(this begins after Spellbound and Raven's afraid of everything, yes I know it's not like her to be like that [could it change? You never know with my stories but it goes with the song, Waiting for you by Elliott Yamin so here goes oh, they are 18 in this I decided, you can change it if you like)
Disclaimer: I own nothing in this story.
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It's the day after the awful attack from the dragon Malchior and Raven was in her room, looking up at the whole. Beast Boy and Starfire tried to get her to sleep in their rooms but she declined. She needed to be alone.
After she found out that she was tricked she was afraid to let it happen again. So her solution was to not let anyone in. She was afraid for her heart. That was the second time. And it wasn't going to happen again. She promised herself. I won't let it happen nor think about Malchior again.
She came out of her room around noon. That was very late for her and she needed some tea. She was walking in the hall, toward the kitchen, when she saw Beast Boy coming. And in his hand was a cup. Her cup. She stopped.
Beast Boy was walking down the hall with a cup of tea for Raven, when he saw her. So she came out, finally. "Hello, Raven."
"Hello, Beast Boy."
"I brought you some tea. I thought you would like some, since you haven't had any yet."
"Thank you." He handed her the cup. She took it and started towards her room. "Hey, Raven?"
"Yes?" she said, turning around.
"If you need anything, you can call me, you know. I understand you may need to mediate today."
She was shocked by his matureness. "Thank you, Beast Boy. But you don't needed to do that, if you don't want to." she added. She wanted to be by him, she realized.
"But I do want to, I you don't mind. I know I annoy you a lot, so I understand if you don't want me to help. But I think you wouldn't want Starfire's help either."
"I would like you to, as you say, 'help me'. Thanks. I really means a lot to me."
"Okay, soooo do you want something to eat?" The charmer was back.
"Um... sure."
"do you want to go into the kitchen or what would you like to do?"
"do you mind going to a cafe on the corner?"
"No. lets go."
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They went to the cafe and they ordered something (I'm not being creative, oh maybe I am, Raven got pancakes and Beast Boy didn't get anything because they didn't serve anything he could eat.) They finished up, well Raven did, then Beast Boy asked, "Do you want to take a walk?"
"Sure, but where?"
"I know the perfect place."
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When they got to the 'perfect place', Raven was shocked. It's a park, in the middle of town.
"So what do ya think?" Beast Boy asked after a minute, looking at her face.
"I... it is perfect."
"Yeah I thought so, too."
"How did you know about this?"
"I found it on an outing." Thinking about what to do about you. He thought, but didn't say. He sighed to himself. Raven, you hide yourself from us, from me. What am I to do about you? I love you, but you can't think of that. You think no one could love you, but Rae, I do. And it's killing me, what you're doing.
"So... do you want to sit?" she asked, pulling him out of his thoughts.
"Sure." They found a place on a bridge, looking over a little stream. "Rae..."
"Yes?" she looked over at him.
"Can I say something without you getting upset or anything like that? Would you stay and listen?"
"I have a feeling I shouldn't but yes, I will. What is it?" I already know, but you have to tell me yourself.
"Rae, I... I love you."
"I know. I love you too."
"You knew? And you made me say it out loud?"
"I had to. You had to say it."
"Yeah, but did you have to make me feel awful about it? I have been trying to do that for sometime now, but always thought you would do something."
"Even before Malchior?"
"Yes, even before him. It killed me when I found out what he did to you."
She curled into a ball on the bench. He took her into his arms and started to rock her. But there was something that was still bothering Beast Boy. He moved his hand to put it on her back. She flinched. He sighed. Why are you afraid of me? "Why, Rae? Why?" he whispered, more for himself than her.
"Why what?"
"Why do you flinch? I won't hurt you. I will never hurt you." she turned to face him.
"I know, but I can't help it."
"How can I help you when you're afraid of me."
"I 'm not afraid of you." He raised his hand and she flinched, not meaning it.
"That's not fair. You know why I do that."
"Do I? You never said anything."
"You know what has happened to me, giving me that reason." (A/N: sorry I know that sounds wrong, but I can't think of what it should be. Would it be 'giving me the excuse to do that' idk.)
"I do, but not because you told me. Starfire told us. You never said anything."
"You're being stupid."
"Yeah, so what? You're not helping." She sighed. I can't do this anymore. I can't keep up with this argument. She gave up. It wasn't like him to be like this, and she knew it. Her shoulders went down. He saw it. She's giving up? Why? "I know, I'm sorry." she said quietly.
