Hey there! So this is an idea I got after watching last nights episode. It was fun to write and I hope its fun to read.

Declaimer: All I own is my MacBook. This was purely for fun.

The Letter

So it's been interesting week to say the least. We had two seemingly unrelated murders that turned out to be tied together, Casey came back and basically proposed to me and for some reason Maura has been acting really weird since I told her. We still talk at work but she seems distant. Her answers to my questions are purely professional and when I've asked her to hang out she makes some lame excuse about why she can't. So I had finally had enough and confronted her about it today. All she did was get mad at me and storm off. She gave me some bullshit reason that just because we are friends who work together doesn't mean we have to be all buddy-buddy all the time. She said she was trying to set a better professional example for her employees, which is crap.

So after leaving work pissed off, here I am at home, stuck in my own head about my problems. Aside from Maura I have Casey to worry about. I love him, I really do, but am I ready for marriage? I'm having a hard time accepting him as my domestic boyfriend, let alone husband. Ugh the thought alone freaks me out. And what about Maura? What does she think about all this? I'm really worried right now. The way she's been acting is scaring me. My head is starting to hurt from all this thinking. I need a beer.

As I approach my newly cleaned fridge I notice that there is a letter taped to it with my name written on the front in a beautiful script. That's odd. It looks like Maura's handwriting. I grab the letter off the fridge, then grab a beer and make my way back over to the couch and sit down. First things first I open my beer and take a nice long draw from it. I have a feeling I'm going to need the alcohol for whatever Maura has written in this letter, if her behavior this past week is any indication.

Slowly I pull the letter out and begin to read:

My dearest Jane,

I'm sorry that I'm writing you a letter but I don't think I have enough courage to tell you what I need to tell you in person. First off I would like to apologize for my behavior this past week. I know that it was inexcusable but I just had some things that I needed to sort out in my head. I want you to know that you haven't done anything wrong. This is all on my end. I've had strong feelings for you for some time now. I would go as far as to say that I am in love with you. I thought that I could control it because you are my best friend and I shouldn't feel this way about you. It has been hard but I've been able to do it, until now.

I know that this must be a huge shock to you and I don't know how it is going to affect our friendship but I need to get this out. You are my best friend, the one person that I feel a connection with. You know that when it comes to people I'm awkward and I don't know what to do half the time. When I first met you I felt a connection that I wasn't able to explain. At the time I didn't know why but I felt drawn to you. Now I know why but I'm not sure you feel the same. I am putting the ball on your side detective. How you and I proceed is up to you. I'm laying out all my feelings and I want you to do the same. Look deep down inside and figure out what you want.

I'm your best friend and I'll always be here for you no matter what. If Casey is what you want I will stand by you 100%, but I ask that you think long and hard, weigh your options. Consider everything he can offer you, and everything I can offer you. I don't want to tell you that Casey is wrong for you but I feel I must explain why I would be perfect for you.

First off we have known each other for a long time. We work so well together. I know everything there is to know about you. I'm already so integrated into your life and family. I know how to calm you down, or bring you up when you're sad. I'm one of the few people you have let in to see the real you. You listen to me, most of the time, which to me speaks wonders. Things would be so easy with us. It already is in fact. I guess you could say that we are already dating, without the physical part. We go out and do things that could be considered date-like. You spend nights at my house and vice versa. I even gave you a key to my house. If these things don't convince you then maybe this will. I love you Jane Clementine Rizzoli. I am in love with you. You're all I think about on a daily basis when my brain has free time. I think about you when I wake. I wonder how your night went and what you'll look like when I see you. I think about you at night before I go to bed. I hope that doesn't seem too creepy but you know I can't lie so I have to tell you how it is.

So there you have it Jane. I've told you my feelings and now it's your turn. I really hope you take this seriously and give it a lot of thought. I'll give as much time as you need but I do hope that you come talk to me, whatever your decision is.

With all my love

Maura

I had to re-read to letter several times before it set in what Maura was telling me. Once the shock wore off I started to panic. If I thought that I was stressed before, I was extremely stressed now. Not only do I have to worry about Casey and being with him, but now I have the same decision to make about Maura. She's forcing me to acknowledge feelings I had tried very hard to keep hidden. What am I going to do now? I definitely need another beer.

Okay let me know what you thought. Is this worth continuing?