Ellie and Sean pulled away from a kiss. Sean looked into ellies eyes.
"you know i love it when you kiss me" ellie said with a smile.
"well you know... i am a good kisser" sean said in a cocky tone. Ellie giggled and Punched him lightly and jokingly at his arm.
"Dream on" she said the way she said in "take on me"
"You know i love it when you say that" sean said in an attractive tone. She kissed him and he pulled her down in a lying down position.
It was a new year. The degrassi halls were busy with students rushing to their first period class. Emma and Manny walked slow talking. Emma has changed, she wasnt who she used to be. She dyed her hair black and wore long black long sleeve shirts and tight jeans. They werent too tight but they had a raggy look to them.
"Em, whats with the change" manny said concerned
"The new me... I am not who i used to me im the new Emma" she said with enthusiasim
"yeah... ive noticed" she said confused. "so whats witht he break up with chris" manny added
"Eh... just didnt feel right, ya know?" Emma said without doubt
Down the hall were sean and ellie holding hands. Emmas back was turned to them.
"Whos that new girl with manny?" Ellie asked.
"I dont know" sean responded
They caught up with manny. Sean tapped mannys shoulder.
"whos your new friend" sean asked as they both turned around. He looked into the strangers eyes and knew who it was right away. His jaw dropped.
"Emma?" Sean said shocked
"Sean, thats not emma" Ellie said laughing
"Uh, El it is me" Ellies jaw dropped lower than seans.
"Emma... why did you change" Sean asked
"Im not who i used to be... i mean i was so full life... then i dont know, my life jsut sstarted to suck and it felt like my who life, my spirit, my soul was sucked out of me. Why be someone im not?" Emma responded
"But, you are someone your not... right now... your... different, not Emma" Sean said hesitantly
"Why do you care anyway?" her eyes grew narrow
"I dont know i just, i dont know"
'good going cameron... just tell her you miss the old emma, the one that made you fall over and over again for her, the one that made you reach to be someone your not, someone better, the one that made your life so much more worth living' sean thought.
Emma rolled her eyes and walked on.
"Whats with her?" Ellie said with an attitude.
"What makes her think she can talk to my boyfriend like that" ellie added with a smile, she tried to pull him in for a kiss but sean brushed her off.
"not now ellie" sean walked off
'whats with everyone today' ellie thought. Ellie walked down the empty hall cause the bell rang minutes before.
Sean tried to catch Emma at her locker. He saw a stranger, someone he didnt know, someone that made him miss all that he had but threw it all away in an instant. He walked up to her shyly.
"um, Hey!" Sean said nervously
"uh, hi" emma said lifelessly.
"emma, please tell me why, you changed... i kind of missed the old emma" sean responded nervously
"Uh, if you miss the old emma, why'd you throw her away, jsut admitt it, you dont miss her" she turned to him with anger and slammed her locker and walked away in a fast pace.
Sean continued down the hall and saw ellie turning the corner. He tried ignoring her by going down the way emma was. Thats when he turned the corner and saw her talking to craig. He was shocked to she her with his once before bestfriend. Ever since jay stopped being friends with sean, he started hanging out with craig.
"uh hey guys" sean budded in.
"come one craig lets go" she hooked arms with him
"see ya sean" craig turned around and smiled with a wink and thumbs up.
It was night time. Emma was sitting in her bed with her composition book.
The sorrow, the despair
You broke my heart
You act like it was fair
I want you back
but i couldnt go and repeat it again
So we play this game and you pretend your just a friend
The masked emotions of our true feelings
Hiding it by using other people as covering what we really feel
its all i could do, i cant have you break my heart and shatter it like glass
over and over-
"god this sucks" emma ripped the page out and threw it near the trash can. It was what she really felt but she couldnt get it just right on paper.Emma pulled up her sleeve and took her sissor and ripped another scar into her body. The sissor went hard through her flesh an the blood started to drip.
"THIS IS FOR BREAKING MY HEART" she yelled in the process
" THIS IS FOR ACTING LIKE NOTHING EVER HAPPENED" she tore another one into her skin.
She couldnt help but do this. She couldt tell sean what she really felt so she took it out on her self.