Ally's POV
I sat on my bed in my pajamas. I didn't want to go anywhere. I looked out my window as tears poured down my face. There was nothing I can do. I wiped my face. I xant believe this I happening.
I didn't want to go, but I had to. I got up. I put my hair in a high ponytail. I put on my black knee length dress and the necklace Austin gave me for my 11th birthday. I put on my black flats. My brother dad knocked on the door. "You ready sweetheart?" He asked. I nodded. We went downstairs.
I seen my brother standing there. Alex is 16. We all got in the car. When we got there Alex held my hand even though I'm only 3 years younger than him. But i clung onto him like I was 5. We took our seats. The preacher stood at the podium. I could already feel a lump forming in my throat.
"We are gathered here today not to mourn his loss, but to celebrate his life. Austin was an amazing young man. He would always help people. He was a good kid. No one knows what led him to do what he did, but we can't change that he did it." He said. I knew. But I was so mad at him over petty bullshit that I didn't care.
"We now have his bestfriend Ally here today to sing a song for our dear Austin." He said. Alex walked me up there and stood to the side of the podium. I took a deep breath.
If I die young, bury me in satin. Lay me down on a bed of roses. Sink me in a river at dawn. Send me away with the words of a love song.Uh oh, uh ohLord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother. She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh, and life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no. Ain't even grey, but she buries her babyA sharp knife of a short life, oh wellI've had just enough timeIf I die young, bury me in satin. Lay me down on a bed of roses. Sink me in the river at dawn. Send me away with the words of a love song.A sharp knife of a short life, oh wellI've had just enough timeAnd I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom. I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger. I've never known the lovin of a man. But it sure felt nice when he was holdin' my hand. There's a boy here in town, says he'll love me forever, Who would have thought forever could be severed by...a sharp knife of a short life, oh well? I've had just enough time.So put on your best, boys, and I'll wear my pearls. What I never did is done.A penny for my thoughts, oh, no, I'll sell em for a dollar. They're worth so much more after I'm a goner. And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin. Funny when you're dead how people start listenin.
At that point. I couldn't help it anymore. My chest closed in and the tears rushed down. Alex ran up to me and picked me up like I was 3 and held me. We walked back down to where he was standing. He sat me down but I wrapped My arms around his torso and cried into his chest as I let my panic attack lay out.
"I knew what was going on with him. But he had made me so mad that I said I didn't care. M- Maybe if i would've stopped to calm down he wouldn't have s-slit his wrists." I cried.
After a good 10 minutes. I walked back on the stage and grabbed the microphone. "The day before he did it, he told me what happened. But i was so mad over something so irrelevant that I said I didn't care. But maybe, just maybe if I would've calmed down and actually listened to him while he was alive, I wouldn't have to listen to the words he said repeatedly in my head now that he's gone." I said.
I shot up in bed. I looked at Austin asleep on the floor. Never take anything for granted because once it's gone...you can't get it back.
Sorry if this sucks but yeah. I'm working on another fanfic rn and I'll update soon but this is dedicated to my little sister Athena who died of an asthma attack this morning. She turned 11 on Halloween. RIP Baby Girl. You may be gone but you'll never be forgotten.