Loving has never been that easy… Especially when that person has never felt to be loved.
------Revenge is a dish best served cold...-------
Disclaimer: I don't own Gakuen Alice –wipes her tears with her sleeves- I just like to play with the characters. To the person who has the rights on this anime please oh please don't sue me. I just really had the passion for this story… Arigatou gozaimasu…
Author's Notes: This is a NatsumexMikan fluff. Natsume is back! And much to Mikan's knowledge he still had the biggest C on her…
I included some of my OWN characters in it too. Ryu Andou, Tsubasa's younger brother who looks exactly like Natsume who falls in love with Mikan when Natsume left. He courts her and puff there goes the story…
Reminder: This all dates back when they were 10 and the present age of 15 turning 16 actually!
[I made it nicer this time… so the new readers may like it even more… This is my third time to edit this story so I think it could satisfy enough people… I removed unnecessary lines, phrases, scenes which are not appropriate…
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How Do You Heal a Broken Heart?
By: unnamed cat
Chapter 1: He came back!
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"It's been 5 years and he still hadn't changed! Darn it!" Mikan Sakura said as she throws away her pillows off her bed.
Natsume Hyuuga, Mikan's childhood classmate finally arrived in the Academy. She was pretty much angry with him because he just left her out of the blue. Even though she hated him for so many reasons, a part of her longed for him.
"I thought you hated him and you'd never wanna see him again?" Hotaru Imai, Mikan's best friend asked flatly. As usual she was still the cold-hearted Hotaru Mikan was fond of.
"Yes, he may be a good for nothing, ugly monster, and a stingkin' pervert… he is still Natsume my…" she trailed off when she heard someone knocked on her door.
"My I come in?" a familiar masculine voice asked.
"The door is open." Mikan replied as gleefully as ever.
"Oh hi there Hotaru!" the boy said as he turned to walk closer to Mikan and kiss her on her cheeks. "Hi honey. How's your day?"
'You're really pissing me off! You think we're close?! FC!' (Feeling Close) Hotaru thought. She never liked Ryu because she always thought that he was just abusing the fact that he looked so much like Natsume.
Hotaru was never friends with Natsume but there was something that she preferred Natsume to have, and that was Mikan. Not some jerk who would just showed out suddenly.
"Hello Ryu! It's great that you passed by! I would like you to meet somebody. He was my longtime friend." Mikan said as she stands and hold her boyfriend's arm.
She turns to Hotaru and says;
"Hotaru I have to go now. I'll meet you at the café and we'll talk about IT." Mikan said turning to Hotaru and they left the room.
"Oh I'd like you to meet my longtime friend." Hotaru said mockingly as she imitates Mikan's tone. "Longtime friend, yourself! A minute ago you wished he was gone now he's your longtime friend?! You're SO unpredictable! And add up that darn boyfriend of yours who thinks I like him for you?! I would rather prefer someone like Natsume than him!" Hotaru said as she leaves Mikan's room and shuts the door tight.
(A/n: if you may be wondering who this Ryu guy is and how the heck did he become Mikan's boy friend, here's a flash back… XD)
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FLASH BACK
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"Natsuumeee!" Mikan shouted.
He won't even look back on her. He just walked farther to the darkness with Persona.
"That Natsume —sobs— he didn't even bother to look at me!" she shouted. "I hate him! I hate him I hate him! That good for nothing bastard! —sobs— He didn't have to leave you know… he could have just said so…" she cried harder on Hotaru's chest."I could always be by his side I could always be his shoulders… he didn't bother to remember… as if I was a burden to him."
She wanted to swear him. She wanted him to vanish forever. But she didn't want to lose him. She had mixed emotions… anger, fear, longingness, sorrow, doubt… she wanted to run after him. The minute she tried to put a step forward she is thrown back. No! She couldn't she can't reach him… his too far now… he disappeared in the darkness.
She turns to Ruka who was dumbfounded by the sudden events. She shakes him. "Ruka! Ruka! Tell me where? Where will he take my Natsume?! Ruka speak to me." She cries wildly now. "Persona can't take Natsume away from me! He can't! I could never permit him… he can't take him away…" She fell to the ground. If Hotaru wasn't there she could've died… died out of lost love…
She just stared blankly at the disappearing shadow of Natsume… the one she loves… under the light of the crescent moon…
After a week of Natsume's departure, Tsubasa introduced his brother to Mikan. In thought that she would feel much better to meet someone who could ease the pain, the pain of losing someone whom you really love. Since Natsume and his brother has so much in common physically. The color of his eyes, how his hair would block his face, his curved lips and his manner of walking, but, his eyes lack the fierceness that was in Natsume's and so is the attitude. Natsume was a little bit harsh but he wasn't. Natsume was someone who could make Mikan smile all of a suddenly. Natsume was also the same person who could make unreasonable things be meaningful. He was too far from being a Natsume.
