Chapter One

I was standing outside Will's office doorway looking in. He was sitting at his desk. Everything looked the same way it was last time I was there. I quietly lean on the door frame.

"Hi Will."

I murmur quietly. He looks up at me and I am stuck. I hear him take a breath. He looks like he doesn't believe I am here.

"Alicia? What are you doing here?"

I tentatively walk in and close the door behind me letting Will know that this conversation is private. I walk around his desk and he stands. I hug him close to me.

"I've missed you."

I whisper as the tears fall from my eyes and stain my cheeks. I hear his deep breath before his arms wrap around me. Holding me close to him. I know he must be so confused with everything that has happened between us.

I look up at him my eyes still clouded with tears.

"Will, can you ever forgive me? I hurt you in so many ways. I thought I loved Peter but I was wrong. Ever since Georgetown it's always been you."

I manage to choke the words out as a lump of doubt rises in my throat. I'm afraid that he will turn me away but I would understand I caused him so much pain, confusion and he gave me everything. I move to kiss him very slowly giving him an out if he wanted to stop. He looks at me and his eyes widen and he takes another deep breath.

"Why now Alicia? I mean after all this time, why now?"

I sigh.

"I filed for divorce today. That's why I'm here. David Lee is my lawyer. I never wanted things between us to end but then Grace went missing and I felt I had been neglecting my kids but Grace has been the one convincing me that we are good together."

I gently place my arms around his neck holding onto him. He looks at me breathing deeply. I know I've nearly gotten through to him.

"But... Your firm.."

"I believe that I should hire someone else. I don't want to have to defend myself if Peter wants to fight it. I don't want anyone at my firm to know until its done. David Lee was already on board when I was just looking at my options and I want to follow through with it."

I smile lightly trying to convey that I'm sure about it all. He closes his eyes and I wait patiently. Knowing that he is thinking about the bombshell I just dropped on him. I stay in his warm embrace and watch him thinking. I close my eyes enjoying the serenity of the moment. The warmth of our bodies. His voice startles me from the quiet.

"What do you want from me after all that..."

"I just wanted you to know. I wanted to tell you the things I should have told you a long time ago. I spent so much time running that I got lost but you guided me back home."

I know I should step away and out of his arms but I don't want to let go. Just as I go to step back he places his hands on my waist and pulls me a little closer breathing deeply. My own breath matching his.

I tighten my arms around his neck holding him closer to me. He buries his face in crook of my neck. I turn my head cautiously so our lips are a fraction away from touching. I lean in slowly brushing my lips against his. He brushes his lips against mine like we are both frightened of scaring the other off. I pull him closer and deepen the kiss a slight moan escapes my lips. He places a hand on the side of my face and slides his tongue against mine. Something about the way he tastes. It drive me crazy. There's a hint of scotch and then there's the undeniable taste of him. I pull back and rest my forehead against his as I smile at him. He looks into my eyes. He strokes the side of my face.

"Come to my place tonight? You don't have to but I'd like it if you did."

I smile gently.

"You think all that could be... Resolved like that ?"

He sounds hurt that he thought I wouldn't want to talk about all the misunderstandings and hurt I caused.

"No. I want you to have dinner with me and I want to talk to you. In a more private setting. We need more time to talk and I want to explain things to you you need time I will wait. Your worth the wait. I just wish I knew that sooner."

I see him swallow and slowly he nods.

"Okay. Dinner. We need to talk because last time you, how can I say it. Stole Chumhum from us."

"I'm sorry Will. I'll never be able to take that back and I wish I could. I just want us to talk and see where we go from there. Ok?"

I kiss him gently. Trying to show how bad I feel. He looks at me surprised. As if he didn't expect that kiss.

"You are trying to distract me... Where? At your place?"

"Yes. The kids are with Peter tonight. And yes I'm trying to distract you but it's only because I want to kiss you. I've missed you. I've missed kissing you and holding you."

I smile and kiss him again. He closes his eyes and nods slightly.

"Ok then. Let me get my coat and we will got to your place."

I reluctantly pull out of his arms and nod.

"I might order some take away that way we can talk. Unless you want me to make something?"

He places his hands and in his pockets and shakes his head.

"No. That's fine. Thanks. I told you things..."

I hear him sigh.

"I'm not going to use then against you. I promise. I don't want to hurt you ever again."

"Okay."

He walks to his chair and puts his jacket on. I see the worried look still etched on his face. I walk over to him stopping in front of him.

"Hey. Don't worry. I love you Will. I just realised a little late."

I place a quick kiss on his lips and turn to leave. i look back over my shoulder at him.

"You coming?"

I smile. He looks up and I hear his breath catch.

"I'm coming."

I gently slide my hand in his and walk with him. I look at him concerned.

"You okay?"

"I... I feel weird with all this... Changing."

He turns the light off as we leave his office and I catch him watching me.

"Change is good. Just give it some time to sink in and it will all make sense."

