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okay so this is A one thing just tell me if it is good okay...well its about how Summer feels after Seth sails away.

THOUGHTS

Summer is thinking

I still cant believe stupid Cohen for sailing away what his problem if he thinks he can come back and think that I will fall right back into his arms he is wrong.

God I love him so much but then I hate him why didn't he think I was enough.

And I just dont understand why would he do that I mean Chino is gone but Marissa and I also lost him..well to think about it he was Cohen first and only friend.

But we all have had heartbreak I mean when my mom took off I did not go and sail away or go on this major depression stage...and now his parents are totally drowning in there sorrow.

I mean if at least he cared about his family and me he would have not just left us A STUPID FUCKIN NOTE.

He was alone for all those years and when he finally gets people to talk to he goes and walks out what is his problem.

I HATE HIM...I HATE HIM...I HATE HIM...BUT THEN AGAIN I LOVE HIM I AM SO CONFUSED WITH WHAT I AM FEELING.

Why do I feel so SAD for Seth Cohen...what was I thinking even giving him A chance not just one but twice he threw both tries away.

I promised myself I wouldn't feel for him or even cry for what he did to me and his family then why I'm I crying.

From what my dad told me I am never supposed to feel if I take this pill it just like never existing.

Like never meeting anyone I am just alone in the world.

But I know who to blame for this whole mess his name is RYAN ATWOOD AND THAT BITCH THERESA.

Why did Marissa ever have to meet Ryan bye the drive way smoking.

If she would have never met him I would not feel so much and her and Luke will still be together.

And Cohen will not be sailing to some Island somewhere in the middle of the ocean.

But I dont care if I take this pill I will forget everything nothing will matter to me anymore.

Maybe my dad is right I mean Cohen he is such A loser I mean he is not on any school teams.

All he cares about is comic books and his stupid holidays and skateboard.

he never cared about me at all he just lied to get into my pants.(...lol... oh sorry back to the story)

If he cared about me so much he would not have left...but Ryan had to go and get Theresa pregnant and ruin everything for Seth get him all sad and depressed and then with ryan going that means Seth is not too far behind.

What I'm I saying Ryan's life is as ruined more than anybody's he is going to be A DAD what is he going to do.

So I am dealing with my life right now helping out Coop and not feeling anything at all..ignoring everything in the world that has to offer me.

Trying to hide my feeling is not going to last for long my life is totally ruined people talk and now they all know that Cohen left and sailed away and now were all like depressed..what are we all supposed to do....I am just lonely Coop is all into her life and I am trying to help her out the best way I can.

Well maybe when Cohen gets back some thing will get better but till then I am not going to lie I won't take the pill i am going to deal with my feelings and not try to hide them that much...and I cant hide what I feel for Seth Cohen.

My dad should be coming in to see if I took the pill so I think I might just go and throw it into the toilet...but I think I might really love him...i am not confused anymore.

okay that's it tell me what you think please review...dont be mean please.

sincerely

Summeran1