I'm pretty sure the story will switch from Seth to Summer's perspective every chapter, tho I prefer writing from Seth because I can understand him a bit more being as he's a social outsider and all…its just easier to write rather than be all happy go lucky with popularity like Summer…..i'm trying a new writing style out so don't bash too much please….this is set after Seth returns from Tahiti…he never went to Portland, Luke still lives in Newport and Ryan hasn't come back..Sorry I modified the story just a tiny bit so you might find a few parts changed up…..anyways enjoy.

Disclaimer: I do not own the OC, but I still boycott fox for canceling it!

I'd like to tell you I'm some ripped 6'4 guy and the most popular in the school. Hell I'd even venture to tell you that I'm the guy who sits at the back of the class and picks his nose. Ew! Sorry, as you can see, Summer's rubbed off on me a bit. But at least the nosepicker is one step above on the proverbial social status chair to me, Seth Cohen, proclaimed emogeek. And I made a mistake.

What you ask? Leaving Summer Roberts. That's right, I left her on a boat for the summer because my best friend, or brother whatever you like to call him, left to be with his pregnant girlfriend in Chino. I got an extreme amount of respect for the guy, but still his departure tore me in two. I couldn't bare the thought of being here without him, because eventually that meant I'd lost Summer too. And a life without Summer wasn't life at all.

Although currently I still A)have no life and has only gotten worse, and B) don't have Summer. So it was a lose-lose situation for me.

As for Summer….she's probably cuddling with Zach and watching movies. Jeez and to think that that used to be me. But I can't really have no hard feelings towards the guy, because I supposed he makes her happy. And we all know I will do anything for her to be happy, even if its at the expense of me being miserable. She deserves a real man. Someone who won't run out on her when things get tough, someone to be there for her when it seems her worlds falling apart, someone that can cherish her like she's above all other….Someone like me…but I messed that up.

I had my chance to be a real man to her, and I failed miserably.

"Seth! Let's go now! Your going to be late!" a voice boomed from downstairs. School. That's just great. What better way to be welcomed back to Newport than to see the happy couple Summer and Zach.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't jealous of Zach. I mean he's on the waterpolo team, one of the most popular guys in the school, and from what I hear, he's basically Mr.Perfect.

So it was most certainly going to be a bad day today. It was the first day of school, and there was no Ryan and no Summer. Ryan hadn't returned yet from Chino. He called numerous amount of times from Chino just to say hi and say how things were going. Theresa had lost her baby before birth, but Ryan still felt it was his duty to stick with her.

I drearily trudged down the stairs and grabbed a bowl and a cup. I began fixing my bowl of cereal, than before adding milk, decided to prepare my coffee. I unintentionally poured the coffee into my cereal, causing an ugly color to arise from the soggy bits. Its gonna be one of those days.

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Once I was in the car, I quickly turned on my Ipod and slipped in the earphones. There was nothing better than getting lost to the melodies of Death Cab when your having a bad day. So now you know why you will hear Death Cab blaring from my room from now probably until the day I die.

As we're passing all of the scenic views Newport has to offer, I can't help but feel a little proud of my decision to leave Summer. It was verry little, but still there. Things don't work out for people like me, so why did I ever think thinks with Summer would? Was it because her life is perfect? In which point, her perfection could make up for my rejection? Things are the way they are for a reason, and I guess it was better to end things with her. I don't imagine she cried any tears over me, she probably just moved straight on to Zach as soon as I left. Another benefit of having ended it with her rather her breaking up with me, which was bound to happen. I love that girl way too much than even she knows. I wouldn't be able to bare have her break up with me and realize what a mistake I was.

Uh-oh! The school outskirts. I can see them from here, that's not a good sign. Mom doesn't seem to mind as much as I do. She's glad I'm back. If anyone should be happy out of this, its my parents. I know I put them through hell when I left, especially my mom, she hit the bottle hard and nearly drove out of control. It wasn't till I returned that things seemed to return to normal. Well how 'normal' can it get in Newport?

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"Have a nice day honey!" Kirsten waves goodbye and blows a kiss than pulls out. God I'm not 5 anymore mom. But I give a small gloomy wave and turn to see if anyone saw that altercation between my mother and I. Obviously no one. Just like always, even with Ryan here this place was hell and I expect no less.

I take 5 steps, I counted, before getting advertently run into by a jock. He brushes past my shoulder sending me to staggering a bit back. I look back and the guy is just laughing it off with his friends while they go over their new schedules. Friends…wish I had my friend here with me. But no mines busy being a good guy and taking care of his ailing girlfriend who just lost their baby.

I continue on my way for the school front steps, passing dozens of kids talking over their classes, when I look to the top of the long flight of stairs.

I spot Marissa chatting with some jock, and I instantly gaze to her surroundings, because where there's Marissa, your always bound to find that small beautiful brunette who's got my heart on a thread.

And without further a dew, there she is. She's got on bright pink heels, followed up with a dangerously low mini skirt with pink polo. I can never get sick analyzing her attire. Its completely mesmerizing everyday, its impossible to get sick of. I pry my eyes from her body, and focus on her waist…a hand wrapped firmly around her, and I peer up to find whoelse…Zach. I look away in disgust, feeling that the trio don't see me so I make my way up the stairs trying to go unnoticed by them.

As I near the top, just a couple feet away from the trio I glance up to find all 3 of them staring at me. Zach instantly tightens his grip on Summer, as if she's going to fly away, Marissa appears happy, and then I finally find the most important eyes of all, Summer's. Hers just look emotionless, yet full of sadness and shock mixed in one.

"S-S-Summer…Hi…" I spit out and sweat starts pouring out of me like buckets.

Okay so that was the first chapt…I'm trying a new writing style so don't criticize too much…its very angsty and fileld with drama, a lot to do with Seth's social life catching up with him after he experienced bliss when Ryan was there.

R/R n please review. I thrive of them…lol