NOTE: There's no Tia in my story (Benjamin's mate)

WARNINGS: Charator death, violence, language, mild sexuality.

The start of our forever.

One year later-

I came home from Billings, I went shopping for our dogs. I drove my wedding gift happily there and back. It was a jacked up truck. Simple, not fancy, but a pretty dark purple a nice stereo and huge tires. I dropped the dog food in the kitchen, then walked out the back door.

I sat on the porch watching my husband train our daughter. Sense discovering Bree had a gift, and an interest for being a Volturi gaurd member, he was making sure she was prepared.

Bree's gift was a powerful one. She could control elements, wind. She couldn't do anything else yet, but Benjamin, Carlisle's long time friend's Amun's son. He could control them all. He was here now, training her.

Wind could be used a scare tactic, and it was just cool. It also, if strong enough, could knock even a vampire over.

Benjamin was young, maybe fifteen when he was changed. He was from the Egyptian coven, he was the only one that decided to stay here after meeting us. Amun was outraged that his son would leave him, but we soon learned why.

I watched as Benjamin watched Bree carefully, making sure Jasper didn't harm her. I smiled. It was only us here now. Peter and Charlotte got there own home closer to Billings.

Ace was now a full grown, huge, boy. So was Blondie. They were both equally muscled, smart dogs. Blondie was a little true to her name, she had her blonde moments. She ran into the sliding glass door we installed a couple times, we got rid of it eventually. Bree loved her to death though.

Ace, well her thought Blondie was beautiful. Jasper and I got into an argument about how we should get him neutered or not. Jasper said it would take his spirit away. And thats how Blondie got knocked up with eight puppies. We kept one, gave the other ones to good homes. Pretty little mut dogs.

I grinned stroking little Spike. He was two months old and chubbier than hell. He had the color of his father, the body of his mother and I hope to god the smarts of Ace. I thought this as I watched Blondie chase her tall growling violently at it.

Spike lay on his back asleep, I was holding him like you would a newborn. The rolls of his fat made him wrinkly. I grinned at him.

Jasper came from sparring with Bree and sat down beside me, Ace in between. "How's the baby?" He asked grinning.

"Happy." I said rubbing his tummy.

He chuckled slightly.

We both looked at Bree and Benjamin. He made a snowflake in her hand. She loved him so much, it was so clear in her eyes. I was happy for her. They hadn't done anything, Bree being only 15, looking around 14. We had both threatened Benjamin when we first learned that they were mates.

There love was young, sweet and innocent.

This was the forever I wanted.

We worked regularly so we never got bored, but we had enough down time that we were happy. We lived our semi human lives while satisfying the monster within.

It was then that my happiness was shattered. That my life was going to crack. I should have known. It was night now, the moon had risen at full peak. It had a strange eery red tint to it. Like smeared blood.

Erractic hair brain mother ranting about blood on the moon and how it was a omen. Sage throughout the house on those nights.

Both of our phones began ringing sharply, the house phone began ringing. I smelled Peter and Charlotte approaching. "What the-" Before I could finish the thought we saw what was behind Peter and Charlotte.

Wolves.

"INSIDE!" I yelled loudly. The dogs obeyed, I put down Spike, Ace picked him up by the nap of his neck and took him to safety.

I flew from the porch Jasper beside me, we angled our bodies in front of Bree, Peter and Charlotte joined our formation.

Six wolves face us, growling viciously.

I recognized Jacob from my human memories, but I couldn't make anyone else out, my thoughts distorted.

We matched their growls with six snarling vampires, crouched prepared to attack. I sense fire, I glanced behind me to see Benjamin covered in the flames he'd conjured, he flew in front of and hit the ground with all of his might.

It cracked under his fist and the strength of his power. A huge gaping whole separate the wolves from us, the fire disappeared from his body and into the depths of the whole.

The wolves howled and whined with fear.

Jacob was at the front, Jasper was at our front. They locked eyes, Jaspers growls dimmed.

"His emotions aren't malicious." Jasper said through gritted teeth.

"Phase to human then!" I yelled.

Jacob looked pointedly to the huge barrier between us. "Benjamin, seal it." I winked at him. He knew I would place my physical shield between us. Benjamin looked at the wolves and hovered his hands over the whole.

