I often miss the little girl I used to be, whose dreams had no barriers, who believed in a world where anything is possible with a heart that was full. I had everything, a good family, everything a little girl could want, and tons of friends, but still something seemed missing. When I found it I wanted to leave everything behind. Everything that I had built up didn't seem worth it anymore. I was afraid of what my family would think how they would react to the choices I made, and I didn't want to face them. I kept my relationship a secret, and of course Bella got suspicious. She questioned me, and when she got it out I was done. I prepared myself to leave the family for good.
Today I made a list of my fears, and it wasn't as long as I thought it would be. Yes, losing my family and the life I've always know will be hard, but Ted loves me. It's time for a fresh start.