Until it's Gone
Summary: just a little fict about what Tori was thinking during the episode Jade Gets Crushed
Disclaimer: I wish
Tori's POV
You know the old saying:
"You never think much about something you have until it's gone"
Until now I had never considered it true. I knew now it was.
I sat outside in the Asphalt Café, feeling cold as my mind began to wander, puzzling over the recent chain of events that led to this.
Andre loved Jade.
Andre had a crush on Jade.
Andre didn't have a crush on me.
How could I have been so wrong?
This couldn't be happening Andre couldn't like Jade
She's mean, spiteful, and devious
How could he not hate her?
I did
As if it needed to give me another reason to hate Jade
Hadn't she already ruined so much for me?
Why not one more?
She ruined my first day
And that's how you met André said the little voice in the back of my head
She made it look like I hit her in acting class
And André didn't believe her said the voice again "Oh god now I'm crazy" thought
She tried to stop you from joining the Ping Pong team
Andre stood up for you though. The crazy voice was making a little sense
She wrecked Prome
Really, is Jade the reason you didn't have a good time or was it because you had to see Andre and that other girl so enthralled in each other, when you didn't even remember to get a date.
Maybe Andre's been waiting for you to stop focusing on Jade and see that he was always there for you.
"Maybe it wasn't her fault maybe I was mine" I mirror the voiced train of thought
"Maybe André got sick of waiting for me"
All those signs that he liked me and I acted on none of them
Maybe it's my fault
But I didn't realize soon enough, and now Andre moved on
Maybe it's better this way; who would want someone, who couldn't even decide what they wanted. Who couldn't realize they loved you until you were gone.
Andre would, chimed the voice in my head. I decided to name it hope
"He came to you when he realized he loved her, because he trusts you. He rejected the idea of loving Jade. He doesn't love Jade. He doesn't want to."
Hope's voice made me feel something warm in my heart
I suddenly felt okay again. This would be okay.
Andre didn't love Jade and even if he did, at least I knew now what I wanted.
I wanted Andre to love me, instead of Jade and I would do whatever it took to show him that.
And maybe, just maybe someday he'll love me
"Tori were about to go on" Andre called snapping me out of my thought's
"Okay" I said grabbing my mic "Are you ready to say how you feel?'
I asked not oblivious to his nervousness
"Yeah" André said. "How about you...? I mean are you ready to go on?"
"Yeah" I said "I am"
We stepped on to the stage overlooking the Asphalt Café.
As the lyrics started, I couldn't help but notice where his stare was focused the whole time, despite where he was looking; I couldn't pull my eyes away from him either.
Every song lyric I sang straight to him and he didn't even notice, because he was too busy singing the song to her.
I knew now; what I had lost and I wanted it back.
And I would try 365 ways all 365 days of the year to get him back.
A/N: This was on my mind the whole time I was watching the episode, it made me sad that Andre was crushing on Jade which, if their pairing were to occur, it would destroy two of my favorite pairing on the show, Bade and Tandre, but luckily it would leave my most favorite, Cabbie, unscathed.
Sooo... Anyways, What do you think? Like it? or Dislike it? Review please. )