"no, Rae... I'm sorry. I shouldn't of blown up like that."
"You have a reason to, I don't. I haven't told anyone about anything. I'm sorry. You should know."
"Why don't we go home now? I think we're having something actually good for dinner tonight."
She nodded and they started for their home.
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The next day, Raven went into the kitchen to make some tea. I have to see them sometime. She made her tea and was about to go out, when she heard someone come in. Beast Boy. Though it was Beast Boy, there was something different about this encounter. He was singing.
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting
What is that song? "Good morning, Beast Boy." she said. He jumped. "Oh, morning Rae," he said, embarrassed. Did she hear me? I really hope not.
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The next day, Beast Boy went to talk to Raven. I have to know why she's afraid of everything. I have to. He went up to her bedroom door and knocked quietly.
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Raven heard a knock at the door. What does he want? Does he ever leave me alone? She sighed. I should answer it. She opened the door.
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When Raven opened the door, Beast Boy jumped. That was quick. "uh, Rae, can I ask you something?"
"What?" she was fairly annoyed when he jumped.
"Uh... I... Why... uh..."
"lets make this easier on you. I can't answer your question."
"Why?" he asked, not shocked that she knew.
"Because..." it was her turn to stutter.
"Fine, Raven don't tell me. Just shut me out like everyone else." she gasped and he stomped away.
"Beast Boy," she whispered, tears running down her face.
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I can't believe she won't tell me. It's not like I'm going to hurt her with the information. Why won't she trust me?
Because she hasn't had anyone to trust in her life. A part of him said. He sighed. It's true. The one person that I know of she trusted was Malchior and look what he did. So I guess that was a right decision on her part. But how do I get her to trust me?
Nothing. You let her come to you. There's you can do.
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Back in her room, Raven was silently crying. Why can't I tell me? He won't hurt me.
Then tell him. Knowledge said.
Yes. Tell him. He needs to know. He deserves it. All her emotions said at once.
"Maybe I will tell him."
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The day was almost over, and the team decided to treat themselves and go out to eat. They decided against pizza, and so they went to a little place not far from the middle of the city. They ordered, got their food and sat down to eat. Raven wasn't very hungry, but knew they would force her to eat, so she ordered a sandwich. Beast Boy wasn't hungry either and only got a little platter of tofu steak. (A/N: I couldn't think of anything!) the others didn't see this as being different so they didn't say anything. Raven avoided contact with Beast Boy, and he did the same.
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After that, they went home and went to bed, saying that they should get up and train tomorrow, since they hadn't in a while. But two of the team members couldn't sleep.
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Both of them were sitting on their own beds, just looking out the window. It's really storming. They both thought, but not wanting to go out of their rooms. Finally, after about two hours, Beast Boy came out. He was hungry and he needed to think of something else besides the storm. So, lets make it food. He went to the kitchen and turned on the lights. Well tired to. Oh, yeah, Cyborg shut down the Tower. Well at least the lights. He went to the fridge and pulled out the first thing he found. When he turned around, he found himself face to face with Raven. "Uh, hi?" he said, hoping she wasn't going to kill him. She reached behind him for a lemon. Then turned around to make her tea. Well so much for a hi. He sighed. I'm never going to get through to her. Why do I still try? Rae, i'll wait for you. No matter what. I will wait. He turned to look at what he got out. A banana, well it's something. He went to sit on the couch.
Beast Boy looked over at Raven. She was looking out the window.
Raven turned her head. He was staring at her. She looked away. Normally, she would scowl and hit him, but she didn't this time. She wasn't happy with her decision. I should have told him then.
Yes, you should have. But you didn't and now you'll pay for it. Knowledge said. She was right. She was already paying for it. I'm losing him, if I haven't already.
You haven't. He still loves you. And he's waiting. Love said.
For?
You to tell him. She sighed again. I'm right and you know it.
I don't know anything anymore. She sat down on the couch. He was still looking at her. She wanted to look at him, but didn't.
She looked down at her tea. She hadn't even taken a sip yet. She did so now. Anything to fill the silence. Then she put it down.
Suddenly, there was a giant clap of thunder. (I don't know what it's called.) Raven jumped into Beast Boy's lap. He suddenly laughed. She looked at him. "What?"
