Miiru : well~ new fanfic minna~ well, I don't know if I will continue this fanfic, but if you really want, I will continue this one
Pairings : Sirius x Severus, Severus x James, Severus x Harry, Sirius x James, James x Lily
Miiru : so enjoy minna! oh yeah, I do not own Harry Potter, oh yeah the main character is Sirius
"do you,James Potter, accept Lily Evans as your wife?" I hear the bell rings, and people claps, James and Lily is now married, but I don't have courage to step inside the church, my eyes feels wetter, and I know it's my tears. I can't hold it back anymore. I just can't.. I love James, but I know.. he only thinks that I'm his brother.. "where is Sirius?" I hear James searching for me, but I hide behind the hydrangea, I am too sad, just too sad. in the noisiness, I heard someone crying, not far from my location, so I search that person, when I arrived, Severus is there, behind a big tree to hid himself, crying, I don't know what I must do, Severus love James too, that's why I know how sad it is, that his best friend, Lily, is married, with someone he love. then I sit beside him, and take my hand o his shoulder, making him closer to me, making Severus' head lying in my shoulder. He still crying, but now, my feeling is better, and then after an hour, he stop crying, and still lying his head in my shoulder.
"Sirius.." he said my name, in sorrow tone. "yeah?" I forced my self to smile, and look at his spoiled eye. "don't leave my side.. I want to be like this, just like this, for a moment, I want you to see my sorrow, and I don't one anyone else to see my sadness, my sorrow, my tears" silence comes for a minute, I know how he feels now, because he love James more than I did, I know, how he looked at James, how he Talked. then I said "it's okay Severus.. you can cry, in front of me, you release all your sorrow feelings, because, I know how is you feeling right now". then I grab his shoulders, and hug him, let him cry until his feelings is developed.
"are you feel better now?" after a while, the sobbing is gone, and silence come, I still hug him, so he can feel better, then he released his face from my clothes, and said "yeah... I'm feeling better now.. thanks Sirius" I saw the forced smile, I know, it's a forced smile, then I kiss Severus' forehead, he looked shocked, but I just said, "yeah.. it's okay, I want to help you, get out from this sorrow, so I can get out from this sorrow too.. don't forced your smile, if you don't want to smile.. don't smile, because it hurts many people feelings.. my feelings, Lily's feelings, James' feelings, and even your own feelings... don't be sad Severus..."
"yeah" he looked down, I still grab his shoulder, then he continued, "thanks for everything Sirius, goodbye" he run, releasing my hand, but I catch him, and a blush come from my cheek, "c-can I go with you?" my blood is raging on at my cheek, and I blush even deeper, Severus looked shocked, and then he smiled, not a forced smile. "yeah, you can come with me" he said that, while asking for my hand, I saw James but I smiled and think, goodbye my love, from now on.. live happily, with your loved one. I smiled, Severus smiled too, and we go to the gate, without saying anything. but then James catch us.
"where are you two going?" he looked worried, Severus looked down, he don't want James, to see his spoiled eyes, and I simply said " oh, we remember we must go to some place, so goodbye James" and pull Severus' hand. tears flowing at my eyes, the tears of happiness, because James will live on with the one he love. "are you okay?" Severus asked so suddenly, that make me shocked. "yeah, I will forget about this feelings for James, and live on without a single burden" I smiled, and hug Severus. Then Severus bring me to an old place. I ask "where are we?". "this is my house, but I left it, no one is here" he said. "eh? why do you decided to come back?" I ask, then I looked at Severus.. that sorrow eyes, turned to be the eyes full of happiness, "maybe, because I want to spend my life with someone?" he smiled, "I'm just kidding.. I don't know, I just want to bring you here" happiness is gathering at my heart too, and I said "then, bring me in" I teased him. we come in, and see a very dusty house, we decided to clean it.
after three days, we finally finished the cleaning project, the morning sun silently come in from the windows, and warming the room. I woke up, looking at my partner's face, I mean Severus' morning face, but he is not bad actually, he cheers me on, and he is turning out to be a cheery person now, I'm still lying at the bed, and when Severus awake, I kissed his forehead. "good morning Severus" I smiled. then blush comes from his cheeks, he is such a cute person! well, let me explain something, our relationship is getting better in this 3 days, but I don't think that I love him.. maybe yes, maybe not. but let's not talk about it, I'm just happy to see his smiles. "good morning, Sirius" he smiled, while grab my hand.
