We're gonna ignore the fact that this song wasn't out when Maggie went to college.
This is entirely self-indulgent tbh so I really hope you enjoy it even a fraction as much as I enjoyed writing it.
Making her way out of the DEO, Alex longed to get home to the beautiful girl she knew awaited her there. Maggie had finished work a few hours before Alex and had texted her to let her know she would be going to Alex's apartment to finish up some work, knowing that Alex would be too exhausted to come to hers.
They were at that place in their relationship now where- life permitting- they tried to see each other every day. Alex would sometimes go to Maggie's apartment but more often Maggie would come to Alex's and whether or not they stayed the night they felt it necessary to get at least a glimpse of the other, even if for just a little while.
Turning the key in the lock to let herself in, Alex's heart fluttered gently at the sight she got to come home to now. Maggie was sitting on the couch dressed in comfortable t-shirt and shorts, her hair up in a loose bun, leaning concentrated over one of her case files. There was a bowl of mostly eaten grapes beside her, and the soft sounds of her music coming through the speakers of her laptop on the table. The apartment looked cleaner than they had left it in the morning, the odd bits of clothes put away and their dishes from breakfast washed up.
Maggie's furrowed eyebrows relaxed replaced by a warm smile as she looked up at Alex.
"Hey," she breathed out softly.
"Hi," Alex replied just as soft, hanging up her jacket before walking up to Maggie to give her a gentle kiss. "What are you working on? Need any help?"
"No, it's just an old case file I was looking over," Maggie said dismissively wanting to get Alex's mind off work. She leaned back into the couch looking up at Alex. "You hungry? I made us dinner, it's in the oven."
Alex smiled, heart warming at the domesticity of it, at the fact that Maggie was comfortable enough in her space to cook there without her. They often just ordered in when they both had to work late but on the days Maggie had off or got off work early she would prefer to cook something at home. And Alex loved it. She had never been much of a cook herself but helping Maggie out whenever she cooked was fun. There was something about a homemade meal that made their evenings that much more special and, on the rare occasion she had the time, she tried to cook for Maggie too. But Maggie was most certainly the better cook.
"Thank you," she leaned down to press another kiss to Maggie's lips before making her way to the bathroom. "I'm just gonna take a quick shower first, then we can eat."
When she came out of the shower twenty minutes later, Maggie was still looking over her file with the sounds of the soft music still coming from the laptop.
Maggie looked up to see Alex coming out of the bathroom, her body warming at the sight of Alex in cute pyjamas with her hair towel-dried. She was so effortlessly beautiful. Maggie still had to pinch herself sometimes that this was real. They were taking things slow but Maggie already felt deeper in this with Alex than she had ever felt with anyone before her, and it had only been four months. The feeling was terrifying and exhilarating all at once. She often had to force herself to calm her rampant emotions considering she was meant to be the collected one. But she knew Alex could see through her sometimes. She had never allowed herself to be so transparent with anyone in the past. And that terrified and exhilarated her all at once too.
Feeling relaxed from the hot shower, Alex moved to sit beside Maggie on the couch, legs tucked beneath herself, her arms coming around the back of Maggie's head.
"Ready to eat?" asked Maggie, leaning her head back to rest against Alex's arm, enjoying the soft scent of Alex's lavender body wash.
Alex sighed, content, lazily caressing the wisps of hair that had come out of Maggie's bun at her neck. "In a little bit." She was happy to just sit for a while watching Maggie work. Her gaze roamed Maggie's exposed jawline and delicate neck and her insides warmed at her ability to do so now- that she was allowed to look.
Maggie went back to reading her file but she could feel Alex's eyes on her and she couldn't ignore the effect it had on her. She turned her head slightly to glance at Alex.
"You know, it's kinda difficult for me to concentrate with you staring at me like a creeper."
Alex ducked her head, letting out an embarrassed laugh. "Sorry," was her immediate fumbling response- she was still learning to roll with Maggie's teasing at times. But seeing the faint blush on Maggie's cheeks she looked back at her and playfully added "It's kinda difficult for me not to stare when you look this beautiful."
In the laziness of the moment and feeling slightly shy at the words, Maggie couldn't even come up with a good comeback.
"When did you go from being a flustered baby gay to such a smooth talker?" she laughed behind a soft blush turning her head back to her papers, drawing a proud grin from Alex.
They sat in a comfortable silence for a few moments before the soft sounds of the jazz faded away, a more twinkling melody making its way through the speakers.
Alex hummed in pleasure at the melodic sounds of the tune. "That's beautiful, what is it?"
Maggie smiled, looking over to Alex whose eyes were closed, pleased that Alex was enjoying her music selection.
