Authors note: My first fanfic for Vampire Academy! I hope I did okay with this.

Disclaimer: I own nothing!

Song: Better Than Me by Hinder

Dimitri hated this, he hated that he had to lie to her, saying that his love for her had faded. He hated the fact that he hurt her, again…..But she could do so much better than him. She diserved someone better than him. He may be back to normal, but his demons from when he was an evil, souless monster will always haunt him. What he did to her was wrong, so very wrong, and she didn't need to have to deal with the man who tried to make her a blood-sucking monster.

I think you can do much better than me

After all the lies that I made you believe

And guilt kicks in and I start to see

The edge of the bed where your nightgown used to be

He kept telling himself that he wouldn't miss her, that he could forget about her. But then he remembers. Dimitri remembers laying in the bed at the cabin, holding her in his arms. He remembers how warm she was, or how good her hair smelt, or how she fit perfectly in his arms.

I told myself I won't miss you

But I remembered what it feels like beside you

He missed having her hair in his face after making love or when they would be a practice, when they would spar. But he knew, he knew that she deserved much better then him.

I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

Dimitri thought about the time in the cabin…..he would never forget that night, ever. That was one memory that he didn't want to lose.

While looking through your old box of notes

I found those pictures I took that you were lookin' for

If there's one memory I don't want to lose

That time at the mall, you and me in the dressing room

I told myself I won't miss you

But I remembered what it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder

Wish I never would've said it's over

And I can't pretend

I won't think about you when I'm older

'Cause we never really had our closure

This can't be the end

I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

And I think you should know this

"You deserve so much better than me, Roza. After all the things I've done to you..." Dimitri said to himself, while looking at the spot that she had been at about ten minutes ago.

I hope you like it. I hope it doesn't suck... First Fanfic for Vampire Academy so...yeah. Hope you like it.