I squeeze his hand reassuringly. Suddenly he stops walking and I'm halted in my tracks by our joint hands.

"Why did you leave the firm like that? Why didn't you talk to me before... I think we trusted each other?"

I sigh. Fresh tears cloud my eyes.

"I was weak. Cary convinced me that I would always be under you. I thought that I wouldn't fall for you if I didn't see you everyday but I realised that I wanted you more than ever before because we could do something about it and I want to. I want you. Always."

He looks at me and runs a hand through his hair.

"Go."

He walks the rest of the way to the elevator. He seems distant now to what he seemed less than a few seconds ago. I follow quickly nodding. The tears blurring my vision. He suddenly pulls me to him as we wait for the elevator. He starts caressing my back.

"Don't cry. I don't want to see you cry. I don't support it. Even if I was hurt or angry I don't ever want to see you crying."

He whispers in that sweet low voice I knew so well when we were together. He places a gently kiss to my forehead. I small sob passed through my lips.

"No matter how much I tell you that I'm sorry. The words will never be enough personally and professionally."

He kisses my head once more and rests his head on my shoulder holding me closer to him. I can't stop the tears that start flowing as I cry openly now. Holding him tightly afraid that he will float away and I will wake and this will all just be a dream. I look into his eyes trying to show him I feel awful for betraying him.

"Alicia.. No please," he kisses some of the tears away and catches others with his hand gently caressing my face. "Don't cry please."

He continues to kiss my tears away. I shake my head slightly. Tears spilling down my cheeks in small streams. I place my hand on the side of his face, caressing it.

"Will. I just... I said so many awful things to you..."

"You aren't the only one Alicia," he pauses. "And... We can't go back in the past and change them."

I kiss him desperately seeking reassurance. My arms sliding around his neck pulling him to me. He pulls me tighter against him. He gently wipes the last of my tears away. I stop crying as he touches soothes me. Comforting me. Memories of Georgetown flash in my mind.

FLASHBACK

I look over the case file trying to figure out where we went wrong.

"Leesha. It's just a mock trial. We didn't get this one but we'll get it next time. Don't stress yourself over it."

"Will, I don't get it. How'd we lose. We had an air tight case."

"The jury. The human factor of the trial didn't believe it. The defence created reasonable doubt is all. You can't control what they read of the facts. Come here."

I look down at him and stop pacing. I walk over to the sofa where he is sitting. He places his hands on my hips. He kisses my stomach and gently pulls me down to him. I run my hands through his hair smiling at him.

"You're so beautiful when your frustrated like this. Fight hard for your client."

He kissed me. I smile and kiss him back.

"You know, Mr Gardner. If you hadn't have distracted me the morning of the trial we wouldn't have been late. That's part of why we got marked down."

Teasing him I climb into his lip straddling him.

"Hey. It's not my fault I woke with you looking sexy as hell in my bed. With that gorgeous smile of yours."

"Are you trying to distract me?"

"No. Comfort you. You fell bad. Let me make you feel good. Let me make you feel really good."

END OF FLASHBACK

He runs his fingers through my hair. I hear the elevator come. I gently pull back.

"Your place then?"

"Yes."

I take a step away putting more distance between us.

"Come here Alicia. No one is here. It's late you know. You and I were always the last to leave and something's never change."

"I know. I just don't want to risk it. I don't want you to get caught up in it."

I look up at him blushing. He grabs my hand and pulls me close to him again. We walk into the elevator as it opens for us. Staying by his side holding his hand.

"You sure the kids aren't going to be at your place?"

"Yes. They are with Peter. They come home to me after school tomorrow."

He places a sweet kiss to my lips.

"How will Peter react?"

"I don't know. We don't talk unless its about the kids. I couldn't care any less about him."

He caressed my face looking into my eyes. I smile and gently bite my lip.

"Hey."

His sweet low voice back soothing me. Making me feel safe, loved and worshipped.

"Hey. Follow me to my place?"

I smile and wink at him.

"Okay."

We walk out of the elevator and over to our cars. I parked beside him. I place a quick kiss to his lips. He holds me and we lean against my car for awhile just holding each other. He opens my car door and holds it for me.

"Thanks you. See you soon."

I slide into my car. He closes the door nodding. He climbs into his car. I drive along and see his car following mine home. I glance back to check he is still following every now and again. Bringing a smile to my face every time I see his car still behind mine. I pull into the garage of my building and he parks beside me. We both get out of our cars. He follows without saying a word behind me. The elevator ride seems to take forever. I feel the tension in the air. Suddenly his hand in stroking mine. Reassuring me. He always knows just what to do to make me feel better. I open my apartment door and let us in closing it behind me and locking it.

"Would you like a glass of wine? I think I still have some tequila if you'd prefer?"

"Wines perfect. If we start with the tequila I'm not sure there will be much conversation."

He has a small smile like he remembers the bar and how quickly we stopped talking and got a room for the night. No plan just pure spontaneity.

"You're right."