"finally, this home is clean and tidy" I said. Severus still grab my hand, and we still sat at the bed. "yeah.. it's very tiring to clean this, but luckily, we did it! let's celebrate! let's ask James and Lily to come too, let's celebrate for their wedding!" Severus is not bothered by Lily and James now, t makes me happy to see his happy face. "well, that's a good idea! I will sent my owl right away, oh yeah, what time?" I ask, while start writing the letter. "hmm.. 7 p.m is okay, let's buy snacks and make some delicious food!". I write the time and our address. "go, sent this to James and Lily" I sent my owl fly, and waiting Severus to come out from the bathroom.
"ahhh.. after tiredness, finally.. I can relax" Severus said that after coming out from the bathroom. "finished already honey?" I teased him, with a smirk, and then he blushed. "y-y-yes!, now you go to bath!" he pushed me to the bathroom. "oi oi, wait, my towel and change clothes!". I knocked the door from inside, and he with embarrassed voice said, "w-well, here, I'm s-sorry" he give the towel and my change of clothes inside, and before he could close the door, I grab his hand, and pull him inside. "want to take a bath with me honey?" I love teasing him! he is so cute! blood raging in his cheek, making a very deep blush.
"d-don't tease me again!" he got angry, ahahha so cute.. "okay, okay, but I love teasing you, you are so cute Severus" smile comes from my lips, and a deeper blush come from Severus' cheeks. "n-no I'm not c-cute, btw.. we must buy many things, so now, bath.. fast!" he leave the bathroom. hahaha, just see his reaction, make me feels better.
"finished already!" I use a jeans with a white T-Shirt. "well, let's take some money first". I said, bringing my bag. "yeah, let's go! don't forget to lock the door" he said in front of the door, waiting for me to get ready. "aye sir!". I lock the door, and grab Severus' hand, closing the gate, and walk to Gringotts Wizarding Bank.
we finally arrived at Gringotts, and take some money, and we take Muggles money too, to buy foods, and clothes, to buy snacks, foods (p.s : we will make it by ourselves) and buy some clothes too. "so.. we must go to the Human's store?" I ask, not sure of course! "yeah, we must buy the other ingredients, and the clothes too." he said, and go to Mu, I mean Human's store, we buy vegetable, sausage, flour, and many other groceries item, and then we go to the clothes store.
"well.. how about this one? and this one too, well let's take this clothes to the changing room, with Severus, and ask his opinions. I opened my clothes, and try the last one. Severus is staring at my well-built body, "do you like my well-built body Severus?" I teased him again, and the same reactions of course! but spending time with him is fun. "thanks for coming at our store, come again soon" the cashier said that. I saw Severus bringing the groceries, and well of course I know, it's heavy.
"let me bring the Groceries" I said, truing to help him, we only use one hand, because we-like always-hold hands. then he said "n-no, I will bring the groceries..". I confused.. isn't it's heavy? why he don't want me to bring it? suddenly he said, "if you bring the groceries, we can't hold hands like always.. I don't want, this tie is separated" he blushed. my blood raging on too, and a deep blush came right away. "how about I bring the groceries, and you bring the clothes?" I smiled, actually, I still want to hold hands with Severus too.. he nods, and give me the groceries, while I give him the clothes.
after walking for half an hour, we arrived at our home, and change clothes, to a normal clothes. I cut the vegetables, while Severus preparing for the soup (p.s! I and Severus is a great cooker) and 7 and half p.m, we finally finished all, we need to dress, and bath properly, because we have no time, we go to bath together.. but nothing happens, really, we are in a hurry! well, I wash Severus' hair, and after we go to bath, we use the new clothes, and everything ready!