The sound of the earth moving began. Jacob ran to the forest, to phase back I suspected. He came walking, well strutting out, as soon as the gap was sealed. My shield was between us, a shimmier blue that you could only see if you were focusing.

"What are you here for?" Jasper said glaring at him.

"Bella I came to tell you something." He said levelly, completly ignoring Jasper.

"Well spit it out Jacob." I hissed out. My feelings I last felt for Jacob were much more intense as a vampire.

Hate.

Anger.

He looked me up and down, his tongue darting out once licking his lips. He was disgusting. "Well it looks like your vampire didn't kill Victoria or something, because there's a hell of a lot of newborns roaming around. "

"I killed Victoria! You come here, to my home, chasing my family!"

"They have red eyes! Free game Bella!"

"Not free game for you Jacob, not them."

"Wow you know, I was coming here to be nice. So you wouldn't have to here about your fathers death from somone you didn't know."

Charlie..Dad..Daddy...no..

"What? How?" Jasper asked senseing that I couldn't really speak right now.

"First Renee, a car crash with her and her husband. We checked it becuase of your ...history with vampires. Reaked of vamps. Then Charlie a few days ago, drained in your house. Thats when we first met her. " His voice was full of hatred, his face a cruel sneer.

My world was shattered. My knees collapsed from under me. I hit the ground. No I can't show him how this hurts me. I can't let him know how much his words just destroyed me. He didn't come here as a kindness he came here to see the look on my face.

My breathing was ragged, my hands were on the ground keeping me from completly collasping. "Mom!" Bree's voice rang out, her arms wrapping around me.

"Take her inside Bree." As Jasper ordered Bree picked me up from the ground the best should.

I had lost the ability to walk, my breathing kept getting faster and harder. She pulled me onto the couch and I broke.

The horrible pain was in my chest, like my lungs and heart had been punched out of me. Except it extended from my chest, to my limbs and stomach.

My fault.

My mother.

My father.

Gone.

Painfully killed all because of me.

JASPER POV:

The pain my mate, my love, my wife was in was enough to make my rage and white hot fury kick in once again for this stupid little boy. I roared once I heard her cries. His form shook. He was going to phase. "Wanna try me right now mongrel?" I growled out to him. He should be afraid of me, but he wasn't. Why wasn't he?

His pack growled from behind. He smiled. "Actually. I do." He phased leaping in the air for me.

I kicked him hard in the jaw, he flew a few feet. His dogs were after the rest of the family, we were going to lose someone. There was to many, and our heavy hitter of Bella was in the house bawling her eyes out. Benjamin brought boulders from the earth striking one of mutts in the side. Peter was surrounded by two wolves, to many, he was good but you can't take on two wolves while distracted because you mate is being backed against a tree by one.

That's when I saw them, Esmé, Emmett, and Rosalie, running for us. Jacob hit me again, I sent him flying this time running at him, kicking him hard in his chest as soon as hit the earth. "Don't kill them!" Bella screamed. "Subdue them! Knock them out!" She was making her way through the wolves, hitting them hard with her shield, coming for me. "The alpha controls them!" She yelled pain in her voice.

I thought Jacob was out of my blow but he wasn't he grabbed hold of my arm with his sharp teeth, tearing into my skin. That's when Bella got to us. Wrapping her arms around Jacob's throat.

It happened quickly.

Suddenly.

He was dead. His heart gave out when she snapped his neck. Of course being my tender Bella like she was, she sobbed over his body. He was her friend before she turned into this. I didn't know what was wrong with him. He was jealous, but never evil. She had to break away from him when she was human, a part of him understood. This..this thing that came here. Was not the Jacob she ever knew, nor the one I did.

Slowly the pack awoke, went to the woods and phased into their human forms. They didn't look angry. Just somber. All males. "Finally." One spoke.

"What happened to him?" Bella spiralled, lept up to her feet and was in front of the wolf within a second.

"She came, he killed Sam for her. Banned the young ones and Leah from turning."

"She?" I said.

"The vampire that vampire that came. Black hair, strange olive toned skin. She suduced him. Turned him evil, Jacob claimed he imprinted on her."

Maria..no..it couldn't be. But if it was, she would be bringing hell with her. She was the most evil vampire I had ever came enounter with. I had at one point, thought myself in love with her. She was sudective, beautiful. A way with words, a way with the things she could give you. All the blood in the world, any woman I wanted. Everything a growing vampire needed.

