I couldn't take my eyes off of him. I wanted to touch his face and feel the silky smooth russet skin. I wanted to run my hands through his short black hair and pull his head towards mine. I wanted to run my hands all over his chest and arms. Most of all, I wanted to kiss him until I could no longer breathe, until my legs felt like jello. I heard a chuckle behind me that unmistakably was my Uncle Emmett. I turned and glared at him, but knew that would do nothing to stop him from laughing at me. No one knew about how I felt about Jacob except for my Uncle Emmett and that was only because he caught me watching Jake one time and never let me forget it. I got up from the floor and started to walk towards the stairs when my mother called me.
"Renesmee?"
I turned back towards the family room where all of my family was. Dad was playing the piano like always, playing a very lovely tune that always made my mother smile at him. Grandma Esme and Grandpa Carlisle were sitting on the far end of the couch reading. Aunt Rosalie, Uncle Emmett, and Grandpa Charlie were all watching the game on television. Aunt Alice and Uncle Jasper were the only ones not in the family room. They were in the kitchen, doing god knows what.
"Yeah, Mom?"
She got up from the bench at the piano and walked toward me. She wore faded blue jeans that were artfully worn and a long sleeved white shirt. The only way Aunt Alice would let her wear jeans and plain shirts were if they were designer.
"Are you okay? You look like you're upset or something."
I have always told my mother everything. There were no secrets between us….except about how I felt about Jake. It's not that I didn't think she would understand, because I knew she would understand completely. It's the fact that I wasn't ready to tell anyone just yet. I knew I loved Jake, but I wanted to wait to make sure he loved me just as much. I don't think I could stand it if he didn't.
"No, I'm just nervous about school tomorrow. It being my first day and all."
I wasn't lying about that. I was nervous about school. I had never been to school before. Before we had moved to Boston, I wasn't allowed to go to school because it would had been very hard to explain where I had come from. I looked so much like my mother that they couldn't say I was unrelated. Nobody would have believed it. They also couldn't say I was related to her because in the town of Forks, everyone knows everything, so saying I was her niece or something wouldn't have worked. So I was kept hidden until Grandpa Charlie and Jake could find jobs in Boston. This would also be my mothers first time doing high school all over again.
"Okay. If that's all….?"
I could tell by the way she looked at me that she knew that wasn't the complete reason behind my behavior. She knew me too well. You would think she was the mind reader, not dad.
"That's all it is Bella. She's just nervous. After all this is her first time going to high school, or any school for that matter. It's just nerves."
I was surprised. Uncle Emmett was covering for me? And he didn't have a smirk on his face while saying it? This is a first I think for Uncle Emmett. I wasn't the only one surprised by this. Dad looked up from the piano, Grandma and Grandpa looked up from the couch, and mom stared at him with her mouth open.
"What?"
"Nothing."
They all said it at once then went back to what they were doing. I swear my family is odd even by vampire standards.
"I'm fine Mom, I'm just nervous and tired. That's all."
Well that's all she needs to know. I quickly glanced out the big window again to see Jake working on his car before I had to head upstairs. I wish he was mine and I didn't have to sneak glances at him. I wish I had the guts to tell him how I feel. I turn and walk up the stairs towards my bedroom, all the while thinking about what it would be like to be with Jake for real and not just in my dreams.