Hi! This is my very first fanfic in English so well, my grammar sucks so any comment is welcome. I'm still learning English, but I wanted, at least, to try so feel free to comment.

Disclaimer: I don't own Prince of Tennis.

I've always wanted to tell you the way I felt when I saw you for the very first time, when you still scare me like the evil child you were and…the last one, when I realized that I like you…more than a friend does. It feels quite weird when I see you in the park after the practice. My heart pounds hard my chest that it hurts so badly and my cheeks flush furiously. Then, I look at my shoes and, secretly, I wish you come near me and join me in my way home. But I'm happy that you just look at me —sometimes I see that you show a little grin that makes me feel dizzy— because if you come and talk to me I'm not sure if my mouth would open to talk you back.

I just want to whisper you three words. But it's just a desire. I can't do it. I know what's going to happen if I tell you my feelings and I don't want a broken face, I swear.

I love you…

Fake boyfriend

Kawamura was walking slowly to the restaurant through the park like always did. The practice was harder than usual and he's really tired. Nationals finished two months ago but his captain doesn't let his guard down, either theirs. He felt his legs heavier and painfully so he sat in the nearest park bench he saw. He closed his eyes while he put his tennis bag on the park bench after sit down himself. At least, he didn't have to do his homework as soon as he arrived home because it's Friday and he had the opportunity to do them on Saturday morning before helping his father with the shop. For some reason, he felt released at the thought and he let a light smile cross his face.

"Hey, guys! Look what we have right here," a mockery voice came from some point near him. He doesn't recognize it so he opens his eyes lazily. "Aw, did I wake you up?"

Three guys he hadn't seen in his entire life were standing in front of him, looking at him maliciously --hands in his pockets and an aggressive attitude--. At least, he could recognize the school uniform. Yamabuki Gakuen.

"Can I help you?" asked Kawamura softly. He was getting a little bit nervous and his hands were almost shaking.

"Actually yes, you can", one of them approaches him --the most handsome of the group-- sitting down beside him. He put his arm around his shoulder and squeezed hard, bringing Kawamura near him. He was sure his face was as red as Eiji's hair. "We felt rather lonely and like you're here sitting alone, we think you're feeling lonely too…Why don't you come with us?"

"Yeah, it'll be funny", said another guy with a big smirk. Now, Kawamura was feeling amused but yet, he still smiling shyly.

"I'm sorry guys, but I can't…"

"Of course you can!" The embrace tightened hurting his shoulder. "You aren't doing anything here so you must come with us", the voice tone was replaced from an annoying growl.

"I can't go", and seeing what was coming, he decided to lie to save his ass. "I'm waiting for someone." He looked at his hands, entwined on his thighs and trembling a bit.

Then, there was an uncomfortable silence before the one on his right proceeds to speak. "So…Are you waiting for a friend? He can also come with us." It seemed that they didn't want to do anything wrong, at least where people could see them.

"Well, it isn't exactly a friend…"

"Maybe your girlfriend?" asked slowly, hesitant.

"N-No," he was getting really nervous. What was he going to do now? "I-I haven't got any girlfriend ever." He rather wanted a boyfriend. He wanted him.

"Well, then what is it?"

That was a good question. Shit. His parents tell him not to lie for some reason and now he knows why.

"Yeah, if you're waiting for someone and that person isn't a friend nor a girl, who the hell are you waiting here for? Your mommy?" asked almost laughing.

"What the fuck is going on?" Kawamura raised his head at the sound of a familiar voice. His eyes opened in shock and his cheeks flushed hardly when he saw his first love looking at them, frowning quite amused.

"Akutsu! I haven't seen you around school lately. How are you doing?"

"Fucking fine until I come here." He growled angrily. "Get your hands off my boy, asshole, or I'll fucking kill you."

Kawamura was in shock so he didn't quite hear Akutsu's last words. Did he just say that he was his boy? His heart started to pound his chest faster and faster,

"W-What?!" they stepped away the bank bench, looking scared to Akutsu, as he approaches to them, then he occupied the sit his school mate had left beside him. "We d-didn't know he was yours, Akutsu. We're really sorry." And he seemed mean it. "I'm sorry," he repeats, this time looking at Kawamura.

"Don't you dare to talk to him never unless you want to die, got it?" Akutsu's left hand surround Kawamura's lightly, glancing at the others with a menacing aura.

"O-Of course not! First and last, we promise…See ya!" They didn't say anything more before they started to run.

Once they're gone, Akutsu sighed loudly, leaning on Kawamura's shoulder. Then, he let out a burst of laugh, closing his eyes and resting his right hand over Kawamura's waist. The last move makes him tremble nervously.

"You're a better liar than I expected, Kawamura." There's a smirk on his face when he talked. "But it was close, isn't it?"

Kawamura breathed deeply and he swallows before he spokes. His mouth was dried and his heart was running a marathon without his permission and Akutsu's hand on his makes things went worst. His thumb was caressing his left hand back too. What was happening today?

"Y-You're right," he couldn't stand this anymore. His heart will explode and his face was burning of pure shame. Sure it was! Akutsu raised his head to look at him with a suspicious glance. A second after, he smiled. A lovely smile Kawamura didn't see because he was looking at the evening sky. "S-Sorry for disturbed you," mumbled embarrassed.

"You're fucking cute," Akutsu whispered with a soft voice, almost touching Kawamura's ear with his lips. "You're gonna make me kiss you." That last comment of his neighbor breaks all Kawamura's defenses. If he wanted, he let him do. What more could he do? He didn't want to stop him if he wanted to kiss him. He wanted Akutsu's lips covering his more than nothing. "Why were you sitting here like a dolt?"

"I-I was tired from practice," that's right. He could see Kawamura's tennis bag on the other side of the bank bench. "D-Do you know them?"He asked shyly ignoring his heart hard beats.

"Three fucking losers from school. They used to hit loneliness guys but I didn't know they make out first with them. Fucking fuckers…" He frowns lightly. "I'm gonna kill them tomorrow."

"W-Why? T-They didn't do anything bad."

"They wanted to fuck my boy," Akutsu hugged him with one arm before raise his hand and hold his chin with two fingers to turn Kawamura's head and so he could look directly to his eyes. "Because you're my boy, aren't you?" Now, Kawamura was certain all his body was red. From head to toe. Akutsu's eyes weren't lying or that's what he thinks. But at least he must be the honest one. He was done with the lies for all week.

"I wasn't yesterday at least" he said smiling shyly.

"Mhm…Fucking true."

"S-So?"

"Wanna be my boy or not?" asked Akutsu with a light grin. Kawamura went silent for a few minutes, looking everywhere but Akutsu's direction. "Don't have all day, you know? It's almost night."

"You… A-Are you serious, Akutsu?"

"Fuck. Yes." He frowned. "Listen, Kawamura. Like those guys are million in the world, thousand of them are here, in Japan. If you're in troubles again and you have to lie, then the troubles will multiply if they catch you." He closed his eyes, and then he opened again. "It's better if it isn't a fucking lie."

"B-But it's the first time it happens to me and-"

"Cut it. Now." Their heads were so near their lips almost touch each other. "Look over my shoulder." Confused like he was, Kawamura took his time to do what Akutsu's commanded him, but when he did, he saw the same three guys staring at them far away. He blinked. "See? Tell me then, yes or no?"

What should he do? He loved him but this seemed the typical couple of convenience and he didn't like it at all. What should he do? What should he do? What should he do?

I love you…

He get lost in Akutsu's eyes before closing his own. Oh, fuck it.

"Yes."

And then, they met each other in a soft, long kiss.

TBC