"It's an Indian song" Maggie replied pausing to look at Alex before continuing at the intrigued look in Alex's eyes.
"The girl I roomed with in college was Indian, she used to listen to her music out loud sometimes and I got into it cos it was just so beautiful… she used to translate the songs for me too…" she smiled wistfully, "…pure poetry,"
Alex eyes softened at Maggie's words, "You liked her," Alex nudged softly, interested.
Maggie laughed gently. "Lakshmi? No- I mean she was gorgeous but completely straight. I still keep in touch with her though…she sends me music from time to time."
Alex's mouth screwed up teasingly "So… you didn't initiate her gay awakening then", drawing a chuckle from Maggie. Her heart softened at the thought of a young Maggie Sawyer. "I bet you got all the girls in college," Alex continued, thrilled at the fact that she could make Maggie blush so much.
Maggie recovered, taking Alex's hand and kissing it, allowing herself in the moment to speak a truth. "I've got the only girl I need with me here right now." And Alex swooned at her words. At Maggie forgoing the teasing to simply say what was in her heart. She loved when Maggie did that. She was obviously feeling as sweet as Alex felt right now.
"What does this song mean?" Alex asked after a moment of gazing at Maggie, fascinated by the melodious words of the song.
Maggie smiled at the question. "The title means 'oh my companion'," she explained softly, causing Alex's eyes to crinkle beautifully.
"And the rest of it?" she pressed gently, gazing into Maggie's eyes.
Maggie opened her mouth to speak before closing it softly, shy. "I'll… send you the lyrics," she said, looking down, suddenly too vulnerable to say them with Alex looking at her the way she was, knowing the intensity of the lyrics. The song had always left a pang of pain in her chest but it was as if she was listening to it anew ever since Alex came into her life. An entirely new feeling settled inside her upon hearing it now.
Alex looked up at Maggie tenderly, fascinated by the soft blush blooming on Maggie's cheeks. To say she was intrigued was an understatement, but she trusted Maggie would tell her when she felt more comfortable.
"Okay," she whispered softly, bringing her head to lean against Maggie's shoulder, kissing her jaw once. She was content to just sit there listening to the soothing melody of the song and wonder at the meaning of the words that Maggie was too shy to tell her.
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The next day at work she got a text from Maggie as promised. It was an audio of the song from the night before. Alex pressed to play the song, the soft melody delighting her ears again. A few seconds later her phone buzzed with another message from Maggie.
'Oh my companion,
May the day never set.
Come, let's stop the day,
Let's run behind the sun,
Lest the shade touch us,
Oh my companion…
Before Alex even had a chance to contemplate the words another message came through.
To your strong body, I'll sew myself
such that when you turn sides, I'll get bruised….
Oh I shall take you with me,
this union of ours
body and soul, together,
I shall take you with me,
Oh my beloved.
Alex's heart thrummed wildly inside her chest at the lyrics, the butterflies in her stomach swarming every which way, down to her toes as she read the words over and over.
Maggie had been too shy to say this to her and her heart melted at her girlfriend's vulnerability. She wanted to exclaim her love for her there and then. But she knew it was too soon for Maggie. Maggie had asked to take things slow and that's what she was going to do. It warmed her insides how careful Maggie was being with them. She knew what they felt for each other wasn't something either of them had felt before, Maggie had told her as much. But Maggie had reservations; Alex knew she was scared of this being Alex's first relationship, of going too fast and breaking both their hearts. And Alex wanted to assuage those fears. So she forced herself to wait a little longer.
She thought for a moment, mind buzzing, before typing out a reply- a different truth to the one bursting from her soul.
Maggie…
I can't wait to see you tonight
Maggie's reply was teasing and Alex knew she was trying to mask her vulnerability:
Yeah?...Why's that?
Because I'm going to kiss you breathless…
Alex typed out, dizzy with love.
Maggie's reply came after a beat:
Is that a promise Danvers…
Alex laughed giddy at their words, at their dancing around the actual words they knew they both felt. She couldn't wait to say the words to Maggie. She knew she would just need to be patient for a little while longer.
She put her phone away, needing to get back to work. She walked backed into the DEO, humming the soft melody of the song, head and heart in the clouds.
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Anyway when are these losers gonna say I love you? But I'm kinda loving the build-up.
I have a friend who always shows me her music and translates it for me, that's where I got this idea from!
The song is 'O Saathi re' from the movie Omkara… it's one of the most beautiful songs in the world and so subtly romantic, you guys should listen to it: watch?v=TG_LEmsdZao
I only translated the parts of the songs that I thought Maggie would send to Alex, if you want the rest just let me know!
I've got an idea for another chapter, if you guys like this I'll give it a go.
Hope you enjoyed it :)