Heartbreak In Hogwarts
"Come for a walk with me." I nodded at Edward and followed him to the forest behind my house, in Forks, Washington. It had been two days now since my disastrous birthday party, which I never wanted in the first place. I mean having a vampire attack you don't really make you feel very welcome. I don't blame Jasper of course. It's not as if it's only his emotions he was feeling. To him he had his, which was harder than the rest anyway because not only is he newer to this, the rest of the Cullens –except perhaps Carlisle's –emotions were feeding his, but even worse to add to that he had Edwards, which meant me being Edwards singer would rub off on Jasper. It must have been impossible to resist. Don't get me wrong having witch blood in you doesn't really help any matters. It may not be as tasty to most vampires but a rare few prefer it, Edward being one of them. Edward stopped so suddenly I almost knocked straight into him. I checked to make sure the occlumency spell was still working against Voldermort, because I'm guessing that's why Edward can't read my thoughts. He turned to face me and his golden eyes were empty. Showing no emotion whatsoever. I knew something was wrong.
"We're leaving Bella" my eyes bugged open. That I most definitely wasn't expecting.
"When you say we?" I couldn't comprehend the fact that he would go without me but, I had to be sure.
"I mean my family and me. I don't want to be with you any more." No. I. What?
"But… I… I thought you loved me?" It came out as a question.
"Bella, I'm a vampire, your human, you were never anything more than a distraction." Instead of this breaking me apart it did the exact opposite. I felt enraged and stronger than I had in a while.
"Excuse me? So what… you do this often? Make people love you and then break them? What about the others? How do they feel about this?" He snorted, a very unattractive trait, might I add.
"Bella, look, Alice is getting fed up of spending so much money on you. Jasper has had enough of hanging around dinner. Rosalie… Well she's Rosalie… she never hid the fact that she hated you… Emmett wants Rose to be happy and is fed up of having to protect you… as am I." I felt tears start to prick the back of my eyes but I held my head high and spoke the question I knew would break me if it came out pretty much the same as the others.
"What about Esme and Carlisle?" He took a deep breath and pinched the bridge of his nose.
"Esme acted how she does to everyone. Polite, motherly, sweet, but it was all an act. She hated making food for you and cleaning up after you. Carlisle just wants his family to be happy. He doesn't care either way. You're beneath us. A lowlife human. Nothing more." I felt my appearance start to change, damn having an auntie who's a Metamorphous. I fought to keep my hair and eyes brown, but even I couldn't stop my eyes from darkening.
"I. Am. Not. A. Human. You are such an idiot. How could you still not tell? I'm a witch you moron." He looked at me and burst out laughing. A full blown laugh, clutching his sides and everything.
"Yeah, course you are honey, want me to get Carlisle to take a look at your head." I glared at him.
"Don't bother. I would hate for your family to do anything they don't want to. If you come back looking for me I wont be here. I'll be back at school. And I don't mean Forks." I stormed off before I could break down and, slammed the door to my house. Charlie was already home.
"Bella, dear what's wrong?" He wasn't my real father. Not like he knew that, but soon he wouldn't even remember me, I still felt grateful.
"Nothing, Ch… Dad." I walked over and hugged him. He was now a part of me, even though he would forget me as soon as I wanted, I couldn't help but feel bad.
"Dad you won't understand but I just wanted to say Thankyou… for everything… I'm going upstairs to do something quick." Before he could say anything I ran upstairs and grabbed some parchment and a quill, I went over to the stereo to listen to my lullaby but, when I looked it wasn't there. That sneaky son of a bitch. Ugh. I pulled out one of my muggle CD's and stuck it in listening to the lyrics flow around me along with the tears pouring from my eyes.
Please, please forgive me, You won't cry for my absence, I know - Even though I'm the sacrifice, Please, please forgive me, Even though I'm the sacrifice,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely consciously, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
And if I bleed, I'll bleed, Even though I'm the sacrifice,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
I grabbed out my wand from under my floor board beneath the window. Only one of the many that was loose. And placed it on the desk along with my parchment and quill. Before I started to pack I wrote a letter to Dumbledore.
Professor Dumbledore,
I'm very sorry but I cannot carry on staying in the muggle world anymore. I want to come back to Hogwarts. I know we don't start for two weeks, so I'm going to be staying with the Order until then. I'm packing my things now and, am going to fly over there. I know that the Ministry is keeping an eye on the floo powder network along with people apparating. I'm sorry if I'm disappointing you and I know it's safer for me here. I couldn't stay much longer anyway we both know that. Now Voldermort's back I need to start learning to fight again. Me and Harry both.
Best Wishes
Isabella Marie Tonks Black Swan Potter
I stumbled over to my window and opened it wide before whistling loudly and yelling.
"Shadow!" I heard a squawk sound loud as my beautiful black owl's wings glinted in the little moonlight that shone from between the clouds. As she glided through my window and landed on my shoulder I gently stroked her wings with a finger before placing her on my desk and tying the letter to her leg and nuzzling her beak with my nose. I couldn't help but smile as her eyes glinted in the light.
"Good girl, we're going back to Hogwarts, fly this to Dumbledore's office and meet me at headquarters. Atta girl." She nuzzled me back before taking off and flying through the open window, I took the time to watch as she flew and felt the excitement knowing I'd soon be joining her in flight. I crawled to my bed and yanked my trunks form under the bed, before placing them both on top of it. I grabbed my wand and waved it. Glad to finally be doing magic again. Most witches and wizards aren't allowed to do magic outside of school but my wand was made so that none of the ministry could see the magic it preformed. Its core was made with a phoenix's feather, to match with my brothers' phoenix feather and apparently Voldermorts too, the phoenix whose feathers resided in each of our wands had only given three and they belonged to us. My brother… how I missed my twin… it was like a part of me had been cut off. I hadn't seen Harry in a year, it was right before I was sent to live with muggles and I missed him dearly. Apparently he'd been staying with the order since I'd left so I'd see him soon enough.
"Accio school supplies." All of my Hogwarts gear flew into the trunk including my books, robes, potion ingredients, everything. it was so much quicker using magic to pack. I quickly grabbed my Ipod, cell phone, charger, toiletries bag and some normal clothes. Got to hate muggle clothing. Oh well. I shoved them in the trunk and walked into the bathroom with a spare set of robes and witches hat. I decided that since I was flying I may as well look the part. I got changed and looked in the mirror, sighing. I quickly fixed my makeup. One of the good things about being a Metamorphmegus, I can fix my appearance quickly. I grabbed my firebolt out of the wardrobe before dragging my trunks down stairs. Charlie saw me and looked like he was going to start laughing at any minute.
"Bells, what the hell are you wearing?" He couldn't hold it in any longer and laughed. I lifted my wand and pointed at him.
"I'm sorry. Obliviate!" He passed out in his chair and started snoring lightly. When he would wake up he wouldn't remember anything about me. I grabbed my trunks and walked outside pointing my wand to the sky.
"Obliviate Maxima!" That would have gotten rid of all the muggles memories of me in this place. Looks like it's just me now. I pointed at the trunks.
"Transportus, number 12 Grimauld place." They disappeared and I knew they would now be back at headquarters. With a last look at my home for the past year, I mounted my broom and took off in the direction of the Cullens. I had to see them one last time.