hello! I know, i haven't updated anything, its ridiculous. to be honest, with you reader, i need to you to use your imagination within my fan fictions. they don't make sense at points. my grammar can be appalling. my characters can be completely out of character. its all about exploring the possibilities though, right? see you at the bottom =]
Let's bypass the bullshit. Please. Okay, thank you.
My name is Is- Bella. Just Bella. Four years ago I fell deeply in love, fell so far that it was impossible to reach the top of the crevasse, not that I saw it like that I saw the love as a cushion, something to protect me, rather than strangle/smother me.
I'm not longer in love, four years later, my lies have gotten better. I'm not as obvious, I still blush, but my 'lover' thinks it's because I'm embarrassed about his affections in public.
I don't want to hurt this man, this kind loving man, and I don't want to hurt my family.
The family that has come together and accepted Edward Cullen, after all my fighting for them to love him, to accept and trust him, I sometimes wish that they'd never accepted him, not become accustomed to his presence, had banned him from me. It'd have stopped all this hurt, all these lies I've created for them all.
No, before you wonder, I am not in love with Jacob Black. He is there for me though, even if he doesn't understand my situation.
you, are the first to know, and I'm only telling you because I wont ever meet you again, I kinda figured I could wing it, and hope you don't know Edward, or my parents. If you do, then please forget all about this, go about your own life. Leave me, wallowing in this self-mockery and loathing.
If you don't know me, can you introduce me to the real world again? Please, I promise it wont take much, just a gentle shove in the right direction, hopefully away from my family, away from Edward, away from anyone I've ever known.
Thank you, for taking the time to read this.
Isabella Swan.
Age: 22.
hello again!
tell me what you think,
how the story needs to be structured.
any cool exciting ideas you think could really add spice into the story?
let me know =]
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