A/N - this takes place on the car drive from Voltera to the airport. I wrote this because i had an argument and i need to get out some anger so it may not me great. But I like it.

Disclaimer - i do not own Twilight or the characters, they belong to Stephenie Meyer. Lucky her!

Reunion

I can really look at her now we are safe. She is out of immediate danger and my Bella is safe again.

Safe? Safe from the others or safe from me?

Besides, can I do it, can I do it again? Can I leave the twisted, mangled, half dead, exhausted body of my love behind me forever?

I don't think so.

But it's for her own good.

Her own good or mine?

There is pain either way, but whose pain should I care most about? Bella's of course.

But which way is she in more pain?

Without me? I don't think show, if you look at her now she looks dead, and after what Alice explained, she is a mess without me.

With me? When I know that one day I will either lose her or… or have to change her and cause her pain anyway.

I want her.

I think she wants me.

But I cant be sure, how can I be? She looks so afraid when I touch her, or is it reluctance, has she moved on like I wanted her to?

But then again she flew all the way to Italy with Alice to save my sorry "soul".

I love her.

I love Bella.

I love Isabella Swan.

And I shall do so forever.

What on earth am I going to do?

My thoughts gushed as I unconsciously kissed Bella, her wrists, her head, her shoulders, her nose but never her lips, to afraid of the reluctance I can see in her eyes. My hands ran over her beautiful face, rememorizing it, making the memory sweet, just in case. Just in case I never saw my Bella again, making sure I had a loving memory to keep forever.

Not that I would even be around forever without Bella.

I could stay or…

Or… I would have to get another vampire to kill me, the Volturi will not do it for me so, I have no other options.

At that moment my purpose for living turned to face me and smiled a half smile that would have stopped my heart if it was not already dead. My resolve disappeared, and she accused me of dazzling her?

I know I have to stay, I have to.

There is no question about it anymore.

Alice obviously saw the future change. The blurred indecision morphed in to the solid image of me and Bella, with Bella flickering between human and vampire. I hissed at the sight of my love as a vampire and Bella flinched beneath me. I stopped paying attention to my sister and moved my eyes back to Bella. My eyes stayed fixed to her face as they would for all conceivable eternity.

I believe I have caused my Bella to much pain already. I can see it in her tired eyes, the cross between love and pain. As I kiss her, the glimpses of pain are becoming more and more infrequent.

I must be doing something right.

I know I have to stay.

I am helping. I am.

I will have her forever.

My Bella forever.

Forever.

A/N - please, please, please review, they make me happy and make me write more!

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