I've had a ton going on lately and haven't had much time to post, though there are many stories I've completed that are just waiting around. I'll get to it eventually. But yeah, after last night's episode I had to post something short. Slight spoilers for 9x16.
It's Dean's POV but honestly after this darn scene, my thoughts aren't far from his.
Damaged
It doesn't register for a second. And then it does and I still can't wrap my head around it. She has been mutilated. Violated. Tainted by evil. It's disgusting. It's unbearable. Her body is ravaged beyond repair, but I try to fix it anyway, furiously scrubbing at the letters carved into her side, half believing that if I just try hard enough, it will all disappear. But it doesn't. It's still there, a violent message from the last Knight of Hell. Abaddon. I don't even hear Crowley's translation of her message. I don't even care. I'm too busy staring at my ruined Impala. I feel each cut of the knife as if it was inflicted upon my own body. Sam is saying something, trying to comfort me maybe, but I'm still not listening. I still can't hear anything but the buzz of electric rage coursing through my veins. It slides down into my trembling hands, forces its way into every tiny crevice of rational thought. I lean my head against my baby's side, trying to keep myself from exploding, to regain some control. It takes great effort, but I'm finally able to turn and face my brother. I won't let this go though. This will not go unpunished. This will not be forgiven. I itch to have the First Blade in my hand once more, to feel that power consume my mind and let its sharp teeth dig into soft flesh. I want Abaddon. Bloody and screaming for mercy. I want her shrieks to rip new holes through the atmosphere, to echo for miles and miles with no hope of relief. I want her unhindered destruction. I want death.
Yes it's short. I needed to get this out though because that was just...ugh. Unforgivable. I do love the parallel between Dean being marked by evil and his baby being marked too though. That was pretty cool symbolism.
Anyways, thanks so much for reading!