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First fanfic, and it's only, what? 300 words long. I'm ashamed of myself. Please note this was written just after I saw episode 2.

Not Just A Four Letter Word Anymore

She can't figure out what she's feeling now, and not for the first time in her life, that confusion scares her.

She's always been in control, (Because she's Tea Marvelli,) and to be out of control can only end in disaster. She thinks it might be something akin to jealousy, but she isn't learnt in such matters of the heart.

It's when Michelle drapes herself across him, bites his neck and literally sucks off his face that she finally decides she's had enough of this.

Isn't she supposed to be a lesbian? She always been in control, but now being out of control seems to be the only option (Desperate times call for desperate measures,). She thinks it might be something akin to hatred, but she isn't learnt in such matters of the heart.

And it's when Tony stares her down from across the room, eyebrow cocked, devilish smirk and that bloody twinkle in his eye that she finally snaps.

It might be good to be in control, but being out of control seems like such an appealing idea, and she no longer cares that she has lost the game she always knew she was playing. She thinks it might be something akin to lust, and she's well-learnt in such matters of sex and girls, (but not yet sex and boys,).

So she corners him behind the gym, and he's got that stupid smile again, like he knew all along and of course, he did.

He's in control, and she's out of it, but she can't really begin to care. So she kisses him and he kisses her, and for a moment that could last for ever, they're equals, two halves of one impossible whole, and Betty and Michelle just don't matter anymore.

She thinks it might be something akin to love, but those four letters simply don't seem to cover it anymore.

She isn't learnt in such matters of the heart, but she's easily taught.

So, yeah. There's a lot of room for improvement, but I wanted to give it a go. Would anyone like to give me some feedback? *cheesy grin*