All Our Yesterdays
They say a new Universe is formed every time we make a decision, for every possible decision one Universe is created. There are countless Universes out there and this is a story of just a few of them, few that could have easily happened.
And I was very bored, so please, no harsh words.
Disclaimer: I don't own neither Stargate SG1 nor Star Trek: TOS. No infringement intended by using SG1 characters and their storyline and ST:TOS titles. I just love those titles.
-Prologue-
How it all started
"So, you really think that's for the best" I ask her with a disbelieving look on my face.
-1-
Probably shouldn't have happened
"Yes, I really think that", she finally answers.
"Is there any way I can change your mind?"
"No Jack, you know that's what we have to do. I don't want to risk both our careers for something that might not even last."
I know there was a slightly hurt expression I let her see that very moment, but I really couldn't put a façade like I usually do. That was the rest of my life whooshing by and there was nothing I could do about it.
-2-
Slightly better off
"No, but it's something we have to do. Right now, we have no other choice. This world needs us."
"Sam, please."
"No, Jack. There's nothing else we can do."
I take that last step towards her and close the remaining distance. I'll be damned if I let them steal this last moment of happiness from us. I put my hands on both sides of her face and our lips join like there's no tomorrow.
This world be damned.
-3-
Is there any hope?
"Sam, you know I'll always love you?", I know it's a rhetorical question, but I say it anyway.
"I love you too, Jack, but you know that for the time being it has to be like this."
While I try to think of a thing to say to her that would change her mind, it occurs to me that she really is right. We have to put this galaxy before us. But this war has to end one day, and when it does, we'll continue just like we're stopping today: in a bed, in each other's arms, not letting go for nothing.
This day I'll remember till the day I die. Today I put my life on hold. But you know what? Hope lives on.
-4-
"Yes, I do".
"Sam, honey, please don't do that."
"You know I have to."
"Please, we could have a future together."
"No, I'm sorry. This isn't the time for a family. I'm going to do it and you can't stop me."
"Sam…"
"Jack, you know what the consequences of us leaving SGC would probably be. The sacrifice would be much more than one life and a bit of happiness."
"I know you're right, but I just can't let you slip trough my fingers. You're the thing I've wanted for… too many years."
The hope still exists. It's always out there. But you know what? Hope is still a whore.
FIN