All I Have

Storyline: Set after 1x13, Blair's world was falling apart and Serena was there to help. One night of wildness changed Blair's life and the people around her.

Fandom: Gossip Girl. Chuck & Blair, Nate & Serena, Serena & Dan and Vanessa & Nate

Disclaimer: I do not own anything; I do not own the chapter's name or the title of the fic. And I would own GG Blair and would never be together with Nate.

A/N: I want to give a big hug to my awesome beta Mia.

You Are All I Have

Chapter One: Viva La Vida

"When you take charge of your life, there is no longer need
to ask permission of other people or society at large.
When you ask permission, you give someone veto power over your life."
- Geoffrey F. Abert.

As Blair was driving the car, she needed to focus on the highway, but all she thought about was Nate breaking up with her. Her world was falling apart but Serena had promised to be there for her, and Blair was stupid enough to believe her. Serena's way of Blair to feel better was to do something crazy, and well there they were, Blair driving Bart's brand new car and Serena sitting next to her.

"Isn't this great, aren't you feeling great?" Serena kept asking.
"No! This is crazy, we can get arrested. What does cabbage patch think about this?"
"He doesn't know and you're not telling him, and how can we get arrested when we have driver licensees?" she asked.
"Yes but this isn't our car, we are going to get into so much trouble," Blair pointed out and left Serena annoyed.
"Just shut up and drive, Blair," she hissed and turned up the volume.

1 hour later

"Serena van der Woodsen?"
"Yes this is me," Serena answered still shocked.
The police sat down next to her, "Can you tell me what happened?"
Serena was so lost but she had to tell him, "I forced Blair to drive the car; I took the car from my mother's fiancé Bart Bass," the police stopped her.
"So you stole the car?" he asked but Serena didn't have time to answer.
"No she didn't, she asked me if she could borrow it," Bart said standing next to her.

Serena looked back at Bart saving her once again and then she looked at Chuck, he had lost all the color in his face.

Spotted S getting her ass saved again by her new dad, what will lonely boy think about this?
Xoxo you know you love me, Gossip Girl

"I came as soon I heard," Dan said and hugged Serena.
"I'm sorry," she cried out loud, and he brought her closer.
"Its okay, have you heard anything about Blair?" he asked.
"No they won't tell us anything; Eleanor is chasing the doctors," she answered.

Chuck had been with Erik when it happened, he knew that Serena hated the idea of them being siblings but Chuck liked the idea of being Erik's big brother. He would teach him how to be a true Bass, the perfect family.

"What are you doing here?" Chuck asked looking at Nathaniel.
"Serena called me. Why are you here?" he asked back.
"Not for the same reason that you're here, I'm here for Blair," Chuck replied.
"And you think she wants to see you?" Nate asked coldly.
"Well she'll be happier to see me than she would be if she saw you," he answered but that wasn't true.

The scene kept replaying in his head, the words he told her, the look he gave her. He knew that Blair wouldn't want to see him but he had to see her.

: Flashback:

"Let me be more succinct. You held a certain fascination... when you were beautiful, delicate, and untouched. Now... now you're like the Arabian my father used to own. Rode hard and put away wet. I don't want you anymore, and I can't see why anyone else would,"

: End of flashback:

"Thinking of more lies to tell Charles?" Nate asked furiously, making Chuck mad.
"This is your fault, If she doesn't make it, it's your fault," he shouted and pushed Nate over the chair.

Nate fought back; Serena and Dan had to stop them.

"Stop it you two, Blair needs all of us. Nate and I are going to go and get something to eat, Chuck stay with Dan," Serena ordered.
"Why should I get punished? I didn't do anything?" Dan complained.
"Dan, not now please," Serena begged and walked away.

Dan sat next to Chuck trying to understand what he was thinking about, the 'Chuck Bass' face was gone and he was the lonely boy now.

"You care about her, don't you?" he asked.
Chuck turned to face Dan, waiting before answering, "She's a friend."
"She seems to be more than just a friend," Dan replied.
"Well she isn't," Chuck said loudly.
"If you say so,"
"I say so." Chuck replied angrily.

As Eleanor stood next to the two of them, the doctor came.

"Do you have any news for Blair Waldorf?" she asked.
"She's going to be okay, she's awake and you can see her. But she has to go to therapy and she may be dealing with some memory loss."
The world memory loss caught Chuck's ear, "What do you mean?" he asked.
"She might not remember who she is or who you are. But I don't think it's serious."
"You don't think it's serious?" Chuck asked angrily
"She will get her memory back, she just needs time."

