I sit in Glee, slumped low in my chair; I'm not listening to anything they're saying. All I can see is Rachel, all I can see is that my name no longer rests against the chest. My heart aches, I can't believe she broke my heart. I can't believe she cheated on me with Puck, of all people, she had to know how much that would hurt me. I wonder if she ever cared about me at all. I can't believe we're not together, I was sure we were going to be together forever, she was my world now I don't know where I belong.
We should be celebrating our win, if you can even call a tie a win. But we get to move on to regionals so that's something. Everyone looks so happy, well everyone except for Rachel. Part of me wants to go over and wrap my arms around her, comfort her and tell her that it will all be okay. Then I remember that she's responsible for this pain.
Why do sectionals have to suck so much, I wonder.
"Finn." I hear a soft voice next to me. I look up to see Quinn standing over me.
"Hey." I mumble.
"You OK?" she asks.
"Not really." I say, trying to offer her a smile.
"Want to talk about it?"
"Not really." I repeat.
"She loves you. You know."
"I doubt it." I say bitterly.
"It may not seem like it right now, but she does."
"Why him?" I ask her, feeling the tears starting to gather behind my eyes. "Why is it always him?"
"Finn, he's not the same guy he was last year. He stopped her, he knew she only wanted to be with him because she knew it was the best way to hurt you."
"Well it worked." I sulk.
"So you guys are done then? You're just going to give up on her?" she asks.
"Yup."
"Then you're a bigger idiot than I thought. You both are. If I ever find a love like yours, I'm going to do whatever I can to hang onto it. Even if it means forgiving him for breaking my heart."
"It's too late."
"No, it's not. Talk to her, work this out."
"How do you know?"
"Because, she's all you see. She's all you've ever seen since she came into your life."
"Quinn." I say softly.
"It's alright, I'm over it. I knew it was only a matter of time, we were never meant to last, you and I. Things changed with us, when Rachel entered the picture. I tried so hard to hang onto you, it's why I slept with Puck. I wanted to feel special. I saw how you looked at her, you never looked at me like that. I didn't see what she had that I didn't, what made her so special. I see it now though, she has your heart."
I just look at Quinn and swallow the lump in my throat.
She smiles sadly at me, resting her hand on my shoulder. "I know she's hurt you, but she was hurting too."
I look at Rachel, she's just staring at the wall.
"Why does this have to be so hard? Why can't love be like it is in the movies?"
"Because the movies aren't real Finn. Real love takes work, hard work. Stop punishing her and yourself. Go get her, go be happy."
"When did you get so smart?" I ask her.
"I've always been smart, but having Beth changed me. Giving her up changed me more."
I feel Rachel's eyes on me, watching as Quinn try's comfort me. I look up into her sad brown eyes and give her a lop sided smile.
She flashes a soft, smile my way. I think maybe Quinn is right, maybe we can work this out.
