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Chapter 1

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I wasn't an ordinary child, hell, mentally I wasn't a child. I clenched my teeth when the hand came down, slapping me across the cheeks. My head was snapped to the side and I slowly turned my head, turning to my 'father' with a blank look in my eyes. He shouted at me, calling me a monster, a beast, something not even worth living. I clenched my hands, my nails digging into my palms while I was hit a few more times. I didn't move, if I ran like the first time this occurred...then there would be a worse punishment.

"Go to your room!" I flinched when a bottle was thrown in my direction and it smashed against the wall. "I'm sick of looking at your face."

I silently walked out of the living room and towards my room...if you can even call it that. My parents owned a pretty nice home, but I didn't live in one of the ordinary rooms...My room was located in the attic. I silently tugged opened the door to the closet, shutting it behind me, before climbing up the makeshift ladder I set up myself and climbed to the ceiling. I pushed the panel out of the way and I quickly climbed into my room, placing the panel back where it belonged. I silently sat on my futon, my knees pressed against my chest.

"Humans...can be quite disgusting..." I muttered staring at my reflection in the broken mirror.

Just by looking at my reflection, you would just see an abused girl...but if you looked closer you would see that this child wasn't the type to give up easily. Messy strands of light pink fell to my shoulders with messy bangs that hung into the amethyst colored eyes. I reached up, touching my cheek, flinching when I barely touched it. He always aims for the face and head...I don't see why anyone doesn't do something about this. I'm six, physically, so I go to school so why is it no one says anything when they see me go to school covered in bruises? I could hear my 'mother' come home. She began scolding her husband for not making me clean up the mess he made earlier, but thankfully neither of them tried calling for me.

"I can't wait for the two of them to die...They call themselves adults, parents no less, but they abuse their own child as if she's nothing, but trash..." I muttered dealing with my injuries.

I finished and I stared at my makeshift job...I've gotten a lot better at this since my first attempt. I stared at the first aid kit then I looked away, it's not like anyone cares if I stole a few dollars from my parent's wallet to buy it, I needed it more than they did since they were the ones who abused me. I waited a few hours for my parents to go to bed so I can sneak my way out of my room and to the kitchen to get something to eat.

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I watched as the other kids left with their friends with a blank face. I was isolated because of my injuries, they were afraid of me and I did nothing to make friends. If I made friends, there was a risk my parents would harm them to 'punish' me. I put my things away before pulling my bag over my shoulder.

"Kanon-chan." I stopped and I looked at my teacher. "T-There aren't any problems at home, right?"

"Sensei can't do anything, no one can. Last time social workers came to my home, I got in trouble. They didn't take me away like they said. I have to go now. If I'm late, I'll get in big trouble. Please excuse me."

"Ah-Kanon-chan!"

I quickly left the classroom and I didn't even slow down when I got to the lockers. I quickly switched my shoes and I ran the rest of the way home. I spent too much time watching the other students, if I'm late...I'll be hit for sure. I silently entered the house, hearing nothing. Good, no one is home yet. I took my shoes off, placing them where they belong before heading for my room. I sat at my makeshift desk as I did my homework. I had problems learning Japanese, seeing as the past me lived in America. I tapped my pen against my chin wondering why I was reincarnated in this life. While I wasn't a bad person, I wasn't exactly a good person. I followed the laws set up, but I didn't go out of my way to do good deeds or bad deeds if anything...you could say I was lazy.

"I'm quite odd..." I muttered thinking about my current and past self.

The past me and the current me are quite alike, yet very different. The past me lived with a normal family in a normal neighborhood, had normal friends. That me was very normal even if she was lazy. Right now, the current me, is passive, distrusting, helpless, powerless, and is quite stressed. Well, there was another thing very different. Despite people assuming I'm female, I'm not. I'm 100 percent male, but my mother dresses me up as a girl.

"Saa...what should I do now to get out of here...? Humans, how can I trust them when the first time those bastards allowed themselves to get bribed? They said they would take me away, but they only took the money and left me here. I hate them...those kinds of adults..." I muttered lying on my bed.

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I watched with blank eyes as the police took my parents away. It took almost an entire year to complete my plan, but I have finally done it. I'm finally free of those two. A police officer knelt down beside me, giving me false words of security. I accepted the words with a bright smile, but it wasn't a true smile. It will never be a true smile. I was taken to the hospital to take care of my injuries, people around me giving me looks of pity and sympathy.

"Kanon-chan, everything be alright from now on. No one will ever hurt you again."

"...Really?" I gave the man a blank look, a frown on my face. "Humans hurt humans, it's in their nature. Purposefully or not...There will be a time someone else will harm me, but no one will do anything about it because they're cowards. I won't...allow myself to be harmed again. If someone tries to harm me again, I'll harm them in turn."

