something if we met when we were younger? When we still were allowed to do what we wanted. ... not that you ever gave a damn about the things you were allowed and the things you weren't.

I want to go back.

Why?

Why didn't I understand that I had to treasure those feelings deep inside me?

Why did it take me so much time to understand?

Why did it take me so much time to understand that you are everything to me? Why didn't I realize it earlier. Why did we waste so much time with nothing? Quarrelling around and fighting while we both knew, we didn't want to?

And now I hold you, feel the warmth of your body.

It feels like my insides are ripped out, one by one, fingers pulling at my stumbling heart.

I can't show you how much it hurts me. I can't let you see the emotions on my face. I can't do that to you. I promised to keep strong. I promised you.

And your face rests on my shoulder, and I'm glad I don't need to see the light leaving your eyes. It would have broken me. It would have destroyed my self-control. I can't let that happen. I promised.

One tear runs down my cheek while I still don't show a single emotion or make a sound. The warmth is leaving you. The warmth that was always there, the warmth I love and the warmth I used to cuddle into when I was cold.

Stay here!

I don't want to lose you.

Don't leave me alone. You're.. you're my only friend.

Stay...

I kneel down in the snow, the cold white beautiful snow. Where everything is cold. And you're not here to warm me up again.

Careful I remove the sword in your chest, the blade that should only fight for justice. But how can I believe in the good in this world when I lost the only purpose to fight for it? And you, slayed by my blade, will never come back.

I won't see you again. I will be alone now.

Until I join you.

I'm looking forward to it.

But I can't leave this world jet. There are people who rely on me. There are things I have to do. Chaos I have to organise.

Even though I see no light in this dark world anymore.

Even though the colours.. completely blurred and everything is grey.

Please. Don't.

I can't. I need to... There is still work for me to do. And I will take care of it. I will do everything necessary. Everything that needs to be done.

Coldly and without any emotions on my face.

I can't let it break me.

I promised.