Eleanor had spent thirty minutes with her daughter and as she stood and faced Lily and Bart, the tears came.

"She doesn't remember me, she doesn't remember who she is," she said crying, Chuck felt as if his heart was broken in pieces.
Lily looked at her friend, she couldn't imagine the pain she was feeling, god knows what she would have done if it was Serena that was in that room and not Blair. But than again she had Bart, Eleanor had no one.

"Why don't you and I go home together, I'm sure that Serena will give us any news?" Lily asked and Eleanor agreed.
But before leaving Eleanor said something, "Charles, Blair wants to see you," she said.
Nate looked at Chuck, "But I thought you said that she didn't remember?" he asked confused.
"She doesn't remember, the doctors said that she called you in her sleep," she answered.

Spotted N, D, and S looking at C without him doing anything wrong. Queen B said C's name in her sleep, am I the only one who smells trouble?
xoxo, you know you love me
Gossip Girl.

Chuck entered the room and watched her lying there peacefully.

"Who are you?" she said when she saw him standing next to her.
"It's me Blair, Chuck." he answered.
"Chuck? I remember your name, but I don't know why," she answered.
"Well it's great that you remember something, and if it happens to me, its better," he laughed.
Blair laughed as well, "I feel like I should say something mean to you," Blair replied.
"Ah of course, try your best on me. Just say anything that pops into your head," Chuck challenged her.
"You're heinous!" Blair blinked in confusion, "That's the first thing that popped up, but why? You seem okay so far."
Chuck smirked, "Appearances can be deceiving."
"Do I hate you? Because there are so many things I want to say to you…bad things. Or did you break up with me and break my heart? And then I cried and watched Audrey Hepburn's movies all day long."

Chuck started to laugh, yes it was Blair.

"Why are you laughing Bass?" she asked
"Because you're Blair," he replied not noticing that she called him Bass.
Blair looked at him with confusion, "I still don't get. I know that I'm Blair, that's what everyone keeps telling me. What I don't understand is why you keep staring at me, and why the hell you're wearing that scarf all the time?"
Chuck was serious now, "Hey I try to be nice to you but don't mock the scarf, it's my signature," he replied. "And I do not stare at you."
"I'm sorry about the scarf. I don't know what came over me and yes, you're staring at me," she replied, "And you still didn't answer my question or questions, are we together?" Blair asked.
Chuck bit his lip before answering, "No, we are not but I can tell you that we are friends…best friends," he lied.

They used to be friends, best friends, now they were nothing. But a harmless lie never hurt anyone before; let's see what this one does.

"I should let you rest before the doctors yell at me," Chuck said and looked at her.
"See you are doing it again, staring. Whatever we have I'm sure it's great," she said.
"Yeah great," he replied and was about to leave.
"Won't you give me a goodnight kiss?" Blair asked and looked so innocent.
Chuck put a fake smile on the pretty face of his, "Of course I will,"

He leaned forward to give her a kiss on her cheek as she grabbed his hair and pushed his lips against hers. It felt natural for Blair to kiss Chuck, it was normal for Chuck to get the butterflies every time she touched him; because she was Blair Waldorf.

Blair pushed him away from her, she was feeling so ashamed, "I'm so sorry I don't know why I did that," she apologized.
Chuck made up yet another lie, "Don't worry, this is how you and I say goodbye,"
"It is?" she asked.
"No but we can pretended that it is," he smiled
"Goodnight Bass," Blair said.
"Goodnight Waldorf, "he replied and walked out through the door.

The rest was waiting for him in the waiting room.

"Does she remember anything?" Serena asked.
"No not yet. But she knows that her name is Blair," he answered.
"Chuck! This isn't the time for jokes," Serena shouted.
"Fine! She doesn't remember anything. She remembers being a bitch to me, and I told her to we are friends. And I would like to if you all say the same," he replied
"But you two aren't friends," Nate corrected.
"I know that smart head. But do you think that knowing that she slept with both us and got dumped by you will make her feel better?" Nate was quiet when Chuck said that. "Didn't think so, you all can go home and sleep,"
"What about you?" Serena asked.
"I'll stay here, since she knows who I am. I'll call if there's any news," Chuck replied and they slowly walked away.

Spotted S and lonely boy realizing that Chuck Bass has a heart after all.
Xoxo, you know you love me.
Gossip Girl