"K-Kanon-chan, a child shouldn't say such things..."

"Those two who call themselves my parents...they were nothing, but trash of society. They couldn't even care for a child properly, instead taking time to abuse their own child for their own satisfaction. I couldn't protect myself because I was too weak, but I won't make the same mistake twice." I slid off my seat and I stared at my bandaged arm and hand. "They're just lucky I didn't want their blood on my hands."

"Come now." The man ruffled my hair, a strained smile on his face. "Let's just get you to your room, okay? In a week, you'll be taken to a place where you'll have plenty of friends."

"Sou? Well, I don't care."

"Come now, Kanon-chan, you shouldn't say such scary things."

I remained silent as the man led me to my room. The man tried telling me funny stories to get me to laugh, but I couldn't. I brushed my hair over my shoulder wondering if I should tell them I'm actually male...but decided against it. I'm mentally female, might as well just continue dressing like one. There's also no point in changing that now.

"I'm quite odd...but I don't mind..." I muttered going to sleep for the rest of the day.

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"Kanon-chan, this is your new family." I stared blankly at the group of children. "Everyone, this is Kanon-chan, take care of her. Okay?"

"Haaiiii!"

"Hi! I'm Mikaela!" I stared at the blond who approached me, offering me a hand. "How old are you? I'm currently eight, I'm the eldest among the children here."

"..." I stared at him for a few seconds then at his hand. I couldn't stop the frown from appearing on my face. "I'm seven, but I'll be eight soon. I don't..."

"It's nice to meet you!" I flinched when he roughly grabbed my hand to shake it. "Oh, sorry, are you in pain?"

"Don't touch me." I pulled my hand back, rubbing at my wrist. While the injuries healed, I kept the bandages on as a way to hide the scars. "I don't like being touched..."

"That's okay! We can still have fun without touching each other." This kid...the way he said that...is quite dangerous. Thank god, he's a kid and not an adult. "Let's get along from now on, okay?"

"A-Ah...?"

I can't trust adults very well, but I guess I can trust children. They didn't have any ulterior motives and they wouldn't be good at lying yet. Moreover, I can read a child better than I can read adults. I was left alone with these kids when a bunch of the smaller girls approached me with sparkles in their eyes.

"Nee-san! Is your hair really pink?"

"Y-Yes..."

"Wow! Your eyes are so pretty!"

"T-Thank you..."

"Nee-chan looks like a princess!"

"E-Eh?"

"Ahahahaha, it seems they like you, Kanon-chan."

"B-Be quiet! I-I'm not good with people!" It had been a very long time since I've spoken to someone while watching what I say. "I don't...like people..."

"That's okay, we'll make you like people again. Oh, by the way, Kanon-chan, you call just call me Mika since my name is a bit hard to pronounce."

"M-Mika...kun?"

"Yeah, you can call me Mika-kun or just plain Mika."

"R-Right..."

"Nee-san! Let's play house!"

"Yeah, you can be the mama!"

"Please be the mama!"

"O-Okay. J-Just don't touch me okay?"

"Okay!"

I played house with the girls for a while. It was...very strange for me. It wasn't exactly fun for me, but those smiles were very nice to see. I was scolded a few times by the girls for not acting as a 'mama' and I didn't know how to act like one. I wasn't mother material and the old me never did make it past twenty. The girls fell asleep one by one, too tired to continue playing. I looked around for some blankets and I found some tucked away in the toy box. I covered the girls one by one, moving the toys out of the way.

"You're good with them." Mika said appearing behind me.

"I-I'm not too sure what I'm doing, though..." I said scratching my cheek.

"Wow, your hair really is pink." Mika said staring at my hair.

"A-Ah..." I said nervously.

"It suits you!"

"Thanks?"

"You're welcome!"

"A-Ah..."

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I've grown used living here at the Hyakuya orphanage. I didn't flinch when the children touched me, but still did when adults tried to. Damn, my body reacts without meaning to. I guess I shouldn't be so surprised though...it was somewhat expected after what I've been through. Currently, I'm teaching the children how to do origami. I always found it interesting how a single piece of paper can be folded into so many different shapes and forms.

"Kanon-nee! Lookie! I made a rose!"

"I made a boat!"

"I made a hat, Kanon-nee!"

"That's great. Okay, I'm done." I placed a paper crane on the table. "What should we make next?"

"Kanon-chan!" I jumped when a pair of hands covered my eyes. "Guess who!"

"...Mika-kun, please don't scare me like that..."

"Eehhh? How did you know it was me?"

