I Tried to Make You Happy

I do not own anything that has to do with gravitation, I just a a lot of stories for the characters/ please read, comment, and enjoy.

Begining of the End

Shu's POV

Once again he yells at me. This time I can't find a reason why. I remember the tv being on, I remember laughing. He was working. I must have interrupted him again. He came out yelling at me. Saying I need to stop being a pest, a brat, a nuiscense. He yells that I'm useless, that I should be in the grave and Kitsawa alive instead. He said I should shut up forever because no one likes my voice. He said I should just leave and never come back because nobody would miss someone like me. All I want is Yuki to be happy. So when he stormed back to his study, I sat on the couch. I was too shocked to cry, to do anything I was numb. I walked slowly towards our room, I mean his room. Looking through some drawers, I found a neddle and thread. Still numb, I walked towards the bathroom. Looking through everything, I found the blade so nicely put away. I walked out of the bathroom, pass his study, through the living room, to the front door. I didn't even pause to grab my coat or shoes. I just walked out. I walked and walked til I was at the park. The same park that started everything. I walked til I got to that bench where I was first sitting when I met him. I sat down. Looking at the objects in my hands. It rained earlier because there was a puddle beneath my feet. It was a perfect mirror. I sat the blade down. Getting down on my knees, til was leaning over the puddle I saw my reflection. My amethys eyes were a dark purple, lifeless. My face had no emotion. I picked up the neddle and thread. Threaded the neddle. I heard his voice saying I should shut up forever. Taking that threaded neddle, I brought it to the corner of my lips and pierced through. Pain shot through me but I couldn't stop. Over again and again I sewed my lips shut until my lips were so tightly sewn I couldn't even smile. Pain numbed me. I looked down, my lips were bleeding as the thread criss-crossed over my mouth. Bending back, I grabbed the blade. It looked so pretty and cold in the dim light of the street lights. Bringing the blade down o my arm I looked down. I'd forgotten that I wore only sorts and a tank-top. Holding out my right arm, I brought the blade up and slashed. Pain tumbled over me as I slashed my skin, a cut, the BRAT was spelled, and another cut with another name on it, I did this over again with all the names he ever called me up to the middle of my upper arm. Pain throbbing and blood flowing, I repeated t on the other arm. Slashing at my shirt I craved a broken heart above my actual heart. I slashed at my legs, slashed and cut up to my privates, craved little stars and circles on my inner thighs, even cutting my personals. I drew stars in the corner of my right eye, music notes on my left.

"Stay silent at least for now, and let me move on.
Cause I'm so done playing these games with my heart
I've been around the world and back for you, and now its time to choose. "

I craved these lyrics across my chest to my hips. Finally with the pain so intense I looked at my reflection for the last time. Blood flowed at out me, everywhere. I knew I hit the main veins in my arm and legs. My breath was coming short. I was hurting everywhere. With a shaky hand I brought the blade up to my face once again, going to the corner of my left eye, I slashed across to my right and down, pain hit me like a truck running over a cat, my head pounded I couldn't see. The blade fell. Falling back on my back that somehow I managed to damage too, I layed there in my blood. My cuts burned with fire. Somehow I slowly turned and crawled til I felt wet grass, still crawling my wounds screamed in protest. I felt a tree root. Slowly lifted in to a sitting position and layed against the tree.

Now I'm here still and its getting dark, I'm so tired, I want to go to sleep. I felt blackness come and start swallowing me up. As I'm fading a hear a faint yell. I don't understand it. The voice can't reach me. I think I heard my name I don't know. I elt hands, I hear crying and yelling. My mind is going, so tired, I can't stay….I give into the dark….

I don't own the song lyrics, its Heartless by A Day to Remember. Sorry everyone for leaving you like this, but what happens next, feel free to comment me. Adios