A/N Okay, so I noticed there were no Tatiana fanfics, so I decided to write one. Just to let you know, it's not very good, in my opinion, but R&R! Thanks.
Oh yeah, I don't own Vampire Academy, just this story.
RPOV
Okay, so I wasn't having the best day. Wait, stuff day and try life. Lissa ditched me, Dimitri is…gone, and me, well, that's kinda the sad part.
So here I am, I thought, standing outside Tatiana's door. Of all Moroi, she was the one I had been assigned to, well…at least temporarily. Lissa had run off with Christian, and after that huge fight we'd had, she had decided that I wasn't allowed to come. Sure, the bond told me where she was and how she was doing, but the first and only words that and come through to me after she'd left were Don't follow me. Of course, being bonded to her had naturally made her my best friend, but as we all know, some friendships don't last. Anyway, with my totally awesome records in combat, and even my not-so-totally-awesome grades in non-combat classes, and with Liss gone, I had been assigned to protect Queen Tatiana. Sometimes, I thought of it as a great honour, being assigned to the Queen must mean that I'm one of the best guardians around, but other times…let's just say that it's not so good. For example, she calls me in to see her occasionally. Usually it's stuff about my "mental wellbeing" and usually I say "I'm fine, Your Majesty. I really am." And she'll let me go, but today…that's a different story. My mood was approaching level 6 on a scale of 1 to 5. Still waiting outside the door, I wondered what would happen if she asked me about my mental state. Probably not good, I thought. One of the guardians opened the doors and told me to come in. I walked, not really paying any attention to where I was going, and nearly walked straight into one of the guardians.
"Watch it Rose," he warned in a teasing tone. I snapped back into reality, I knew that voice. "Yeah, yeah Eddie," Turned out the Szelskys were back at Court today, so naturally Eddie would be here, seeing as he guarded one of them. Eddie smiled at me and I kept walking. As I reached the Queen, I knelt and looked up. "Your Majesty," I said. Tatiana smiled at me as she was beginning to do lately, and replied 'Good morning Rose. I see you are well today." I nodded.
"I always am your Majesty," I said bitterly.
"Well then, I see no reason in why you can't join me for a quick cup of tea today, then. Come along." I was shocked. Since when did the Queen want me to have tea with her, but more importantly, why did she want me to. I decided that the only way to find out would be to go.
She led me to a rather large room, which was lit up by dozens of candles. "Bit of a fancy room for a cup of tea." I noted. Tatiana didn't seem to notice my sarcastic tone, in fact, she didn't even respond. As we sat down at the rather small, well, small for the Queen, table, she asked me a question. 'So, how is Vasilisa?" I froze up. Lissa was a touchy subject for me lately, after she and Christian had left. Whenever I heard her name, I felt anger and betrayal, but also love and hopeful that she would return one day…soon. "She's umm…" I searched the bond, "well."
"Good, good. How are you?"
"I said I'm fine."
'Not about that, even though you clearly aren't. I meant how are you coping with the loss of Lissa?"
"Oh," that question took me off guard, "ummm…okay, I guess."
"Are you sure?" God, why did she have to ask so many questions?
"Yes," I said through gritted teeth.
"Listen. Rose. I know that you're not coping. I have felt the exact same feelings before as you are now, so don't try to lie to me." Wow. That surprised me, she actually sounded, genuine. "I-I'm not."
"Rose. I know you are, so don't try. How about this? If I tell you the story, the truth, will you promise to open up to me and tell me the truth?" Yikes! She didn't give up.
"Ummm..." she was looking at me, like she was telling me, do it or else, "okay, fine, whatever."
"Good. Let's begin."
"Now? Do we have to I mean-"
"Yes. Now." Wow, she didn't waste any time, that's for sure.