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Well this story came to me in a dream and I've been thinking about it all day. Tell me whatcha think ?

Epov.

"Edward!" my angel's voice screamed out to me. I whipped my head into the direction I'd heard her scream.

"Bell!" I screamed with all my might.

"Where are you? Please! " I chocked on a sob " don't do this to me again ! " my heart was crashing in my chest a mile a fucking minute and my breathing wasn't normal. But I didn't care. The only thing that mattered was Bella, saving Bella, holding her in my arms again.

I ran as fast I could dodging the trees and branches in my way taking the familiar route to our special place. I stumbled and fell into the clearing Bella and I had found all those years ago, the clearing I'd grown to hate the past 5 years. I closed my eyes the memories burning themselves into my skull.

The ambulance, Charlie's police car, Alice's sobbing over Esme's shoulder and Jacob's body shaking with pure anger at the person who'd made our lives hell.

"Bella! Where are you! "I screamed into the empty clearing.

But the only response I got was not from Bella it was worst.

It was a blood chilling dark chuckle that rang throughout the forest

I jolted out of bed trying to catch my breath as tears ran freely down my eyes.

Another fucking nightmare.

Another fucking nightmare since that terrifying night.

A soft knock on the door pulled me out of my thoughts.

"Edward? " Esme's beautiful face peeked through the door with a concerned look on her face.

"Are you alright? "She asked carefully. Trying not to upset me anymore than I'd already been, she knows how hard today was going to be for me.

"Fine. Just Another nightmare…" I replied my voice shaking. My throat felt raw – no doubt from the screaming I'd tortured my parents with for the past 5 years.

"You don't have to go to school today…. I know that this isn't going to be easy for you." She said sympathetically stepping inside the room and sitting down at the end of my bed.

"No. I have to…Banner's been up my ass about this stupid Biology project and I need to get it handed in or I wont graduate." I said tearing the covers away from me and heading inside my closet retrieving my school attire.

"Okay." She replied softly. I turned to look at my mother's beautiful face. She was a kind woman and had the best heart and here I was a fuck up child pushing her away.

I sighed walking out dressed in black jeans and a white t ready to leave. Esme walked out of the room staring longingly at the picture in her purse wallet.

I bit my lip. Hard. So hard I felt the repulsive liquid fill my mouth. Blood.

I know what picture she has in that wallet.

It was the photo of the girl I'd been in love with the last 7 years.

It was the photo of Bella Swan.

My eyes narrowed and I wanted to snatch her wallet up take the picture and roll into a ball and stare at it all day. Begging her to come back to us.

But I didn't.

Instead I ran out the house and jumped into the car driving as fast as I could to get away from it.

She's not dead. I convince myself as I turn on the highway passing the green trees of forks.

I feel it in my heart.

I pull up in front of my best friend Alice Brandon's house. She stands outside wearing all black. Bella's disappearance didn't only affect me it effected all of us. She opened the passenger seat and is scarily quiet. Usually Alice is a non stop pixie talker but when this time of the year comes around she becomes quite.

"Edward" she nodded looking straight ahead into the windshield.

"Alice "I said just as quiet. I pull out of her drive way and make my way into Forks high parking lot. I parked and got out the car and met Alice at the end of the car. She looks up at me– the first time I see her face today. And there in her striking electric blue eyes instead of the joy I was so use to seeing are the tears of the loss we'd both had.

I breathed deeply through my nose and took hold of her hand and made my way to the inside of the school.

School was uncomfortably silent. Bella was not only our friend she was everyone's friend. She was a beautiful outgoing girl. She always helped out people homework; friendship problems, boyfriend trouble, anything and every thing she touched became so pure you had no choice but to admire her. Ben and Angela came up to us first. Angela's brown hair usually in a neat pony tail was in a sloppy bun hairs sticking out glasses atop her head and puffy red eyes.

"Hey "she croaked. Alice and I looked at her sympathetically. We both knew how much Angela had cared for Bella she was the one who'd shown us all around the first time we came here.

"Ben, Ange" I replied my voice hoarse. We stood there a moment staring at each other wondering how we had gotten in this position – grieving over our best friend (and love) after being missing for 5 years. But today was different. Today she'd been pronounced legally dead.

There it is. That word again.

Dead.

I tried to shake the word out of my head. Refusing to believe that Bella – my love -was dead.

The bell rang pulling us out of our musings.

"all junior students please report to cafeteria for the special assembly."

Alice and I made our way to the cafeteria. As we did every year on September 13.

Her fucking birthday for god's sake.

And I could've done something I could've helped her if only I didn't need to go to the bathroom maybe she'd –

"Edward it's not your fault "Alice chimed in reading my thoughts.

"Yes it is Alice – if I didn't need to use the fucking bathroom – I'd been there I would've helped her but no I let her get kidnapped." I spat the word out.

"Edward ... "Alice started but I didn't want to hear I'd heard this speech to many times. I walked to the back of the cafeteria and watched silently as our principle stood at the podium tears in her eyes as well.

"Good mourning junior students of Forks high" She began" Today is the anniversary of the disappearance of Isabella swan "I took in a mouth full of air. Reaching in my bag for my anxiety pills-they'd become my only relaxing method." Today is different from the other days we've come together and prayed for Isabella to come home. Because today… 5 years following her disappearance she is declared legally dead. The police have closed her case." I couldn't get the pill out of the bottle – my hands where shaking so badly.

"Today we pray asking god to take care of Isabella swan where she is most likely in heaven with him. Let us begin"

I blacked out.

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