I'm still upset that Luke and Lorelai didn't have any kids in the revival. I read about the surrogacy plot before the eps premiered (because Germany saw the first ep then there was the LA premiere) and I had hope that it would end with them having a baby but it didn't… I hate that Luke was so against the idea (Scott Patterson kind of suggested that it's because was Luke intimidated by Paris?) and I hate that the reason they never had kids was because they continued to fail at communication (so frustrating!) I also hated that they dumbed Luke down, making him think he had to have sex with the surrogate.
Anyways here is how I wanted the surrogacy story to go. It starts with Lorelai and Emily's fight after Richard's funeral.

…. "You blow through life like a natural disaster, knocking down everything and everyone in your path. I wonder if Luke knew what he was getting into with you." Emily said.

"Don't…" Lorelai warned.

"Did you ever even ask him what he wanted? Where he wanted to live, if he wanted children? I'm sure none of that mattered to Lorelai Gilmore. Nothing ever matters to her, except what she wants, what she feels. And God help you if she thinks you've wronged her. She will hold onto that grudge forever just waiting for the moment to get back at you." Emily said bitterly.

"We did want children!" Lorelai shouted.

Emily looked taken aback but she didn't speak.

"I had a miscarriage… years ago." Lorelai's voice was barely above a whisper.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know that." Emily said gently.

Lorelai didn't acknowledge Emily's express of sympathy. She wanted to change the topic back to what started the argument.

"I made a mistake, a goddamn mistake! You never let me make a mistake ever, not once in my life which is how we always find ourselves here."

"Where?"

"Standing in the middle of this room, yelling at each other like idiots,"

"How dare you call me an idiot, I just lost my husband!" Emily shouted, her voice breaking.

"I just lost my father!" Lorelai countered, her voice shaky.

"And you couldn't care less!"

Lorelai gasped softly. She didn't know how to respond to that. How could Emily believe that?
"That's horrible." She looked down and gasped again. She somehow found the strength to look back at Emily, "You're horrible."

Emily frowned, "Get out!"

Lorelai didn't argue. "First the help, then me, right." She started walking out of the kitchen.

"Go home!" Emily added. "Go back to you beloved town with its carnies and misfits and tell them how your intolerable mother yelled at you at your father's funeral, and they can all console you and tell you what a witch I am and how perfect you are!"

Lorelai only had three words for her mother, "Full freaking circle." Then she walked out the door.

When Lorelai returned home that night, she found Luke already asleep in bed. She sighed heavily and went into the bathroom to remove her makeup and change.

She settled in bed next to him ten minutes later. When sleep didn't come an hour later, she began to cry silently. Luke awoke when her silent tears turned into full blown sobs.

"Hey." He whispered.

Lorelai gasped. She hadn't heard him stir. He turned on his bedside lamp.

She didn't bother wiping her tears away before she turned to face him.

Luke pulled her into his arms. "Shh, it's okay." He whispered.

"No, it's not." She cried, her voice muffled by his chest.

He rubbed circles on her back.

"I screwed up." She said as she pulled away from him.

"What happened?" He asked gently.

Lorelai sniffled, "Well Mom wanted us all to tell our favourite stories about Dad and I panicked. I just couldn't think of anything… the next thing I know I'm telling them about the time dad found me and a boy right after we'd… you know."

Luke frowned.

"It was awful…" Lorelai grimaced. "Why couldn't I think of anything better than that? Anything happy, a happy memory? I'm sure there's a happy memory if I dug deep enough."

Luke's arm came around her, pulling her close again.

"Afterwards, I told Mom that I panicked because I didn't think there'd be a test… she was furious. We got into a huge argument and she suddenly asked if I had ever asked you want you wanted… where you wanted to live if you wanted kids."

"Me? She was concerned about me?"

Lorelai nodded. "I… she knows about the miscarriage." She looked down.

He rubbed her shoulder. "Oh." It had been seven years since they lost their baby. Only Rory, Sookie and April had known about it. Lorelai didn't want to tell her parents about the short lived pregnancy for fear of them judging her. She could picture them being ashamed that their daughter was having another child out of wedlock. And after she lost the baby, she was too depressed to do anything.

"Yeah, but I just brushed off her sympathy…" Lorelai groaned. "I'm such a screw up. She thinks I'm selfish, that I don't care about how other people feel."

Luke pulled her even closer. She pressed her face back into his chest.

"That's not true." He told her.

She didn't want to argue with him. She cried until her tears dried up. He comforted her by rubbing her back and pressing kisses to the top of her head.

When she pulled away, he gave her a weary look.

"I'm okay." She lied.

"You need to get some sleep." He said sternly.

She didn't say anything, she just lied down on the bed.

Luke got out of bed and went to the bathroom. He returned a few minutes later with two glasses of water and placed one on her nightstand. He set his glass on his nightstand and settled back in bed.

Once he had turned out the light, Luke turned and found Lorelai facing the wall. He put his arm over her and moved closer to her. After kissing her cheek gently, he closed his eyes and tried to fall back asleep, wishing that Lorelai would be able to get some rest too.

Author's note: This first chapter is just to get the story started. I will get more into the surrogacy plot and have a flashback next chapter. Thanks for reading. Reviews are appreciated.