"Hey! Mikan-chan, I'd like you to meet—"
"Natsume! You came back!" she hugged the boy in front of her and cried. She smiled but then she felt an eerie feeling. As if her mind and body, even her soul protested. 'He's not your Natsume' the thought lingered in her. She let go of the boy and stood in astonishment. "Tsubasa?" she asked curiously and accusingly, she was taken aback as if someone has done great damage to her, as if she slowly tore to pieces.
"I was trying to tell you. He's not Natsume. He's my younger brother. He's also an Alice… sorry I shouldn't have introduced him in this manner…" Tsubasa apologized.
Their eyes met. The boy looked intensely at Mikan as if saying 'It's OK I'm here now.' As if her mind, was playing tricks on her. She slowly walked away… back to the tree… the tree that brings back the memories… the memories of her undying past…
(A/n: that was the time when they first met… here's the second…)
Bang!
A/n: Maniniwala na sana ako kaso may sound effect hehe [joke lang un I just wanted to make someone laugh even though its corny cause I'm getting too senti…)
"Ouch! My butt…" Mikan said as she fell on the ground and hit her butt hard on the floor.
"Sorry Miss." the boy asked as he offers his hand to help Mikan stand.
"Don't touch me, my name's not miss. It's Mikan. Mikan Sakura." She said as she cleans her skirt of the dust. When she looked up to see who was the one who bumped her she was shocked to see HIM, the so-called Natsume's Look-alike.
It troubled her very much, so she pulled her hand away from the boy's grip and sped off. Her instinct overcame her that's why she moved back. Unknowingly, she had left a certain thing that was essential to her as if it was a necessity… the thing that completes her in the world she now resides in… without him… the photo of her one and only true love… Natsume…
The boy picked it up, (A/n: I'm gonna use the name I gave to "Tsubasa's" brother… Ryu…) and looked at it. He didn't even bother to return the photo. He knew who that is… he defined Natsume as 'the X'. He treated him as a rival, someone who would steal his love interest. He went to his classroom and hid the photo up to the present.
After that incident, Mikan felt a different feeling whenever she was around that guy called Ryu. As if she felt a sudden attraction towards him. Like something was pulling her close to him, maybe like, being hypnotized. She didn't like what she felt. Is it because they look so much alike? Are her feelings for Natsume being transferred to this Ryu? That could never happen… could it? She was doubtful of what she felt. When Ryu started courting her after a month, she gave in. Due to Tsubasa's persistence Ryu became her first boyfriend, but, was never ever her first love…
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END OF FLASH BACK
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When Hotaru, Mikan, and Ryu left, no one was there in Mikan's room. Natsume and Ruka was secretly eavesdropping the early conversations and knew what they had to do.
"Ruka. You follow that Ryu guy and let your rodents watch him. Know everything about him. Got it?" Natsume whispered.
"OK Natsume. Uhm by the way, she's not the girl I want now… I mean, you know what I mean… and did you really heard the part wherein you were called a stingkin' pervert? hehe" Ruka said as he was about to turn his back.
Natsume was a bit shocked that Ruka was now able to crack a joke like that then he was puzzled by what he said first so he asked, "Unfortunately yes, and who would it be?"
"Imai"
"Oh … … I mean, Wwwhaaatttt?!"
"I'm going. Take care." Ruka replied as he disappeared in the roof.
Natsume crept to Mikan's bed. He smelled the scent he was longing it was the same scent that made him grin. 'She never changed her cologne… she's still a baby.' Natsume said in his mind as he giggled with the thought. He opened the side drawer of Mikan's bed and there he saw the most precious thing a girl owns… her diary! He was tempted to open it and read it but his conscience tells him not to. He made a decision… 'Oh well, better do it now than never!'
As he browsed the pages one particular page caught his eyes it was written in red ink and signs of tears were still visible. It was dated the day he left her it says:
Dear Diary,
I hate him! I hate him! I hate him! Why did he leave me? He didn't even look at me! When I see his face I'm gonna… I'm gonna… yell at him and tell him what I was thinking this exact moment! He left me for no reason! If he had one, why didn't he tell me? It is too hard to understand that I care for him? That he is no ordinary boy? I'm gonna miss him… I want to see him… to feel his breath… I want to… but I can't! I just can't anymore…
I'm writing this covenant with my own blood:
I Mikan Sakura swear to look for him and blame him for my misery and there for never leave him ever again! And he won't be able to escape me!!!
Natsume didn't know what to say. He was shocked at what he read. He heard footsteps coming so he leaped out the window but not alone. He brought her diary with him. He had no time to put it back.
