Author: Itinerant Poet
Title: Let's pretend
Pairing: Sophie and Sian (Coronation Street)
Rating: M (for language)
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the ideas in my head
Summary: After the first kiss the girls struggle with their feelings
Let's Pretend - Part One
The more she stared at her phone, willing it to start dancing across the table, the more it seemed to embed itself into the table. Her tea had long gone cold and the blanket that she'd thrown around her shoulders had slipped so it was cast half across her back and half across the chair she was sat on.
After loosing the feeling in her toes, she decided that just one more text might help, and then she might be able to finally uncurl herself from the chair and shower to cleanse her soul of this deep depression.
Sian, can we just talk, I'll come see you or we can meet here, please?! S xx
Her phone shook across the table, the sound made her jump, she'd been waiting for so long that she almost thought that she had imagined the noise that was reverberating around the kitchen.
Just leave me alone, please, Sian
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As the door slowly opened and Sian's face appeared around the side, she looked up and their eyes met. She had managed to twist her jumper cuffs so tightly that her hands were now tightly encased inside the sleeve.
"Aren't you meant to be at home?" Sian asked by way of a greeting.
"Well I am not, obviously" Sophie bit back. "Sorry, can we just talk inside or something?"
"10 minutes right? I have to get the house sorted before my Mam comes home."Sian pulled the door open slightly with her left hand, her right arm cast around her stomach pulling her jumper in around her.
"Thanks" She squeezed past her, catching her arm on the door frame in an attempt to keep clear of Sian's body that seemed to be blocking the way.
"I'd offer you a tea, but you have to wait so long for it to cool down there wouldn't be time" Sian explained, keeping her eyes trained in the carpet below their feet.
"Yeah, ok, whatever" Sophie replied. "Look, can't we just talk about it" she tried to start.
"what, about how you're now a lezza, and I am definitely not, and if you're gonna keep trying to kiss me they we can't be friends…shall we talk about that.." Sian raised her voice, pulling her arms tighter around her body for protection, though what from she wasn't sure.
"I'm not, I don't know, I'm confused yeah, you kissed me back, what does that mean?" Sophie rested against the opposite counter, her hands supporting her as she pleaded with her best friend.
"I didn't know what was going on, you surprised me" was all Sian could manage as an explanation.
"So there is nothing between us, I've made it all up, I may be confused but I do know when someone kisses back" Sophie dropped her eyes to the floor, suddenly very aware that she could very well leave this kitchen without a best friend.
"For fucks sake Sophie, can't you just leave it…"
"Look, can't you feel it..."
"Feel what soph, I'm not like you"
"Can't you feel the world start to buzz a little when we're close, can't you feel your head go a little funny when ours eyes meet…"
"For Fucks… I don't know…"
"What does this feel like…" Sophie moves within centremeters of Sian, her body close enough that within one movement she could press Sian up against the counter and kiss her. She kept far enough away though so that she wasn't tempted to do just that.
"What does what…" Sian couldn't finish her sentence; instead she looked up, risking seeing what Sophie was trying to tell her with her eyes.
"This, don't you feel the charge, I've never felt this Sian, is this just a best friend thing, this connection? I am so confused, but I can't get you out of my mind" Sophie's eyes had clouded over with tears ready to spill down her face.
"You're meant to be my best friend, that's it, we share things, we look at boys, even date them, we do not date each other" Sian spoke harshly, trying desperately to keep all her emotions in check, she didn't know what she felt but the somersaults that her stomach was doing was an indication that this was not working.
"Fine, I'll go and work this out by myself, after all if you're 100% sure that you feel nothing and didn't when I kissed you, then I guess I have to work this out on my own." Sophie let the tears slowly spill down her face, the make-up marking tracks as the salty tears burnt her skin.
"Soph, I'm not like you, this, can't, doesn't feel right" Sian tried to explain.
"Well, for the first time in a really long time, something felt right for me, strange, but right, so I might just leave you too it" Sophie turned to go, she risked one last look at her best friend.
"Let me know when you grow up Sian" Sophie let herself out of the house, leaving Sian to rest up against the counter top and let the tears that had been building run down her face.
Sian didn't know how long she had been resting there in the kitchen, her feet had turned to ice and her arms didn't seem to be able to keep her warm any more.
"Love, you home?" Sian heard her mum come home and she quickly wiped the stained tears away from her face and moved to put the kettle on.
"Yeah mum, I'm here" Sian answered.
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SLAM!
Sophie disappeared behind her shaken bedroom door, the argument with her dad had not put her in a better mood and she knew now that things were not going to get better. She crumpled onto the bed and turned her stereo on, she felt like turning it to full on the volume but didn't need another argument with her dad, so instead she plugged her headphones in and twisted the cable over her bed so she could lie, wrapped up in her duvet and let the music wash over her.
"If only I could, make a deal with god, get him to swap our places, be running up that road, be running up that hill, with no problems"
As the lyrics to the song washed over her she let the tears fall again, she'd managed to hold it together the whole bus ride home but it was as the magnitude of the situation sank in she let her confusion and panic set in. She managed to send one last angry text to Sian, before the music took over and she fell asleep, the stereo finally running out of music to play.
I'm grounded, so you won't need to worry about seeing me.
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In Stockport Sian had managed to bluff her way through dinner with her mum, lie her way through the interrogation as to why she looked so drained, and escape up to her room. Instead of loosing herself in her homework as she had suggested to her mum, she skipped through her phone and found a photo of her and Sophie taken just before she moved.
"Why have you changed, you've messed this all up, can't we just ignore it all" Sian thought to herself. Just as she was about to turn her phone off and go to sleep it vibrated in her hand. A text message from Sophie came through, and upon reading it she sent a quick, impulsive reply, and let herself curl up tighter into a ball and fell asleep.
I'm sorry you're grounded. Just give me some space. Sx
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This is the first chapter/one shot depending on how it goes down… R&R and then I'll write some more, I have a few projects in the pipeline so this will only become top priority if you enjoy it. Sorry about the formatting 'p's all over the place, i'm having some serious problems with my coding so its the best i can do, i'll try and fix it asap for you. IP x