"You. Do you not like thunder?"
she looked down. "It was sudden. I wasn't ready for it." oh, no. I'm in his lap. She looked up at him again. He didn't seem to be bothered by it. Actually he looked quite content with her there. She sighed. And then leaned against him. Ooh, he's warm. Lust said. Stop it. She thought back rapidly. Oh, you know you were thinking it too. She blushed.
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Raven blushing and leaning against me, hmm, what could this be about? Beast Boy thought. He wrapped his arms around her and whispered in her ear. "don't worry. I'll protect you." She looked sceptic. "I will, I promise."
"Okay, whatever you say." she leaned into him again.
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When Raven woke up, she notice a few things, 1) she wasn't alone. 2) the one with her was Beast Boy 3) she was on the couch 4) he was holding her and 5) he was asleep. Well this is interesting. Not. What am I to do? She decided on sleeping again.
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when the rest of the Titans came down, they were shocked. Raven and Beast Boy were still on the couch, together. They titans looked at each other, silently asking each other what they should do. Then, one at a time they started to go back to their rooms.
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it was almost noon when Beast Boy woke up. Raven had been sleeping on and off the whole time, but she never left her spot. The other Titans popped in every once in a while, for food and other such. Beast Boy looked around. "Good morning" Raven said. She was curled up next to him. "Morning, how are you today?"
"Hungry, but good."
"Why didn't you get up then,"
She blushed. "I tired, but you wouldn't let go."
"Well, then you didn't try very hard, did you?" he said, making her blush again.
"I..." she was interrupted by the others coming in. "Good morning ya'll," Cyborg said when he saw them awake.
"morning," they mumbled together.
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The Titans started the day late but still got everything done. Through the whole day, Beast Boy was still thinking about last night. She still didn't tell him. He sighed. She may never tell him. Even though he wanted to know, he didn't care if she did or not. He just wanted his friend back.
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Raven came in from practice, looking for something to eat. She still hadn't had anything to eat today, and wasn't happy about that. She went into the kitchen and stopped. Someone was there with her. Beast Boy. He was humming a song, the same one she heard the other day. She quickly went out of the room to look it up. But not fast enough. She caught him saying something on the lines of 'I'll wait for you, Rae, I will.' she rushed out of the room. What was that about? I better look that song up.
She went into her room and did so.
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting
"oh, my god." she whispered. "Not what you'd expect me to listen, right?" She turned around.
"Beast Boy." she whispered.
"Yes?"
"I... ah..."
"lets make this easier on you, shall we? Lets start with what do you think?"
she looked down. "okay, too hard of a question." he was being mean now. She looked up at him with tears in her eyes. Why? Why are you being like this? She looked down. She knew she couldn't come up with anything to say. And he did too.
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Beast Boy looked down at her. What's up with me? Why am I doing this? He went to her, trying to make it better. She turned away from him. He pulled back. Uh, I'm an ass. (sigh) now what? He walked out of her room, not knowing what to do to fix what he was trying so hard to keep going. Their friendship.
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Raven cried. And cried. And finally got up to get something to eat. She didn't want to, but her body needed it. It was almost dinner time when she came out. She went out into the kitchen and found all eyes on her. She pulled her hood up.
All the male Titans were there, and knew everything. After it happened, Beast Boy went to them and spilled everything. When I say everything, I mean everything. And so now they were trying to figure out how to fix it. They knew Raven didn't like annoying people. They thought she didn't like people at all.
When she came in, they were just about done thinking about how Beast Boy could make things better. She went to the fridge to grab something to eat. They decided to wait until after she ate. It would give them a better chance of succeeding.
Raven knew they were waiting for her to finish eating and decided that she would hear them out. She also knew Beast Boy spilled the beans. It was written all over his face. She laughed to herself. This was going to be easy. If it's going to be easy, than why are you having doubts? Knowledge said.
Because I can. (sigh)
are you really going to hurt the guy you love and who loves you back?
He hurt me first.
On accident, and you know it. He wasn't thinking, just you are now.
She finished her snack and looked down. I can't do it.
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Beast Boy walked over to Raven. "Raven, I'm sorry about what I said today. I wasn't thinking."
"i know. I'm sorry I didn't answer. I didn't know what to say."
"it's not your fault." She looked up at him.
He went over to her and hugged her. "You're hugging me," she said quietly.
"and you like it." she blushed. She did like it. And he could see right through her.
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(A/N: okay so that's the first chapter. I hope you liked it. Please review. And I don't mind flamers. They will probably help me so please review! School's almost here!! Woot! I'm working on the next chapter so that will be up in a few days I hope!)