Preface

I love her... but,

Can one truly love another, when one does not love one's self?

Can one truly feel emotions for another, when one has never felt a feeling for another before?

Can one change, when one has always been the same?

Can one make her love again, if one has failed her?

Will I be forever cursed with loneliness?

I asked myself these questions in the year 1994 but there was no answer.

I knew I would find love, and her, but, I knew I would not accept either.

The fate of my heart was sealed, but as I lived on, I was a monster, and for my actions in this life, I have forever damned myself to hell on earth for all eternity without the woman I love.