"Severus, Sirius, are you there?" James and Lily knock the door, luckily we already finished everything, and then we open the door.
"hello Lily, James" we two said the same thing, and I go close the door. and then I grab Severus' hand, Lily and James are staring at us, and smiling. "psst, psst... S-Severus.. is this okay if we hold hands?" I whispered to Severus. he think for a minute "well I don't think it's okay.. but you really want to release this tie?" he whispered, and smirked.. what the.. he try to tease me! "well.. I-I don't want to release your hand" I whispered, and smiled, and of course we still hold hands.
"you two are closer and closer, that's a good news" Lily suddenly said, and smiled. we blushed, and of course, getting nervous. "i-it's not like.. it's n-not like that!" Severus said. "y-yeah! i-it's not like that!" I said too..
"well, you don't need to hide your own feelings" James release a small laugh. then I and Severus looked at each other. "it's really not like that.. because that time on you wedding day, we were getting used to hold hands" I looked aside, still blushing. "yeah, and it's really comfortable when we hold hands, so we always hold hands, when we are side by side" Severus completed the explanation. but Lily and James still smirking.
"w-well.. let's start the party!" I said, trying to make a different situation, when James and Lily saw the table.. they looked at it with the shining eyes.
"let's eat!" the two of them said together, and take a seat. "I can't wait to eat this lovely foods!" said James, and he continued "Lily, you must learn to cook, Sirius can teach you, his cooking is always the best one!" James, already grab the spoon, ready to eat, Lily too.. "well, I love Severus' cooking too! his cooking is always the best, let's eat then!" they started to eat, such a cute couple! I and Severus looked at each other, and smiled, and then we spend the night partying. when we are at our limits-sleepiness-James and Lily asking if there is any empty room.
"this house only have 2 bedrooms" Severus smiled. "one is for you, and is for Sirius?" James ask, Lily is confused too, should they go back or not, but it's very late already. but then "oh no, I and Sirius always sleep together, I mean in one room, I mean-" before he continued that nervous talk, I explain "I mean, we are using our bedroom, you can go to the other bedroom" I explained softly, but then I saw James, and Lily's smirk. "o-oh yeah, S-Severus, go to the bedroom first, don't forget to change into a pajama, I will escort James and Lily upstairs" I blushed, and take James and Lily to their room, and come back downstairs, and go to our room.
"Sirius.. are you okay?" Severus looked down, and ask that when I got inside the room. "hmmm? okay for what?" I ask, while changing into the new pajama! we buy a same design, and of course we wear the same one now. "you love James before.. you still love him right?" I shocked, then I go lying in the bad, facing Severus. "yeah.. I still love him, but half of my heart is stolen, so it's okay, I'm a bit sad, but I know.. you are sadder than me.. I'm okay.. really okay, because my heart is stolen, by.." I stopped, blushed. "by who?" he asked, I confused if I must said it or not, but with many courage, I said "by you" I smiled. blood rush to Severus' face, he blushed, a very deep blush.
"by me?" he ask, with a cute face, right in front of me. " yeah.. I'm not very sure if I love you.. but really.. you make me feel comfortable, like I'm being protected, and the one who protect too, that's why, it's really hard to know, because I still have feelings for James too.." I blushed, feeling very awkward, but then he suddenly said.. " I feel the same way too.. you know, I just thinking that.. if you always stay beside me, and don't want to break this invisible tie, I'm sure.. for a short moment, I will love you" he smiled. his smile make me feels very protected, very close to someone, like tied by some threads.
"well.. let's sleep and talk about it later" I smiled, and kiss his forehead, sleep while hugging him.
Miiru : actually.. this is note the end! the smut chapters come later.. I hope you like this ^^