She sighed, letting her head fall back on the top headrest of her bed. Why would it be so easy?
All she would have to do..., is move her laptop from her lap, stand, open her bedroom door, glance around to make sure no one was near, grab a knife from the counter, and enter the bathroom right down the short hall from her room. Then she would just need to close the door quietly, bare her wrist, place the knife upon the pale skin, right at the top, by the vein. She would then just gaze at the pretty blue for a few secods, mesmorized that such a small thing contained that which gave her life. A smile uon her lips now, she would press the blade harder into her skin, the force would hurt, but it would be a good sort. Then, the blood would come, slowly, just small beads of it at first, andshe would watch them as they formed upon her pale skin.
The smile turning into a dark grin, she would make another cut, this one going diagonally from the very middle of the top of the first, down to the bend of her elbow. The blood would slowly flow outward. Bright red against the paleness. She would smile as she felt her blood slowly trickle out of her arm, onto the cream colored counter in the bathroom. Placing the knife down, she would then take her thumb and close to the edge of the cut, peel the skin back, revealing th next layer of skin, more lbood would flow over her thumb and down her hand and arm and still, she would be smiling.
She raised her head again, a noise in her earbuds informing her someone sent her a message. She opened the window, it was her girlfriend, Ino. Asking her to cam with her. Hinata found her cam and started it, responding to Ino that she would.
Ino's face appeared first, her blue eyes focused on something on her screen. At last, Hinata's cam came on.
"Rawr," Hinata said softly, but loud enough for her mic to hear.
"Grrraaawr!" Ino smiled and laughed.
Hinata smiled too.
Ino was why..., she was a reason to not do it. A reason that she could continue to believe things would get better. Someday, things would.