Okay everyone. This story takes place after Edward leaves in New Moon. Bella falls into depression and uses drugs and alcohol to "fix" it. This story will also include my personal experience with my struggles with drug addiction and how I found recovery. Enjoy! Please be kind to me!

HE was gone. They all were. Now, I was alone. I was alone in my misery with only myself for company. There was never an end to my tears. My human friends had all abandoned me due to how I neglected them when HE was still here. I only had Charlie for company, and he wasn't much good at cheering me up.

I isolated myself. Hid in my room for days. Refusing to eat. All I could think about was him.

I needed to distract myself. With anything. I didn't care what.

After my 3rd day in my room, I decided to go downtown Port Angeles and just walk around. I needed to get out of my room.

When I got there, I parked my truck and started walking. I walked around town for hours just thinking. Eventually, it got dark out. I was walking by an alley and I heard a voice. "Hey." It was a man's voice. I looked into the shadows. I had to squint to see him, but there he was. He was tan and was wearing a Volcom tshirt. "What's a pretty girl like you walking around at night?"

"I was just trying to clear my head. I'm heading home now." I replied as I started to walk away.

"Wait, I've got this joint all rolled up. But I need someone to smoke with me. You in?" I thought about it. I heard Edward's voice in my head scream at me not to. What would he care? He left me.

I walked into the shadows. The man lit the small joint. In the candle light I could see he was about my age. Maybe a few years older. And he was good looking. Very good looking. Not as attractive as HE was, but he would do. Maybe he could fill the hole in my heart.

He passed me the joint. I took a hit and inhaled. I coughed up the smoke and passed it back to him. We did this until the joint was at its end. I was surprised that I actually felt happy for the first time in weeks.

"I'm Justin. I live here in town. What's your name?"

"Bella, and I live in Forks." I giggled out.

"Let me give you my number. Can I see your phone?" I handed it to him and he programmed his number in. "I'll see you around, hun." He said before he left me in the alley alone.

I walked back to my car in a daze. When I got there I fumbled with the keys before I was able to unlock it and climb in. I had to lay down and wait for my high to be over before I started to drive home.

As I drove all the street lights blurred together. The lines on the road curved and intertwined. The trees were greener. The rain fascinated me.

When I got home I went straight to bed and for the first time in weeks, had a nightmare free night.