A/N came across a piece very similar to this written for everyone's OTHER favorite bald headed doc who had an unfortunate accident with a maniacal revenge seeking helicopter and thought that the concept applied very well to Garret as well. So I can't even really take credit for the idea cause it was originally done by someone else, I just adapted the idea of what it's like to have your heart broken to fit Garret, and Sloe Gin is a song by Tim Curry, really great, back when Tim Curry started as a singer, so don't own that either, but do enjoy this.
Heartbreak. It's something that so many people talk about, so many people claim to have felt, but what do they know about it? No one single event breaks your heart, it's something that happens slowly, it creeps up on you and then suddenly you wake up one morning and it hits you that your heart is shattered into a billion tiny little pieces and nothing you do can help it.
It's a compilation of things that all pile on to p of one another that make you realize that it's all hopeless. It takes a wife leaving you, it takes a countless number of failed relationships, the woman who you've fallen for ten years ago loving someone else and leaving you to sulk in the background with her never knowing your feelings, that's what heartbreak is, its all those things coming together and smashing down with one mighty blow shattering a fragile heart.
And people try to make light of it, they have pictures out there of a heart broken in two with a bandaid over the two halves, as if a broken heart can be mended. It's not so easy to mend a broken heart, it gets to a point where one thinks it's impossible. Even a doctor can't even mend heartbreak. The only treatment for it is booze, but like most treatments most of the time the side effects wind up worse than the problem was to begin with.
And so you spiral down into the ever growing pit of dispair, you fall into the abyss. There's something out there called the ladder theory that people rate everyone they know and how much they want to sleep with those people, and that if you're not on someone's ladder you're in the abyss, and well, there hits a point where you've gone through so much heartbreak all you have left is the abyss. It gets to a point where that's all you know.
It's a horrible thing to realize you've got no hope left. You feel like you're drowning in a sea of dispair. There's a song out there that fits the feeling really well, it goes "sloe gin sloe gin try to wash away the pain inside, well i'm sick and I'm all done in and I'm standing in the rain, and I feel like I'm gonna cry, I'm so fucking lonely..." and so on and so forth, but that describes the way you feel after you've had your heart broken. You keep trying to drown out the pain, but you're too sick and tired to try to really cure it, and all you have left to do is cry.
But you can't, because you've cried all the tears you can. You've cried all the tears that you can cry, there's nothing left but a few dry sobs. You've got nothing left in you but the despair and that sickening feeling, and all you want to do is curl up in a little ball and melt away from the world. That's what it's like to have a heart broken.