"Ryu I'm sorry we didn't find him. Tomorrow at class I'll tell him to have lunch with us!" Mikan said.
Ryu didn't look happy. He knew who they were going to meet. It was his rival. It was Mikan's true love.
"It's OK honey. See you tomorrow." Ryu said as she gave him a light kiss on her cheeks. "We'll have plenty of time to meet him anyway.
Natsume was trying his best not to set Ryu on fire because if he did Mikan would be so angry with him. So he left with a smirk.
Back in Mikan's room she found something that wasn't there before. "Hey who owns this chain?" she thought. She thought hard she knew she had seen this before. After a moment of thinking… "Shoot! This is Natsume's! I gave this to him before the festival ended. He came here?" she was blushing but she didn't mind. She wanted to think about him. She wanted to know whether he still felt the same with her.
She undressed and went to her bathroom and took a shower. She wanted to be fresh in case he comes.
Natsume noticed that he has lost something of important value for him… her gift! "Damn it where did I leave it! Darn, maybe it fell in Mikan's room! I don't wanna get busted! I'll come back for it tonight." He let his body fall in the soft bed of the room. He looked at her diary and hissed.
'Well, at least I knew she still do care…' he thought and then he smiled.
At exactly 12 o'clock in midnight he left his room and crept his way to Mikan's window. He slightly opened her window gentle breeze was welcomed in her room. He slowly walked near her bed. He was mesmerized when he saw Mikan in her silk nightgown. 'Wow… She's still a yum! Snap out of it Natsume! Don't fantasize her!' he thought perversely. 'And obviously she's wearing polka dots…' he scratched his head.
Mikan was not asleep because she knew that he would come back for the chain if he still cared. When she felt the gentle breeze that entered her room, she knew he was there. She opened her eyes slightly. She saw him. 'He's still sexy… Damn what am I thinking I'm supposed to get angry at him!'
(A/n: Come to think of it, great minds think alike… hehe)
Natsume walked slowly and bended he's knees to search for the chain under the bed. When Mikan saw that he was under her bed she moved her body in a position that when Natsume stands up she will be the first one he'll see.
And so it happened. When Natsume saw her beautiful teenaged face he was startled and he bumped the side table. The chain fell on his lap…
"What the?! You're awake?" Natsume blurted out. He got crimson-red. It was a not so familiar sight to see.
"Yes I am! What were you doing in my room? And I thought you threw that?" she pointed at the chain Natsume was holding. He couldn't answer but he knew he had to say something.
"I came to… nah never mind I'm leaving!" he said as he stood up.
Mikan blocked his way. Since her only garment was silk it slipped a little and a certain part of her soft delicate skin showed. He was perplexed. He gulped. Mikan covered the part that was seen it was obviously her upper part of her shoulder. She smiled at him and came closer.
"You know it was never right to peek on a girl! Didn't Persona teach you that?" Mikan mocked him. In a short span of time, she had already learned how to play his perverted games. And she missed it…
"What are you saying, little girl?" Natsume said as he gave her a shot of his rather serious face.
"I was just saying that maybe you had another agenda aside from retrieving the chain that I gave you 5 years ago?!" she accused him.
"No! I never planned on doing anything! What are you thinking?! You're just a little girl after all." He said as he headed for the window.
Mikan used her Alice and nullified everything in the room and of course Natsume can't get out. He shot her a warning look. She turned her back and went to the dressing room from there she spoke to him…
"Don't try to get out. When you left, I've trained harder and now I mastered my Alice. So you can't do anything now." She gave out a laugh.
"Witch!"
"Just wait till I get dressed OK!" she shouted back.
She knew Natsume wouldn't peek. She trusted him for that and if he did she could always do the same as usual and kick him until he would land in his butt. She had longed for the time that they would be alone like this. This time Natsume won't have the slightest chance to escape and she liked that. She finished dressing up and confronted him.
"Natsume" she called out his name.
"What?!" he replied angrily.
"Would you like to see it again?" Mikan said. She knew that he knows what she was talking about. She stopped her Alice and dragged Natsume to the Northern Forest and stopped at a certain tree that has a carved name on it. It says; genie and master.
Mikan touched the carve words and she looked at Natsume. She went closer to him and whispered.
"The genie wants her master back… have you heard her scream?"
Natsume felt a teardrop and he looked at Mikan. She picked up a sakura flower and sat down. Natsume sat down opposite to her just like how they would usually talk when they were in grade school.
"Well Natsume what can you say?" she asked.
"I'm back."
Those were the only words she heard from him the next thing that happened was they were back inside their rooms with each of the variable things they had lost, near their hearts.
"Am I really back?"
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to be continued…