MattxNear
Only One
Song: 'Only one' by Lifehouse
He's got a pretty smile
It covers up the poison that he hides
Everytime Near smiled, it took Matt's breath away. Near's smiles were very rare. But it also reminded him of, that everyone at Whammy's had a terrible past. That everytime they laughed, or smiled, the pain was just underneath.
He walks around in circles in my head
Waiting for a chance to take me
A chance to break me down
A chance to take me down
He couldn't stop thinking about him. His pretty smile, the red hair and those beautiful green eyes. Someday, he would confess his feelings to the redhead. He already knew what would happen. Matt would laugh at him. And then, Near would break down.
Now I see that this burden you gave me
Is too much to carry
Too much to bury inside
This crush, this love, was like a burden. He couldn't keep it inside. A few days ago, he had caught himself staring at the little pale boy. Mello had noticed it too. Lucky for him, he had always been good at talking himself out of things.
I guess you're the only one
That nobody changes
He saw Matt. He looked like himself. Like himself as a child, only taller and bigger. The same too-long red hair, the same googles, and the same love for video games.
I guess you're the only one standing
When everything else goes down
After all these years, he still loved him. Mello died. He was all alone. He never had contact with others than Mello, in Whammy's. He knew no one else. Except...Near.
You're still the only one
You're still the only one
He never had a crush on anyone else. He never loved anyone else the same way, he loved Matt. He tried kissing Linda once, but he didn't feel anything.
It's all shallow and all so appealing
I'm up to my ankles and I'm drowning anyway
It felt like he was drowning. In grief. He barely ate, didn't walk outside his apartment. What once had been his and Mello's. Now only his. He couldn't swim. He needed someone to save him. So he called Near.
In a sea of sarcastic faces, familiar places
Where everything looks quite the same here
Near hadn't exspected this. He got on a plane and went to England. Back home. It looked like it had back then. When they were children, and everything was so much better.
It's all confusing, amusing, biter and tainted
The picture you painted to me
I guess you're the only one
That nobody changes
It was still there. The picture Near painted for him once. In art class, when they were told to paint someone. Mello was sick, that day, so Matt and Near had to work together. They painted each other.
When class ended, Near walked out of class, leaving behind the picture he had painted of Matt.
A knock was heard. Near walked in. He looked older, but still like a child. With that beautiful white, almost silver, hair, the dark eyes and his pale skin.
I guess you're the only one standing
When everything else goes down
You're still the only one
Who will never change faces
I guess you're the only one standing
When everything else goes down
He had come to help Matt. He didn't know how. He sat on the floor, deciding it was time. Then those three little words came over his lips. He closed his eyes, didn't wanted to hear the laughter. But the room stayed silent.
Just 'cause it's all in your head.
Doesn't mean it has to be in mine
Don't believe what you said
Still can't get it out of my mind
Did he say he love me?. Matt couldn't believe his own ears. He looked at Near, who, for some reason, had closed his eyes. The words kept repeatng themself in his head.
'Ive tried to find myself in approval
I've already been there
Already done that
It got me nowhere
He had tried denial. He had tried to ignore the feelings. But nothing worked.
It brought me nothing
But a good place to hide in
No one to confide in now
All those years in love, had brought him nothing. He never had the guts to say it. All those years brought him nothing but a place to go, when everything was too much. He touched Nears cheek, gently stroke it. He kissed the boy softly on his lips, and whispered; "I love you too, Nate."
I guess you're the only one
That nobody changes
I guess you're the only one
Who will never change faces
I guess you're the only one
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