Dark Places
A/N: This story and this chapter contain references to suicide, self-harm, and other things that may be triggering, please don't read this if you feel that it may put you at risk for hurting yourself.
Kid wondered if his father would approve of how he ran Shibusen. He wanted to know why it has to be the way it is. His father was a far better Shinigami in his eyes and he felt that he couldn't live up to the legacy. So, he sat on his bed wondering why his father had to die when he became a full Shinigami. It wasn't fair, he was supposed to receive advice from him and be taught how to properly manage world affairs from his father. Not Spirit, not Stein, not Excalibur, not Sid; not any of his father's former advisors, but his father himself. It wasn't fair, he was supposed to have more time to be a teenager and make Liz and Patti into death scythes.
He wasn't supposed to be doing this so soon and on his own. He had friends, friends that he no longer gets to see. He had time to do what he wanted and not what the world needed. He had freedom, he doesn't have any of that now. He wants it back. And so, he sits in his room contemplating ending it all. The only reason he hasn't done so yet is because he doesn't have someone to continue it on. The world can't be run when there is no Shinigami, it may function for a short while with the meisters, weapons, and the advisors to the late Shinigami-sama, but that wouldn't last long. So, he hasn't ended it yet, only because the world needs him alive for a little longer.