Night...

The wind is always blowing calmly above the sea... but when the wind is away form the ocean, then the storm begins...

The wind and the ocean, they both like the same things... to be alone, together, sunrises and sunsets, the whispers and songs of their caring voices for each other.

My ocean is gone... I was the one who left it alone... I was the one who left you alone, Michiru, my dear Michiru...

I lost you forever, and only now I realized that I love you much more then I could feel back then. I remember you with any insignificant thing that comes on my way, any rose... you love roses, any love song, any whispered word.

It broke down in one day... everything I felt, everything we shared, it faded away in one moment with one mistake... my mistake... and now I lost you.

21st January, 28th January...

It's been days...? God, no... it's been years.

Now I can't wake up with your loving words in my ears, only in my mind, as a memory...

Have you ever read Maitreyi? In that story, the two of them have been together, have loved each other secretly, but when it became dangerous, he forgot her behind and felt on his own. He was a fool, he lost her though he was still in love with her. And he continued loving her for years... he received his punishment for what he did to her by not being able to forget her... and years later all he could say was "...Tamar Ki manè acchè, Maitreyi? Yadi thakè, tahalè ki Kashama kartè paro?..."

"...Do you remember me, Meitreyi? And if you do, would you ever forgive me?..."

My dear Michiru, do you remember me?

Do you remember our time together, our love, our words... do you remember everything we shared?

I wonder who is the person who took my place next to you, I wounder if that person loves you, 'cause right now, that's the only thing that can still bring a smile on my face, to know that you are happy.

I would want to come to you right now, to run to you, to hold you in my arms, to beg you to forgive me, but I think this might hurt you even more. I can't do this anymore, I can't take all my chances in one reckless action, I'm afraid that anything I would do would be wrong and would hurt you... I don't know if staying here without doing anything is right either, maybe you want me to do something, to come back to you.

I always wanted to be independent, to go on my own, to live on my own, to be free, but now, I need someone to guide me, to show me what's the right thing to do...

I will never stop loving you, my dear. For me, in my heart, you will always be my Michiru.

Never forget the thing I told you so many times not to forget, cause it's still true...

And if you still remember me, can you forgive me, Michiru?

Damn it... it's still night... when will the sun rise again?

I know it's kind of... weired... I always prefer stories that have a happy ending of the two of them... but I felt like writing this and well, it' not like this story has an ending, so you can imagine it ended up however you want... hope you will like it.