Author's Note: I'm really going to get inside the depression Regina is going through after Robin's death and at this point I have no idea with whom to pair her. She's going to be single for a while.
Chapter One.
Regina opened her eyes. It was 3 in the afternoon. She went to bed at 4 after midnight so this wasn't big of a surprise or her. She lay in her bed for a little while. She had another dream about Robin and this time it was harder for her to remember he was gone. In her dream everything was fine. The just got back from vacation and everything seemed too good to be real. And sadly, it wasn't real. She hated it when she dreamed about him. Not that she wouldn't do anything to have him back in her life, but she wanted to move on so badly. The moving on won't come if she kept dreaming about him every single night. There was nothing she could do and that often put her in a very difficult mental state.
When she finally found the strength to pull herself up, Regina looked outside the window. The Sun was calmly spreading its light through the whole Storybrooke. Regina put on some clothes and went to the first floor. She turned to coffee machine on and as soon as her coffee was ready she pour some milk in it and light a cigarette. She promised Henry she won't smoke anymore, but she couldn't help it.
She sat on the sofa and stared into the nothingness. She was alone and more importantly – lonely. Snow came by the other night and tried to cheer her up. The two drank some red wine and had a nice dinner, but that didn't help. As soon as Snow was gone, Regina went back into her dark place. Regina didn't want to be miserable forever. She knew that one day she had to move on from this, find a new boyfriend, marry and live her happily ever after. But how?
One of Regina's favorite books was lying on the coffee table, but she didn't have the strength to get the book and focus on the words. She wanted Robin. She wanted him to be back, so they can be happy together. There were times when she would think about Roland and wonder if he was okay, but she knew that deep down the Merry Men would be good to the boy. After all, she wasn't in her right place to look after a kid right now, so maybe it was for the best.
Regina peaked at her wristwatch only to discover that it was around five. That surprised her. Ever since Robin died she felt like the time stood still and it was always shocking to discover that it actually wasn't. Reina got a text from Zelena, who asked if it was okay to stop by. Regina didn't even reply she knew that her sister would come anyway. Regina made herself another coffee and then went outside. She renovated her porch and now there were coffee table and a swinging bench. It took Zelena ten minutes to show up on the lawn.
She hugged Regina, who was sitting on the bench and went inside to make herself herbal tea. She, then, went back outside and sat next to Mills. The two sisters stood there in complete silence. Zelena didn't have anything to say to her sister and knew that everything would just make her sadder than she already was. So they just drank their beverages and then Zelena hugged Regina for a while. She then went home, after giving a sincere kiss on Regina's cheek, which Regina appreciated.
The time went on and it was around eight, when Henry showed on Regina's doorstep. She was too sad to actually prepare anything for him, but he already ate at his grandparents. He was going to spend the night at Regina's. She was happy to have her son around and even smiled when she saw him. The night went normal as Henry played some video games, ate some popcorn and went to bed.
Regina really wanted to talk and really needed her life back, but it just wasn't possible. The misery was written all over her face and everyone knew it, so that's why they didn't push her.
It was one after midnight when Regina went out. She walked around the Storybrooke streets. She wandered around. Everything about this town reminded her of him. All of those places where they used to go together now seemed empty and dark. And it wasn't just because it was night. She stopped feeling the light a long time ago and she was afraid that this time she won't be able to come back from this. Sure, she killed the Evil Queen, but did she really? It seemed like she can never be happy again, with or without the Evil Queen.
What was there left for Regina? Nothing.
She had her son, who would be just fine on his own and he had his other mother and his grandparents, even Hook. So they would all miss Regina for a little while, but then go back to their lives. And frankly, Regina wouldn't blame them.
Her life was over. Her happy ending was gone. She had lost all of the meaning she once had and now that spot in her soul was filled with nothingness.
Regina sat on a bench by the ocean and looked at the water. The Moon was round and orange-ish. It was reflecting on the water making a sort of track which started from the Moon and ended at Regina. The starts seemed even closer than before. Regina closed her eyes and lit another cigarette.
She asked herself if she would ever be happy and for a second there she had hope. Hope that the right person for her would one day come and everything would make sense. Maybe she should go back to her job as a Mayor and just try and make it all work. Giving up now would be what her old self would do, so she wasn't going to surrender. This wasn't what Robin would want for her. Not one bit. He'd want her to move on and be happy, even if it wasn't with him. Regina wished that one day she was happy again. She opened her eyes only to see a shooting star lighting the sky. She smiled. Her smile was real and she felt warmth inside of her. She wanted to carry on. She wanted to have a happy ending. And she was going to fight for it.
She carried on walking and one hour later went back home. She went to bed, only to dream about Robin. She woke up in the middle of the night and just wasn't able to fall back in sleep. It was 7 in the morning. Regina made pancakes for Henry and coffee for herself. She then walked her son to the school bus and went to work.
Her office seemed weird and not like before. She made a couple of phone calls and the renovation plan started. That means that she couldn't be in her office for at least a week. She stopped by the police station and just sat there while David and Emma did their job. She had coffee with them, they tried to cheer her up, but it just wasn't working. Everything changed when Emma got an emergency phone call. She stormed out of the police station and Regina went after her. The two ended up in the forest where they saw a man. He looked like a homeless man and it felt so weird going after him, but maybe Emma had a reason to chase him. A couple of minutes later, the man was on the ground and Emma was on top of him. The man turned and showed himself to Regina. She was shocked.
"Graham?"