All because of me, Bella's human parents were gone. Oh god...please let her forgive me for this. Please let my Isa forgive me though I don't deserve it.

BELLA POV:

Maria. It had to be. I knew she would do something. I knew it.

"Your staying here now, you can't go back there." I told them.

"What of our families?"

"Is she stationed in Forks?" He shook his head no.

"Where?"

"We don't know."

"Maria likes Texas, she won't leave it." Peter said. I locked eyes with him. It was Maria.. I knew this, but hearing it from another was incredibly worse.

"I have to call Aro." I turned my back rigidly to them. I was barely holding myself together.

I walked inside to make the call. I came back out to tell them of what I had learned.

JASPER POV:

"Jane turned on Aro. She told Maria of us all, the ringing the phone calls before they came, it was Alice and Edward are trying to warn us. Alice had a vision, Edward heard Janes thoughts. Jane has ran, she's suspected to be with Maria. Alice is having visions that are broken, not fully seen. Aro suspects to has someone thats gifted, blocking her."

I chorus of cursing echoed through the yard. "Aro has givin us full reign to destroy them. He wants Jane brought to him, he wishes to end her. He's sending Dimitri, Felix, Santiago, and Afton. Edward wishes to help, if we allow it. Which I haven't decided yet, that's something myself and Jasper need to discuss." She truly was a leader. Her voice so strong and final.

It's all your fault.

Her emotions were completely blocked from me. I couldn't read a thing from her, and that wasn't good. Not in the slightest.

She's hiding from you because she blames you.

Please Isa.. Oh God.. I'm not good for her.. I'm the reason for her pain, the target on her head. The reason she's a member of the gaurd.

She's numb because of what you have caused.

"So your staying, she won't spend her time attacking you. She wants us. You'll stay here, we have a guest house. I think you owe us a little too. Your help would be appreciated. Contact the wolves in La Push, let them know they can phase and protect your people if you're still worried. If thats all I think I'll go for a hunt."

She disappeared. I flew after her. She was still so fast, when her newborn strength left, her speed remained. I found her deep in the forest, in the middle of a clearly wailing. Her shield was dropped, I could feel her. I wrapped my arms around her and felt everything she felt. I would let her suffer this alone. It was the very least I could do.

"My sweet Isa, you'll never know how sorry I am for this my darlin'. Please forgive me for this . I love you so much."

And that was my mantra.

BELLA POV:

I was lost in my thoughts, in my emotions. I couldn't hear anything, I could feel anything besides the extreme pain, the extreme loss of losing my parents.

I wanted to live out there lives, happy and healthy. Charlie had found someone I knew he would be okay, Renee had Phil. But now. They were gone. Lives cut to short, because of me and my choices. I was drowning in my self hatred but I pushed that away to alot myself to greive.

Memories of them flooded my mind.
The last things I had every said to them. The last time I had saw them, truly was the last. Mom, I'm sorry for ruining your happiness you had with Phil, I'm sorry for cutting that short. I'm sorry Daddy. I love you. I'm so sorry for what I have put you through, for what I have to done to you.

I'm sorry for being such a selfish daughter. I should have thought of you more.
I should have stayed and take care of you. But I loved you, I thought I was keeping you safe. And that fault is mine to bear forever.

As I cried my last dry sob, I finally heard Jaspers pleas to forgive him. He thought this was his fault, and I had sat her crying making him believe it.

Yet another thing that made me horrible.

"No! Jasper No! It's not you, it's me, it's my fault. I killed them. It's all my fault. " The tears bubbled again, tears I couldn't even cry. How was that even fair.

Being this miserable and not even being able to shed a tear.

You didn't even check in on them.

"Bella, Bella, no! Isa no. Please believe me, it isn't your fault darlin." He was crying I noticed then. I was making him cry.

I clung to him, burrowing my face in his neck.

He let out a huge sigh.

My tears were slowing, my pain was lessening.

Jasper's emotions were calming down. "I could never blame you for this." I said to him softly. A broken sob excaped him.

"But it's my fault. She's doing this for me."

"She can't have you." Then, my anger, my fury, my utter hatred for this woman kicked in.