AN- Another angsty poem, they seem to be all that I'm writing lately. Don't worry I'm not like suicidal or anything it's just what I'm writing lately. By the way the people who are reading my story 'What Do You Mean I'm Not Hermione Bloody Granger?' it will be a while before I update because I am writing the whole thing over, sorry. Anyways on with the poem.
My So-called Perfect Life
My Life
It's supposed to be perfect
Everybody thinks it is
They think that I have everything
But I don't
They don't know what goes on behind the illusion
The illusion that I've carefully held in place for 7 long years
So that they never notice that all of it is a lie
None of it is real
My life is probably worse than most
For all the pressure is placed on me
To be quiet, dependable Hermione
And that's just in school
Home is worse
Way, way worse
At home, there is no place to escape to
To get away from all of the constant fighting
That happens every day
I can't stand it anymore
I've taken so much over the past 7 years
It's too much
I have to find a way out
To get away from all of this
Away from my so-called perfect life
Trust me, I'm not and will never be perfect
The people who admire me would turn away in disgust if they found out the truth
That every night, I sob with a razor pressed to my skin
Wishing for it all to end
And it will soon
If I have my way tonight
Tonight, all of my pain and suffering will end
I'll finally be at peace
In the quiet solitude of my dormitories
I will begin my nightly ritual
But this time I won't stop
With each sob, the cuts will get deeper
And it will be with blood covered, shaking fingers
That I write my last note
To tell Harry, Ron, Ginny and Draco that I love them
I will not tell my parents that
Or the teachers that everybody thinks that I worship
Because they are the cause
They put too much pressure on me
They thought that it would make me happy
To be almost perfect
To be seen, discussing with them some complicated issue that I don't give a damn about
They will realize this when this note is taken out for all to know
That Hermione Granger is dead
I'm sorry that I left my friends
But I just couldn't take it
Ron, Harry, Ginny and Draco I love you guys
Never forget me
And to my parents and teachers
I hope you realize what you did
And mourn for the girl that you killed
With a sigh, I write my last words ever
My hands, which were so skilled and writing long drawn out essays
Have nothing more to say
I hope that I will see you all later
Don't think that I am lost and sad anymore
For I am with Sirius, Lily and James
As the last drop of blood drips down onto the parchment
I say good bye to this world forever
Hermione Granger