"You're the only person who does that." I stared at Mika after he pulled his hands away. "Also, I recognized your voice."

"You recognized my voice, then that means you must really like me!"

"..." Not exactly, but you're not annoying. "Yeah...let's go with that..."

"Kanon-chan, you look cute today."

"S-Shut up!"

I let some of the girls pick out today's outfit so it was very embarrassing for me right now. They even put a ribbon in my hair. While it wasn't bad, it was just too girly and childish for my tastes, not that I would ever say that. One of boys crawled onto my lap and watched as I folded another paper crane, this time much faster.

"Kanon-nee, when we grow up, can I marry you?"

"Hah?" I stared down at the boy on my lap, confusion spreading across my face. "Why do you want to marry me?"

"I like Kanon-nee, that's why I want to marry you!"

"Is that so...Well, I'll have to refuse." I finished the paper crane and I placed it down in the pile of cranes I've folded. "You're much too young to think about marriage."

"Then what if I try to match your type?"

"My type?" I thought about it for a minute, do I have a type? "Well, someone much older than myself...perhaps by five or six years. I want that person to be one with good morals as well, someone who wouldn't abandon their loved ones easily...I also want that person to value me above anything else, someone who is always honest with me. Well, not like anyone would ever fit my standards so I'm fine with waiting for someone rich to marry me."

"Kanon-nee, you want too much in a husband."

"Yeah! How can we ever marry you if you want that much in a husband?"

"S-Sou?" I didn't ask you to want to marry me, besides, we're male biologically. "Well, I guess the most I want in a person...is that undying flame to protect what they care for. However, I prefer it if that person loved me the most!"

"Kanon-nee, I love you!"

"I love you too!"

"Me too!"

"Really..." I lightly hit the boys upside the head. "You're much too young to be my husbands, also, how do you expect me to marry someone who is shorter than I am?"

"Ahhh! You're teasing us again!"

"One day, we'll all be taller than you!"

"Yeah, yeah!"

"If you squirts ever get taller than me, I'll be more than willing to kiss you and marry you."

"Just you wait! We'll get taller than you!"

"Yeah! Super tall!"

"Hey, hey! Does that mean I can get a kiss now?"

"...I forgot you're taller than I am, Mika-kun...No way. You were taller than me from the start."

"That's not fair!"

"Life's not fair." I finished another paper crane and I placed it down. "Besides, in terms of intelligence, I definably rank higher than you."

"That's not true! I got a better score in history than you!"

"By two points."

"I still won!"

"Yes, yes..." I pulled the boy off my lap and I stood toe to toe with Mika. There was only a four centimeter height gap between the two of us. "...You got taller...That's unfair! Why are you getting taller than I am when I drink more milk than you?!"

"It's because I like to sleep at night!"

"I-I sleep at night!" Well, at least six hours of sleep on a good day, three on a bad. "How do you know if I sleep at night or not then?!"

"Because when you don't sleep at night, you go to the library to read."

"Ugh...I don't even bother to turn on the lights..."

"Your bed is empty."

"..."

"Also, when you go to the library, you sit by the window so it's easy to see where you are."

"Mika-kun, it's scary how you can say such things..."

"Hm?"

"Forget it..." I patted the top of his head, a slight smile on my face. "I'm just glad to be around those who don't lie easily..."

"Of course we wouldn't lie to you! We're family!"

"I suppose. Well, I'm going to fold a few more cranes."

"Are you folding a thousand paper cranes? What are you wishing for?"

"Wishing for...?" I thought about it for a while and I like the feeling of being part of this family. "I wish for our happy days to never end."

"Then let me help!'

"Sure."

That's right, I don't want these happy days to end. The beginning of my life was hell, but right now...I have something I care for. Those at the orphanage, they're very...pure. Being around such pure beings after being with such tainted humans was relaxing and made me feel at peace. There was never a dull moment with these guys.

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Chapter 1 Ends

I love Owari no Seraph, it's such an awesome manga! There are rarely any good vampire manga, there are good zombie ones, but not vampire ones! It's an outcry! Okay, joking aside, I finally created a female to male OC! Kanon's personality has quite a few parts of my own, seeing as I did always wonder what it would be like to be male. Easily adaptable, carries grudges, love to tease others, hatred of being shorter than others, love of solitude, and love of children. Kanon classifies himself as male physically, but considers herself female mentally. Kanon will never clear up misunderstandings about his gender, but will thoroughly enjoy the shocked reactions when they find out that she is a he. If I was reborn as a guy...I think I would try to look like a girl as much as possible while teasing others about not being able to tell the difference. Well, that's all for now! Until next time dearies! Bye-bye~!