Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter
A/N: Inspired by How You Love Me Now by Hey Monday.

I thought we had something. Maybe it's stupid but I really thought there was something between us. The sleepless nights of endless conversation, the portraits, the kisses, the flirting; call me crazy but I thought it all meant something.

Obviously, I was wrong. Now he's talking to that Weasley girl. She's the most important person in his life. He acts completely differently around me now, like I haven't spent the last six years by his side.

It's always the same. "Oh, I'm sorry, I already have plans with Ginny," or "Damn, Seamus, I forgot. I was meant to meet Ginny later." or "Well, I was kind of hoping Ginny would go with me."

I'm sick of all the excuses, the ignoring, the apologies. They're not good enough. They're not Dean. Then the boy comes crawling back in the dead of night, sliding into my bed and whispering more heartless apologies. "I'm sorry, Seamus, Ginny this, Ginny that. Can I sleep here tonight?"

And because I'm just the greatest fucking best friend ever and one of the most selfish people I know, I let him, turning round and sliding an arm around his waist, thinking maybe this time, things will be different. Maybe he'll lean over and kiss my cheek, or ask if he can draw me again in the morning, or wink cheekily and make a hilarious innuendo about the two of us.

Nothing ever does change, though. He just smiles, says "Thanks, love you, Seamus." and puts his arm over my middle, snuggling closer to me and closing his eyes. Maybe next time, I always think, maybe he'll do it next time. In the dark of the night, in that bed, everything is just Seamus and Dean like it used to be. Then the sun rises and it's all Dean and Ginny and "can I get back to you on that one, Seamus? I need to check with my girl."

I'm tired of that. I don't want him saying I love you when he doesn't mean it. I hate it. He's blurring the lines, screwing with my brain, toying with my heart. I thought we were something more, I thought our connection went beyond friendship, but obviously not.

I'm going to give up on waiting if he continues acting this way. I can't take the pain any more