Title: Leave the Past Behind You
Author: xxShadowSpiritsxx
Summary: You can't change the past; you can only change the future. After being dumped by Takuya, Izumi is unsure if she has the strength to move on... that is, until one boy turns everything around. Kouzumi fic. (Swearing and slight suicide)
Disclaimer: I do not own Digimon or any of the songs I used in my fic. If I did, I'd be. . . well, definitely not here--I'd be rich!
xxShadowSpiritsxx: 'Kay, this is my fifth or something fic, but the first I've posted. I hope you like it! Just so you know, most of it's in Izumi's P.O.V. except the parts where she's not there (duh). Also, I'm very sorry if you think she swears too much. Oh, yeah, don't forget to review after. Well, I'm not gonna stall you anymore, so start reading, already! Thanks! )
Oh, I know I haven't updated in a while. I've been quite busy (yeah, for a whole year?) and I'll get the next chapter up ASAP. In addition, I realized how much Izumi swears, but the fact is you hear it everyday, even when people aren't even mad. I will cut down, though! Oh, and one more thing, I cut down the song a bit cuz it's boring to read it if you've heard it before. And if you haven't, well you're not missing much! LOL
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LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND YOU
Chapter 1: Harsh Words
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(Flashback-7:30 am)
"I'm sorry, Izumi, but . . .I just . . . I . . . don't feel the same about you."
". . . But Takuya. . . I thought you loved me!" I ran off in the pouring rain, crying my heart over some guy.
(End Flashback)
(8:45 am)
Those words couldn't leave my head. I can't believe he did that to me! I loved him. After all we've been through, he still dumped me. What is wrong with him!
A song flew into my head and I mentally listened:
Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby? I was left to cry there
Right now I feel invisible to you like I'm not real.
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say...
Waitin' outside there
Grinnin' with the lost stare,
That's when I decided...
Why should I care?
Cause you weren't there,
When I was scared,
I was so alone.
Yeah! You need to listen
I'm startin' to trip,
I'm losin' my grip
And I'm in this thing alone.
Am I just some chick you place beside you,
To take somebody's place?
When you turn around,
Can you recognize my face?
You used to love me
You used to hug me,
But that wasn't the case,
Everything wasn't okay.
Why should I care?
If you don't care
Then I don't care
We're not going anywhere.
Sigh…the song is right. Why should I care? He was never there for me. Wait. But he was. And. . . the Digital World. . . he said. . . ARGH! Forget about him, Izumi! I tell myself. But somehow I can't let go. Not yet. I still love him.
I walked into my classroom, completely soaked from the walk there. Something was going on. All the girls, even my friends who were usually glad to see me, were in a group whispering and glaring at me.
Everybody's talkin',
But they don't say a thing.
They look at me with sad eyes,
But I don't want their sympathy.
I glared back, a bit pissed off. They must've heard what happened this morning. "Why the fuck are you staring at me like that!"
". . . We're sorry, Izumi," one said.
"Argh! I don't care! Stop feeling sorry for me!" I screamed and took off for the girls' bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror. Tears trickled down my already drenched face as I saw my so-called friend come in.
It's cool you didn't want me,
Sometimes you can't go back.
But why'd you have to go and make a mess like that?
I just have to say before I let go. . .
"It's gonna be okay, Izumi."
"Just leave me alone."
"I guess. . . he finally told you."
"What!"
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down, so?
When the truth came out,
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold,
'Cause what you did was low?
"What do you mean, 'finally'! He told you before he even said anything to me!"
"Well. . ."
" I can't believe you let me down! I was the last person to know! You should've said something! You should have warned me! Don't you care at all how I feel!"
"Izumi, I--"
"Just shut up and go away! It's too fuckin' late now!"
I watched her leave silently. Maybe I was too hard on her. But she could've told me. Now it's too late.
The bell rang.
I returned to my classroom as the teacher took the attendance.
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xxShadowSpiritsxx: So, how'd ya like it? Well, there's still three more chapters comin' up, so stay tuned! Oh, and I'd really appreciate any comments on this, so please review!
Oh, and yeah I've noticed Izumi is a lil OOC but…she's in a bad mood, and just got dumped for no apparent reason (that we know of at this moment…), so you can't really blame her for being so pissed.