Loki is in prison in Asgard(his not home)(home) awaiting the Allfather's sentence. (he is the father of everything but not ME)
He is fine. (so much pain please stop please stop it hurts it hurts ithurtsithurtsithurtsithurts STOP)
He is simply bored. (so true. i am bored of the LIES)
He does not wonder why he is here. He knows because the guards keep telling him when they crush his bones into neat little bits, making his skin a boiled red as they scratch, draw his guts out and string them like festive decorations, when they put a hand over his mouth and hold as they make him ache in a very different way then before. When they call him ergi and Jotun and villainous traitor. (why? i simply wanted father's love)
He can bear through it because Thor has been through worse. He must be strong for Father. He will forgive him if he proves himself a man. (were were thor's lips ever sewn shut or forced to bear the child of a horse or forced to go through the dark, endless void where he could not hear nothing but the sound of his filthy jotun blood pump through infected veins. did it ever happen to thor?)
He is not a monster. (oh so wrong. just look at me, look at my icy skin and my equally icy heart.)
He does not want attention. (i do. just look at what i can do. i can teleport. i can make gold out of lead. i can cross the universe with nothing but my own power. i can bear through so much PAIN)(limbstornoffeyessquashedmindpushedoutacoinsizedholeinhisskull)(We will make you long for something as sweet as pain.)
He is of Asgard. Not of Jotenheim. (hah! so wrong. i am them. i am a monster like them, the monster that hides under beds and eats the naughty aesir children who dont have manners and who wont keep still.)
Voices don't chant in the confines of his head, for only the mad hear voices. He is sane. (the voices they never just. SHUT. UP)
Some want blood. (sometimes the blood of others intrigues them but always in the end they thirst for his monstrous jotun blood)
Others want love. (where was my love? my kisses? my pats on the back, my bed time stories? why was all it given to thor)
A few want death. (oh sweet, sweet death where are you? please-i just want your sweet embrace. take me away)
They are coming. (the chitauri, the aesir, the jotuns. they want him to kneel. KNEEL TO YOUR GOD.)(Your lilac god who looks at your pathetic form and somehow sees potential, be thankful for His kindness, beast.)
He can hear them. (everywhere.)
He is watched. (maybe even in death eyes full of distrust and hate will peer at him)
Set boundaries. (father said he could not do anything)
Forced under their vision, their image. (how can the dark son be like the golden son, the son who with his smile brings light and with softly crinkled eyes brings a great joy)
They whisper his name. (he has been given many names in all his many years)
Silver-Tongue. (the true liar is the golden realm, the golden parents who sit on golden thrones)
Mother of monsters (his children are not monsters, he is, not his wide eyed darlings who were cast out and scorned)
Monster. (its in his blood)
Pet. (He gave him that. its all that he can be, for he is a pathetic monster-he hasn't eaten a naughty aesir child yet, after all)
Madman. (its the newest one)
A fractured man. (no one called him that. is that what he is?)
A strong sorcerer, second only to Odin himself. Skilled in diplomacy and bringer of Gungnir and Mjolnir. (oh-the voices in his head are saying that. then pay no attention to them)
Nobodyson. (yes it is true. his fake father does not care for him. his real father killed by him)
Alone. (he is alone)