A/n: I haven't written a SWAC story in a long time. After writing this, I realized I really, really missed it. I enjoyed writing this story tremendously. I hope you all like it. It's sort of sad, but hey, maybe you like sad. This story is for xXxStompingOnRosesxXx's (the most amazing person ever!) contest. Now, onto the story.

Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN SWAC! IF I DID, SONNY AND CHAD WOULD BE MARRIED ALREADY!

No matter what I do, I always forget, to forget you – Unknown.

I've always loved him, and I always will. That's the sad part, because he isn't here anymore. He's gone.

I sometimes catch myself thinking about him, in the oddest of times. When I'm laughing, i sometimes just think, wow, Chad would've thought this was funny. But then I realize, he'll never know how funny it is, because he's never coming back. And it's because of me. He's gone, because he was fighting for me, and got hurt. He's gone because I pushed him away.

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I can't sleep anymore. It's sad really, because when I close my eyes, all I see is his face. And when I fall asleep, all I dream about is him.

That's what was happening right now. I was sitting on my bed staring at the wall. Everything that used to mean so much, seemed like nothing at all.

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No one knows what it's like, when you learn that the one you love is gone. It's like all the air is sucked from the earth and you're dying slowly. I wonder- I wonder if he feels the same. I see him around the studio sometimes. He's always laughing. I never laugh anymore. Not after what happened. Why can't we be a normal couple? Why aren't we a couple at all?

No, we can't be a couple. It's too hard; we're too different. We're like Romeo and Juliet, or like Freddie and Sam. We're so different from one another, and yet, that's what makes us beautiful. That's what makes us shine. What I'd do to see him smile at me again.

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He's really beautiful, you know? And no, I wasn't making a mistake. Although he may be handsome to others, he's always been beautiful to me. He's filthy beautiful. He's the kind of beautiful that's dangerous and wrong. Maybe that's the reason I fell so hard for him.

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I loved when we fought, not the big, horrible fights, but the silly arguments. There was something about him when we bantered. The way he seemed to sparkle and shine. And what can I say, I guess I'm a sucker for shiny, sparkly things.

I miss him.

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I can't forget him.

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I won't forget him.

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Because who the hell can forget Chad Dylan Cooper?