I grab two glasses down and pour the wine. I walk back into the lounge room with our glasses. I hand one to him.

"Where do you want to start?"

"You start. I will listen."

We sit side by side on the sofa.

"I'm divorcing Peter as you know. I want for us to be like we were only we don't have to be secretive. I swear I will never hurt you again I promise that you'll be the only guy in my life besides my son that matters and I will put an end to Cary and my firm if you ask me. Your worth more to me than any of that."

"Even though I was hurt by it... I will never ask you do anything like that. You did what you did and.. " he shrugs his shoulders. "Cary of course Not only you. You will make something for yourself and I want you to be happy."

I watch as he sips his wine and stays calm and relaxed.

"It doesn't make it any better. I should have come to you. I shouldn't have done what I did. I betrayed you."

He looks at me and swirls his glass a little. He sighs.

"Maybe. But what's done is done. Something's just can't be changed."

I rest my head on his shoulder. And sip my wine.

"I wish I could erase all of it by I can't. What's done is done."

He caresses my arm.

"Work is work. Private is private in a way."

"But the betrayal will always be there. It's like a mirror. You can try and glue it back together but you will still see the flaws in it. Is there anything you wanted to talk about? It's my turn to just listen."

"I told you what I thought about it all. I was hurt by all of that. The fact that you went behind all our backs and you were ready to lie to my face when I asked you if you were leaving."

"I know. I don't know what I was thinking. I hurt myself by hurting you and I don't ever want to feel that again."

I lift my head and look into his eyes. I kiss him.

His grip on me tightens as he pulls me closer and caresses my arms. I deepen the kiss sliding my tongue inside his mouth. Tasting the wine and him. He shifts a little to make it more comfortable. He sucks my tongue tenderly and sensually as his hands rub along my back. I shift my body and straddle him moaning as he kisses me. He hums low in the back of his throat and places his hands on my hips. I untie his tie. I start to take my jacket off. Suddenly his hands are helping me out of it a d throwing it to the floor. I feel his hands reach the front of my shirt. Gently he begins to unbuttons my shirt. He moan.

"Mmm baby."

He tilts his head so his lips brush along the tops of my breasts.

"Will."

I whimper as I unbutton his shirt and push it off with his jacket. He kisses back up my neck and bites my lips.

"God, Alicia."

Kissing me before I can respond.

I unbuckle his pants pushing them down. He lifts up so I can push them off. As he unzips my skirt and pushes it down. Tossing it with my jacket and shirt. I moan as I run my hand down along his chest and gently stroke his long, hard cock. His breathing increases as I stroke him. His hands cup my ass.

"Mmmmm Alicia."

He moans against my lips. I arch my back pressing my breasts into his hard chest kissing him hard. He unhooks my bra and tosses it. He lifts me and removes my panties. I smile while biting my lower lip as I push his briefs down. I slowly lower myself onto his hard cock. Moaning as he enters me slowly. He tosses his head back. His hands coming up to caress my breasts. I kiss his neck placing light bites. He moans and gently pinches my nipples as he thrusts into me. I lean my head back and take him deeper.

"Oh god, Will."

His lips find my throat and kiss along my neck up to my ear. Sucking on my earlobe slightly. I rise and lower myself panting slightly.

"Your so beautiful like this Alicia."

He whispers gently as he cups my breasts again.

"I love you, Will."

I look him in the eyes. And I see his love for me swimming through his eyes.

"I love you too, Alicia."

He leans forward and captures my lips as he thrusts harder into me. Hitting deep within me every time. I kiss him roughly. My nails digging into his shoulders.

"Alicia. It's always so amazing with you," he pants. "Aaalicia god."

I can't hold back anymore. I come moaning loudly. He kisses my forehead. Holding me tightly.

"Will."

I collapse against his chest smiling. As I feel him come beneath me. I close my eyes and rest my head on his shoulder. Sighing.

"I forgot how good we are at this."

He caresses my back tenderly and lays us down on the couch. Still connected and facing each other.

"I'm tired."

He caresses my face tenderly. He kisses my nose.

"Then go rest in bed Alicia."

"Come with me. Stay the night?"

"You want me to stay here?"

He kisses me. And runs his hands along my ribs.

"Yes. Don't go. Stay the night with me. Only if you want to that is."

I smile letting him know that I will be fine with whatever he decides. He kisses me again.

"I want to... Alicia.. I just remembered something."

"What?"

I feel him pull out of me and I miss the connection instantly.

"We didn't use any protection tonight."

"It's ok. I'm on the pill."

"Oh. Okay. Just asking. Let's go to your room."

He smiles and kisses me. Gently getting up and helping me up.

"We'll I'm glad you asked anyway. "

I take his hand and lead him to the bedroom. He follows me through the door and closes it behind us. We climb under the covers. He wrapped his arms around me pulling me to him.

"I love you, night."

He runs his hands along my back.

"I love you too, Alicia."

His breathing creating a peaceful rhythm. I fall asleep within seconds.